GIRL WE MISSED YOU OMG anyways would you like an excuse to share whatever you like about your drs and/or will because I'd like to know
omg hiii!!! i’m so happy to be back hehehhe! yes yes yes i would LOVE an excuse for this! okay soooo let me get started with my fame dr which is my most beloved one as of! i’m in a special uni program which collaborates with the best unis in specialised degrees so i get to do my degree across edinburgh, london, paris, and rome! ALSOOO i’m studying culture, curation, criticism with international politics and relations as my first degree and then my second degree since im doing dual majors is sports, exercise, and rehabilitation science! let me know if i should talk about my modules and stuff LOLLL!! this is my fav dr as i get to be a figure skater and dancer and athlete just for fun without the stress of competing (that’s for my boyfriend, fraser minten in the nhl)! i’m a model and filmmaker as well, and have produced SOOO many award winning films which i could talk about for days on end! some book adaptations, and some purely from my own ideas! so i basically get to do everything i love in this dr, including being able to write pieces on my substack and model in fashion week!!! eeeek! isn’t that exciting? i also love thinking of all the premiere looks possible in this dr! also fun fact! in this dr, my dad is an nhl legend turned corporate businessman (boring), and my uncle is a football legend turned pundit and businessman! so technically…i’m a nepo baby? this dr is everythinggg to me omg pls ask more and more and more (about other drs too) IM SO HAPPY FIRST ASK!
( grand sea & skates on gravel ) for the summer breeze ask game !!
summer breeze <3
⠀⠀⠀☆⠀⠀⠀grand sea
⠀⠀this is gonna sound really cliche, but i consider the ocean (or any body of water) as a turbulent yet beautiful force of nature. everything about the ocean is so intriguing; you never know how the tides will go, you never know what is really lingering in there, you never know how the waves will be. it's unpredictable, no amount of forecast can accurate predict the crashing of waves on the shore, but still, looking at how alive it is, makes me feel alive.
⠀⠀⠀☆⠀⠀⠀skates on gravel
⠀⠀golf is surprisingly what makes me feel more alive? why? because it's the worlds most unpredictable and frustrating game known to mankind. and i struggle, i really do, but struggling is what makes me feel alive. being on the golf course having the time of my life with my friends and family is one thing, but playing the game is another. it reminds me that it doesn't matter what pace you go, you'll always end up in the right place; it doesn't matter how quick you swing at the ball, it'll reach the hole in the end. it makes me feel alive, all the emotion i feel throughout the game. and maybe that is what keeps me going back!
THE BADDEST BITCHES ARE...
⠀⠀⠀a day in my life across the seasons (and world) in my fame dr!
note:⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀oh wowwww new dr! new dr! new dr! sorry for being offline and not making as many posts as i could, i was in china so my internet was sooo unstable urgh anyways i finally am making a post about my fame dr! so classic but love it so much anyways <33 also this song has been playing on repeat because i cannot describe how real the lyrics are to me as someone from a super small country! also i've realised this is a lot of rambling and a little long oopsies!
A DAY IN AUTUMN!
⠀⠀⠀⠀starting off with autumn since it's the beginning of the university year! i'm always so glad to see the leaves turn into shades of yellow and orange and for the air to get colder because i know my favourite season is coming soon and hot chocolate season is back! and, yes, whilst the rain does get more frequent, the chillier weather is so much better compared to the absolute heat of summer. and also because that means my best wardrobe gets to show up. autumn isn't just halloween and hot chocolate and the start of university (which i'm especially excited for because i'm doing a university program which spans across edinburgh, london, rome, and paris), it's also the start of everything which brings me joy! my birthday in october which i've learnt to love, cozy nights in bed reading and writing, weather which i get to dance comfortably in, and so much more!
⠀⠀⠀⠀anyways, a typical day in autumn starts at around eight in the morning for me; some earlier as i head to the rink for an early morning session and some later if i don't have a lecture or seminar in the morning. i typically spend my autumn in edinburgh which is, in my opinion, the best place to be in autumn. yes, it's gloomy. yes, it's rainy. but, my god, do i love it. there are weekends and some few days i spend outside scotland (sometimes taking a cheeky trip to boston to visit my boyfriend when i've got a couple days off or just a weekend trip with my friends), but overall, i am mostly in edinburgh which is so so dreamy! i love my flat in edinburgh old town which i'm in the heart of, more or less, and so do my friends who come visit me from glasgow.
⠀⠀⠀⠀as i was saying, my day typically starts at around eight where i get up, make myself a cup of matcha, and sit on my window seat journalling or reading as i try to wake myself up. i admit, sometimes i set my alarm half an hour early just so i can rot in bed for a bit, but i typically like my mornings slow, except from when i have mornings at the rink, but they don't happen as often now that i'm not competing. i choose my fit, take a shower, and pack my bag before heading out the door as i typically have late morning lectures and seminars which are my most preferred ones. i take a slow walk to campus, sometimes stopping by a store or two if i have time, and listen to music through my earphones as i walk in that autumn sun. sometimes i meet my friends for breakfast or stop by a cafe for hot chocolate, but i just go by what i feel like doing. once i get to campus, i attend my scheduled lessons for the day and if i have work to get done, i'll head to the library to study or do work for a bit! i do a double program, which means i do two degrees at once! my first degree is called culture, criticism, and curation with international politics and relations where i learn everything from comparative literature to politics to sociology to economics! this is a really useful degree for me as a filmmaker, as i find myself most creative when i learn more than just film techniques and i don't like to press myself to come up with story after story. my second degree is in sports, exercise, and rehabilitation science as i'm super passionate about athletes and sports, being one myself. so much of my family are athletes, my dad was an nhl player and my uncle was a footballer, and so sports has always influenced my life which is why i chose this degree! my dissertation is probably gonna be focused on acl injuries in women's sports for this degree most likely, but i've got years to go!
⠀⠀⠀⠀after my lessons and studying, i like to head to the rink for lessons or just to practice. i love the feeling of being on ice, especially after a difficult day. some days i also do dance and gymnastics after my time on ice, but i'm always always gonna be skating. i love my coaches and friends so much, and they always make the environment so much more fun! skating without the pressure of competition and just for the fun of it is so freeing, and honestly, all my issues melt away whenever i'm on the ice! it's a good way for me to detach, and i'm always in my own world in that rink. dance is either commercial, contemporary, or ballet, and gymnastics is either rhythmic or artistic; it just depends on what's on the schedule that week and day! if i don't have any practice that day, i like to wander around edinburgh with my friends and sit in a cafe with them. i also love love LOVE to walk around and browse the bookstores! anyways, after my typical training days, i would go back to rest for a bit and leave myself to do whatever i want to do, whether it's watching a new film or reading with my cd player on! after a little, i will also either cook or go somewhere to eat after because, believe it or not, a dozen matcha lattes and hot chocolates a day, plus some treats, isn't enough to fuel your body.
⠀⠀⠀⠀i also make sure to update my international friends and my very lovely boyfriend about my life, uni, and everything else across the day which means i spam their phones and they spam my phones in return! long distance kinda sucks, i won't lie, but having the freedom to fly to boston to visit my boyfriend and to watch his games and being able to meet my friends in the cities they call their home makes it all so worth it. how grateful i am to have friendships and a relationship worth the distance!
⠀⠀⠀⠀my day usually ends at around midnight, and if i'm out with my friends or at socials, they end at around two! i like to unwind by having a really nice and hot shower before reading and writing! i also love to call my friends and family, and sometimes i just sit on facetime with fraser as we both ramble about life and do our own things. sometimes, i'll even get to say hi to some of the other bruins if he's at the rink which is also really fun! i also like to do some writing and storyboarding for my films, as well as getting in contact with my management at times. sometimes, if i have a bunch of work and revision to do, i'll stay up for a bit longer and focus on that instead, but other than that, it's always a relaxed and fun night!
A DAY IN WINTER!
⠀⠀⠀⠀my favourite season ever! i love winter with all my heart, and i've always been a winter girl at heart! i spend winter typically across paris and rome which is so fun! i love skiing and snowboarding, which i escape the city for, heading to st anton in western austria which my dad has a chalet at (it's always been my go to destination)! i'm such a child at heart when it comes to playing in the snow, making snow angels, and starting snowball fights. i also love skating outdoors (especially if it's snowing) which makes everything so magical. i also love a classic winter wonderland visit and a good bailey's hot chocolate as my friends and i roam around and go on the rides. everything about the season is so magical, even when it goes dark at four or five, and i love seeing all the christmas and new years lights! i also have a proper university break then, which i spend in boston with fraser and with my family up in montreal! i also managed to do the family skate with fraser which was so unbelievably cool and i was so happy to meet all his teammates and their partners (and some of the cutest kids ever). and also being able to cheer for him and the team during games was so unreal after having to do it all over television for forever!
⠀⠀⠀⠀there are two typical days in winter for me: one on break in boston, and one when i'm in university in paris or rome. i'll go over both (and a day up in the mountains as well because i love snow season so much).
⠀⠀⠀⠀a typical day in my life when i'm at university starts off the same- a good reading or writing session with my matcha. i also then do the same old thing with my lectures and seminars, but i study and revise extra hard because right after break are my exams and assessments which mean that i really have to get work done if i want to have a peaceful break in boston and not have to revise too much then. so, i spend longer times in libraries studying and revising, sometimes with friends as well! i also somehow read a ton more books and write more in the coldness of winter, which is kind of expected. i've always felt more alive and productive in cold weather, and i always feel an extra bit like myself...i guess you could say winter completes me in a way. i also don't skate as much when in paris and rome, instead i dance a lot more (particularly ballet), and also typically do pilates or go through hell at barry's which is honestly really questionable. i love dancing a lot more in paris and rome, as i really feel the differences in the french, italian, and russina ballet styles as someone who was trained in vaganova. in france, movements are a little more elegant and precise with faster footwork, compared to italy where things are more on brilliance and power, and in vaganova (the russian style) i am more used to all the power, flexibility, and drama. i honestly really struggle in the french style the most as it is more subtle than what i was trained on, the placement is different as well, but that's why i like dancing ballet there so much as i love a good challenge. and, the thing about dance and ballet is that the more precise and controlled your movements are, the more free you feel.
⠀⠀⠀⠀in paris and rome, my books are read in french, italian, and english! it's a good way for me to read authors the way i feel they are meant to be read (aka in their original language), and also a good way to make sure my language skills are still in tact. however, i still take my school notes and study in english as my lectures and seminars are taught in english!
⠀⠀⠀⠀i also tend to spend more time out eating and hanging out with my friends in paris and rome, and also i go shopping there more often (as much as i hate to admit it). the food and shopping scene in both cities are just SO good, and i love hanging out with my friends there. i also love love visiting museums in my free time so paris is really ideal for me, my personal favourites in paris are musée gustave moreau and musée d'orsay! sometimes, i take a day trip or a weekend trip out of the city, but i mostly spend my time in them as there's so much to do and so much to revise on! my flat in paris is in the 15th arrondissement which is such a blessing and easily one of my favourite places in the city that i could easily spend all the day at. my flat in rome is in parioli, which is a really nice neighbourhood and i love being able to go to a bunch of parks within good distance!
⠀⠀⠀⠀whilst this does span multiple cities, my days are roughly the same in autumn and winter; wake up and have a slow morning, classes and studying, some form of exercise, take a calm walk around (a park or museum preferably but around the city is great too) or go to a cafe with my friends, have some food as i read and write or watch a film, chill in bed and call my friends and family, sleep (with a cheeky social and night out here and there). it's basically this, accept some more studying in the winter and a lot more days out in cafes and shopping! i love spending time with my friends, dancing around the streets under the warm yellow lights, and i love being productive in the winters (strange considering most get seasonal depression).
⠀⠀⠀⠀as for my days in boston on break, i stay in fraser's flat, and i spend my time exploring the city, wandering around with friends, writing and reading, and going to his hockey games. i also spend time skating at the rink! boston is such a cool city and i've never really been much, so exploring has been super duper fun! also being at games to cheer fraser on in person is just so amazing and fun, compared to weird timings and waking up in the middle of the night to catch a game. we have dates together and he cooks up a delicious dinner for me when we have nights in and ohhhh how grateful i am to have a relationship worth the distance and for someone to love me no matter the time between us! whenever i'm around him it's super nice and i just feel so at home, it's really sweet, and we both have nice nights in with classical music playing as we read our own books! my favourite though is when we exchange book reviews and head to the bookstore together! it's also nice to have a late average wake up time, and not having lectures and seminars to attend, so i'm able to have free and easy days where i just go wherever the wind takes me!
⠀⠀⠀⠀my days in the mountains are different, however. i'm up even before the sun rises, fuelling up for the day and immediately getting ready for a whole day out skiing or snowboarding (whatever i'm feeling the most like doing). i'm there on the first chairlift up and i'm on the last chairlift down, spending my whole day exploring the mountain i'm ever so familiar with. of course, i have lunch at the overpriced mountains and breaks with nine euro hot chocolates which is criminal, but most of my time is just feeling the cold breeze in my air as i go down the mountain. dinner is fun as well, sometimes at a restaurant, or sometimes in the chalet around the fire place!
A DAY IN SPRING!
⠀⠀⠀⠀i spend spring in london, staying in my flat in south kensington which i adore ever so much. spring usually comes with the end of the fourth teaching block and when spring revision weeks come about, before the end of semester exams which are nerve wrecking. obviously i do a lot of prep and studying before it, so it goes by quite breezy, but the final teaching block usually is the most carefree yet stressful which makes no general sense to be honest! i get up a little earlier in the mornings to revise, and in london i try to balance out skating and dance as a way for me to take my mind off university and for me to have breaks so i don't get burnt out.
⠀⠀⠀⠀when i'm not revising, in lessons, or exercising, however, i am spending time in hyde park, having picnics with my friends as we journal and read, bathing in the spring sun. london in spring is gorgeous, with flowers on trees blooming. i typically also take a walk from south ken to chelsea, having breakfast or brunch out with my friends and going out for a yummy dinner with them as well! i also consume tons more matcha and drinks in london than i do in the other cities for whatever reason, but maybe it's the amount of coffee store and cafes around! living close to two major museums is also really really nice for a museum lover like me where i manage to take calm walks around and take in the atmosphere.
⠀⠀⠀⠀i also love to read on my terrace, enjoying the sun and the feeling of being in london! however, i definitely do consume less books and films as i focus on revision for my exams. however, i still make it a point to journal! it's easy to get into a bad headspace with burn out when examinations are just around the corner, so i always make sure to be around people that i love, doing what i love, and giving myself breaks. i've had enough of burn out honestly, and i've learnt to regulate and compartmentalising.
⠀⠀⠀⠀fraser is also really stressed around this time, with trying his best to make it to and doing well in play offs, so we do our best to facetime to keep each other in a good headspace and being able to talk it all out. i also make sure to still spend time talking to my other international friends, despite being unable to take trips to their cities as much as i would love to due to my focus on doing well in my practicals and exams. my nights are spent just talking it out with my friends, family or fraser, and i like hanging around with my london friends before and after our lessons and revision sessions!
⠀⠀⠀⠀but, once my examinations and the university year ends, the relief is just so incredible. i usually have a nice dinner with my friends to celebrate before going on all the trips i've been wanting to make! my friend group and i also do a trip to celebrate! we're not the type to party, but we just do fun nights paying card games, exploring cinemas and watching films, and wandering around cities. my favourite place has to be florence and copenhagen, so we usually go there as well for fun where we roam the streets, eat delicious food, and go to museums and bookstores alongside other very pretty places! i usually also pack my suitcase up and head to boston to be with fraser, and to visit my friends in new york city and montreal!
⠀⠀⠀⠀but, as spring comes to an end, i have to dread my most hated season: summer.
A DAY IN SUMMER!
⠀⠀⠀⠀i suppose i do kind of like summer; that is being able to spend time with fraser, my friends, and my family more, being able to consume an ungodly amount of gelato without being judged, the feeling of plunging into water when it's burning out and being able to play golf without layers and layers.
⠀⠀⠀⠀summer is spent mostly travelling for me, hanging by the beach, consuming a bunch of gelato (as per usual but i'm not judged), and also cycling around! i have to admit, it does feel nice, but only when it's not a heatwave...still, i don't completely like summer. fraser is busy with off season training after a bit, which is when i settle back in canada, travelling between vancouver, toronto, and montreal to visit all my friends (haha, perks of going to an international school, am i right?) i also love being able to hang out with fraser a lot more, without the stress of university or the nhl season on both of our shoulders.
⠀⠀⠀⠀i travel a lot in the summer; around italy, france, greece, portugal, switzerland, austria, copenhagen, and sweden during the summer, not forgetting a trip to visit my friends in asia, particularly thailand and singapore! however, it's summer all year round there, so it's not as bad as it is in italy where heatwaves get incredibly bad. if i have time, i will go down to new zealand and australia where i can enjoy winter again before heading for the states. but, that depends a lot on how much time i have and how much i wish to spend across continents. in summer, i also read a lot, whether it be on planes or at home. i also tend to write more, especially after consuming more literature. okay, i admit, summer is better than i say it is, but still.
⠀⠀⠀⠀as for sports go in the summer, i engage in tennis and golf mostly. i love golf, despite it being the most frustrating game known to mankind. i also love to play football (not soccer) with my friends and go sailing when i can! the breeze in your face on the ocean is just a feeling i cannot describe except for the feeling i get on ice, and i guess they're on par. i also love love spending my days watching films, specifically rom-coms, as that is what i'm more in the mood for during hot summer days. i'm also a hundred percent more likely to browse magazines in summer, usually vogue, so i do that as well! i also love being able to go to some grand prix events in formula one and motogp as i'm more free to do so, which is exactly what i do!
⠀⠀⠀⠀as the sun sets late in the summer, i also spend more time out in summer, exploring cities and waiting out till late to see the sunset. i love cycling with fraser as well, and then eating a bunch of fresh fruit after! i also tend to do more art as well, spending time making all sorts of crafts. i mean, i guess summer isn't that bad.
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lilymadscb been here & there!
mackcelebrini san jose is better
⠀⠀⠀_slafkovsky_ you wish
⠀⠀⠀mackcelebrini lilymadscb tell him i'm right!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb sorry mack i was born a hab 🙂↕️ can't help
lauraabla you've been everywhere BUT barcelona :(
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb i'm coming back soon!!! 💞
⠀⠀⠀lauraabla good! we all miss you ESPECIALLY a certain player... 😉
user1 how does she know slaf and mack? my two worlds are colliding
⠀⠀⠀user2 her dad's an nhl legend so it's probably because of that
⠀⠀⠀user3 more surprising how the barca players and wags are here
lamineyamal hurry up and come back, i can't take pau saying he misses you any longer!!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb you're so dramatic 🙄
⠀⠀⠀pablogavi lilymadscb you don't know how bad it is!!!
user4 how does she know the barca players?? and are we ignoring lamine's comment??
⠀⠀⠀user5 i mean, he's definitely not helping the rumours of her and pau being a thing
⠀⠀⠀user6 she's been seen attending games since the second half of last season so...
rachelzegler my favourite filmmaker!!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb my lucy gray!!
arberxhekaj_ nice to have you back at bell centre!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb missed it so much!
colecaufield can take the girl out of montreal but not the montreal out the girl
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb PREACH!
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lilymadscb featuring suki waterhouse, sam claflin, jacob fortune-lloyd, ella purnell and more amazing actors, trailer for mystifier is out now! can't wait for everyone to see what we've been working on 💞
sukiwaterhouse watch sam get back on instagram for this post lolll
⠀⠀⠀mrsamclaflin not sure what else i expected to be fair
mrsamclaflin when did you even take that picture??
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb when you were taking a nap!
⠀⠀⠀mrsamclaflin CLEARLY??
⠀⠀⠀user1 LMAOO sam redownloading instagram just to see this
user2 i'm so hyped for the movie the cast is so amazing!!!!
user3 the last picture is so funny and so relatable
4tunelloyd chills just thinking about how huge that spider was
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb SAME
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb thank you for killing it hehehe 😇
⠀⠀⠀4tunelloyd it was traumatising.
ella_purnell still not sure why i was the one being texted to kill a spider...
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb YOU WERE THE FIRST PERSON IN MY MESSAGES
⠀⠀⠀ella_purnell okay but was it necessary to traumatise ME as well??
⠀⠀⠀4tunelloyd i'm the one who had to chase it around????
user4 i always love seeing all the chaos in lily's comments
⠀⠀⠀user5 always love all her interactions with everyone
⠀⠀⠀user6 it's so obvious she gets along well with her cast and they love her so much too it's so cute
imsebastianstan always chaos on your sets...
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb you talk as if it's your first time working with me 😐
⠀⠀⠀imsebastianstan point still stands.
lauraabla i'm so proud of you!!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb aww thank you 💞
user7 the trailer looks so good i know this will be 5 stars on my letterboxd
mackcelebrini can you get me and will tickets to the premiere pleaseee
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb i'll think about it...
⠀⠀⠀fraserminten woah woah slow down now, get in line!! i asked first!
⠀⠀⠀colecaufield you don't get to skip the queue just cause you're dating her bestie bud
⠀⠀⠀_connorbedard try to bribe her with desserts first man
⠀⠀⠀michaelmisa_ woahh why just you and will?? what about the rest of us?
user8 LOLL i love all the nhl players in the comment section
⠀⠀⠀user9 you can always count on lily's comment sections being chaotic
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lilymadscb so happy to see bikes go vroom! 🏁
gemmpinto aww the last picture 🥹
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb mama y papa 🤸🏻♀️
⠀⠀⠀marcmarquez93 jajajajaja lilymadscb
user1 lily being marc and gemma's unofficial child makes so much sense to me
alexmarquez73 why am i not in this?? 😐
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb oopsies
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb to be fair, i only have the selfies you took on my phone!!
lamineyamal i can't believe we weren't invited!!!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb who is we??
⠀⠀⠀pablogavi US
⠀⠀⠀paucubarsi everyone 😒
⠀⠀⠀pedri our team???
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb you guys told me you were busy when i asked if you were free???
⠀⠀⠀ferrantorres you didn't tell us it was motogp?!
user2 LMAOO the barca team in the comments
olliebearman you never come to the f1 paddock anymore ☹️
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb sorry ollie 😣 will find time to come back
⠀⠀⠀olliebearman you better!!
⠀⠀⠀kimi.antonelli lilymadscb i feel like the last time you came to visit i was still in f2!! 😒
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb kimi.antonelli it wasn't that long ago 🙄
lilymhe great, now come back to f1!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb WHY IS EVERYONE ASKING ME TO??
⠀⠀⠀lilymhe BECAUSE IT'S BEEN FOREVER SINCE YOU'VE COME!
⠀⠀⠀alex_albon BECAUSE WE MISS YOU!
user3 wait how does lily know ollie and the f1 grid?
⠀⠀⠀user4 i think she was first friends with ollie and kimi when they were in f2 and also was close to lily he so that's how she got close to the grid
⠀⠀⠀user5 ikr this girl knows almost everyone it's crazy
user6 i love how every comment section of lily's post is always filled with chaos lolll
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lilymadscb back on home turf(s)!
lauraabla ANDDD she's finally back!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb yes yes yes!!!
lamineyamal finally pau can shut up about how much he misses you 🙄
⠀⠀⠀paucubarsi excuse me?
⠀⠀⠀lamineyamal i stand by what i said.
paucubarsi ❤️
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb 💗
user1 OH MY GODDD pau and lily are finally confirmed??
⠀⠀⠀user2 i feel like they've been confirmed for forever 😭
evameloche coolest girl everrrr
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb says you! 🪞
sofyasamodelkina cutest girl
_slafkovsky_ come back to montreal
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb i was there last month??
⠀⠀⠀fraserminten lilymadscb no come to boston!!
⠀⠀⠀mackcelebrini lilymadscb hello??? come to san jose and see us
anthonymackie very very cool
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb the only marvel actor cool enough to be on social media! 🥰
⠀⠀⠀imsebastianstan lilymadscb what the hell does that mean?
user3 lily is my niche it girl
user4 how are we the same age??
anyataylorjoy okay wow 1) you're so cool 2) i miss you
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb i miss you too ☹️💞
romymars you're living the lifeeee
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb would be even better with you around 😋
user5 the comment section of lily's post is it's own cinematic universe
user6 oh to be eighteen and to be able to consider multiple countries my home
user7 i want to be you when i'm older (you're younger than me)
fraserminten too cool
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb thank you my fav bruin
⠀⠀⠀jameshagens_4 lilymadscb ???
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb jameshagens_4 i stand on what i said
harvelliott can't believe we lost you to barcelona...
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb NEVERRRR i will die a red #ynwa
⠀⠀⠀pablogavi lilymadscb what??
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lilymadscb proof of existence 🪽
imsebastianstan wow i'm featured!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb yes of course 🙂↕️
user1 omg new seb pic just dropped THANK YOU LILY
pablogavi why no pic credits for the fifth one???
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb 😇
lauraabla my dj prodigy 😜
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb i'm surprisingly good at it hehehe
user2 the last slide is so real omgg
user3 how does it feel like to be the best filmmaker in the world
paucubarsi 😍
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb ❤️
evameloche so cool my girl 🙆🏼♀️
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb come over to barcelonaaa!!!
sukiwaterhouse can you dj my house parties now?
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb lemme practice first...
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb aren't you the literal musician here??
4tunelloyd alwayssss on a side quest this girl
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb it's just who i am! 😋
lanehutson_ if we make playoffs will you have a premiere in montreal??
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb bro 1) i was already going to do one 2) who says playoffs weren't already an expectation???
⠀⠀⠀_slafkovsky_ always high expectations for us...
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb _slafkovsky_ it's not high expectations, it's belief!!
⠀⠀⠀colecaufield dude i told you to ask for tickets as well??
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb colecaufield i was already gonna give them to you guys silly gooses 🙄
olliebearman still no f1 paddock plans...
⠀⠀⠀kimi.antonelli she's abandoned us for motogp...
⠀⠀⠀alex_albon it's such a cruel world...
⠀⠀⠀lilymhe we've been forgotten...
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb guys you're actually so dramatic
anapelayozz queen of photodumps!
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lilymadscb bfi london film festival!! always so fun to be back in london and such an honour to be surrounded by such amazing filmmakers and actors 💞 sosososo happy to be presented with the award for best film and even happier to be surrounded by all my friends and love throughout this festival! 🎬
ella_purnell i can't believe we nearly made the photobooth machine run out
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb i LOVED the photobooth machine whoever put that needs a raise
⠀⠀⠀4tunelloyd lilymadscb i feel like having a photobooth machine there was more of a highlight than winning another award for you
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb 4tunelloyd shhhh 🤫
sukiwaterhouse festival was fun but our hangouts after were even better!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb much needed hangouts 🤩
tamsinamy still in awe of you
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb i hope to see you and rhubarb next time!!! 💞
rachelzegler such a superstar!!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb aww rach 🥹🫶🏻 love youuu
user1 i still can't believe i managed to get a selfie with you!!
user2 another award in the books for her 🤯
⠀⠀⠀user3 super well deserved one as well!
zendaya film legend.
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb this means so much omfg thank you!!! 💞🤯
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb i can't believe that you're in my comments this is unreal to me ohmygod
chrisevans generational superstar!!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb thank you chris heheh 😋
user4 oh she's the next big thing for sure
⠀⠀⠀user5 she's ALREADY the big thing
francisfordcoppola you're an amazing and legendary filmmaker!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb OH MY GOD
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb THIS IS INSANE
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb THANK YOU SO MUCH OH MY GOD
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb IM ABOUT TO CRY OF HAPPINESS WTF
romymars mind directing my music video next? 😗
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb yes of course???!!
sofiacoppola cannot wait to watch the new films!
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb thank you so much 🥹💗
daisyedgarjones so glad to see you there! i've missed you 💗
⠀⠀⠀lilymadscb we need to see each other again soon 😭
user6 it's impossible for an industry to all collectively agree on how good someone is but lily is so good that she has made the impossible possible 😭
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summer breeze & wind chimes ♱ a shifting ask game. it’s that time of the year!! while summer is my least favourite season, i have things i’m grateful for during this period. here are some summer-themed or summer-adjacent questions!
⚹ shell’s echoes · when in an overwhelming situation, whose word of advice or comfort always comes back to you? what reminds you of home?
⚹ grand sea · who do you consider a turbulent, yet beautiful, force of nature in your reality? unpredictable, yet just as magnetic?
⚹ sunken anchor · when the currents are strong & you find yourself slipping, who/what keeps you tethered? what’s something they say or do to take care of you?
⚹ ice-cold popsicles · what’s a favourite childhood/early memory you revisit? why? who’s in it?
⚹ skates on gravel · what’s your favourite summer activity that makes you feel alive? is it a tradition? is it solitary or not? if not, who’s involved?
⚹ half a mango · do you have family members or friends with whom you have to share things (e.g. fan, air conditioner, first in the shower) with in summer? do you fight over it?
⚹ cruisin’ on · is there a certain place you love to visit during the summer holidays? or a dream destination? with company, or alone?
⚹ thriving blooms · is there something you can do during summer that you can’t during other seasons (whether it be due to the weather, the time of the year, or something else)?
⚹ heatwave · do the people you’re usually surrounded by feel the same way you do about summer? why or why not?
⚹ boombox · is there a song (or a few) that specifically remind you of summer, which you’d love to blast with the windows rolled down? how does it make you feel?
VISCA BARÇA Y VISCA CATALUÑA
⠀⠀⠀barcelona's 29th league title (and the build up to it) in my athlete anything dr!
note:⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i am so beyond happy that barca won! at least something good has come from this weekend...anyways, this dr deserves a proper introduction (soon, soon, i promise) but it is a mix of my photographer athlete dr and my figure skating dr. all my drs are roughly the same anyways...so...
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀there is no better way than to clinch and celebrate a league title with a win over your arch rival. it is el clásico once again, arguably one of the strongest rivalries in football, but it is not just any regular el clásico. why? because barca have the opportunity to walk away with their 29th league title. and doing that in front of real madrid...well, with it being at home, as well, it can't get any sweeter.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i had just gotten off from an overnight flight from montreal to barcelona, two days before the match. two days before the match, yet the city was already buzzing more than usual. pau picked me up from the airport, as usual, and we headed to our flat. i had completely knocked out on the flight from montreal, so i felt rather well rested, but still with some slight jet lag. still, as soon as i freshened up in the flat, i immediately got back to work. i had finished uni work for the most part, so i already had some burden lifted from my shoulders. anyways, i packed my photography bag and immediately headed to the training ground with pau.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀the thing about working in sports photography, specifically alongside footballers (even more so those you are close with), means that banter is inevitable. especially when the team you've been supporting since you were a little girl fails to put up any sort of title defence and have been playing like they've never touched a ball in their lives. yeah, liverpool, i'm talking about you. so, alongside the 'welcome back!'s and 'how have you been?'s there was the inevitable, 'so how is your football team doing?' oh, what a nuisance these guys can be. especially when one of their players is on loan from arch rival manchester united and even more so when liverpool had just suffered a 3-2 loss against them. "lily, maybe you should stop supporting liverpool and become a culer!", "ey, how is that football team of yours doing, lily?", "3-2, lily!", were just some of what was being discussed.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i suppose this is where i have to thank my good friend (and now assistant manager of barcelona), thiago, for stepping in to stop what otherwise was going to be everyone speaking ill of my favourite club in the world. the club that he had played for from 2020 to 2024, which he adored just as much as fans adored him as a player. so, yeah, two against everyone that day wasn't an easy task, but soon enough to banter subsided (we all turned to gossip about madrid for a good bit) and everyone got back down to business.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i immediately went into a quick meeting with the social media and content team, discussing what we wanted to capture, especially with the collaboration with olivia rodrigo (i've never fangirled so hard in my life), and soon got ready to capture some pictures of the training session. i took a bunch, and proceeded to get on with editing them quickly so we could upload them.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀once i was done, i waited for pau for a bit, discussing the plan for match day with the social media team as i did before we headed back to our flat. there was still quite a bit of the day left, so i decided to make the most out of my day whilst pau decided to just chill and play fifa with his friends. i did a workout class at barry's for whatever reason (where i saw heaven and came back) before doing a quick shower and outfit change to meet up with one of my friends in the city centre where we ate and did some shopping. for some reason, whenever i'm with my friends, it always seems to be 10k steps, calories, and euros.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i had the next day off as well, so i also made plans with berta who i had quickly become close with ever since we had been introduced, as i also still had no idea what to wear to the game. also because, as much as i love montreal and my girls there, i've missed barcelona a bunch. but, i guess that also plays into the beauty of being an international student: having friends from around the world and having to go "where am i not from?" when asked "where are you from?" also, i love my cross university program between mcgill and kings college for the fact i get to be in two cities studying subjects which i love. but, as chill as the rest of the day and the next was for me, the city wasn't.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀nearly everyone was buzzing with excitement over us being able to clinch the league title (over real madrid's head nonetheless), and the streets were filled with a collective sense of excitement. the fc barcelona store was packed, with people buying merchandise; scarves, jerseys, and all. i, on the other hand, was still trying to figure out what to wear to the massive match (hence me dragging berta to go shopping). the day passed by quickly, and i got home to see pau cooking dinner for us in our flat as he had a rather chill half rest day himself. obviously, he's played in massive matches before, like the supercopa de españa final (which barcelona won). still, i knew he was slightly nervous. this match, after all, is slightly different.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀we chilled for the rest of the night, i did some journalling and read for the most bit until we decided to watch the diplomat before deciding to head to sleep as it was going to be a huge day for us both (him more than me, most certainly).
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀the start of the day was as calm as it could be on such a chaotic day: breakfast as usual, then pau and i setting off for the training ground. me with my photography bag and deciding to wear a simple outfit to keep it neutral for when i am doing my job as a photographer but with pau's jersey in my bag to change into.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀the plan for the day was the same as the final of the supercopa: photograph everything pre match and in the first half before going into the stands to support pau. this time, compared to match day in jeddah, i felt more prepared and ready for the chaos ready to ensue- from the fans in the streets to what i knew would be a tense yet passionate atmosphere in camp nou.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i did the same as i always did with my photography, but this time, i also captured the passion of fans on the streets and on the way to the stadium. i captured as many shots as i felt necessary for such an amazing and exciting day, with full faith barcelona would beat madrid, before rushing to edit all the pictures and picking out my favourite ones to post. i could feel even more pressure than usual, as i saw the stands fill up with passionate fans waving their flags and scarves, but it felt lighter on me as i'd definitely gained more experience with high stake matches. and, i even got to meet olivia which i fangirled so hard over, taking a selfie with her and she even followed me back on instagram as we got talking! (we're basically besties now)
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀the first half started to a roaring crowd, an atmosphere which gave me goosebumps. nine minutes into the game, marcus scores an excellent free kick which gives barcelona the lead, sending those in red and blue in the stadium into loud roars and celebrations. then, in the eighteenth minute, ferran scores what i can only describe as nothing more than incredible. lucky to have managed to capture the two goals in its motion and its celebrations, i couldn't help but smile. especially as "madridista qui no boti" rang through the stadium and as fans chanted "olé!" everytime madrid players passed the ball.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀as the first half came to the end, i quickly rushed to edit all the pictures to be posted before making a quick change into pau's jersey which i tied slightly, cropping it, before joining the other partners in the stands. i smiled as they welcomed me back after spending quite some time in montreal and london, having not gone to a game in quite a while, catching up with them as we waited for the second half to kick off.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i have to admit, i did laugh at trent's performance. but, what can i say? nothing more than dropping a stinker in an important match. obviously, as a diehard liverpool fan, i hold quite the grudge with how he left the club, so seeing how his madrid career had all played out was hillarious. but, i was more so excited about how barcelona was outplaying madrid, and as the minutes inched closer to 90, i was more and more excited, even joining in some of the chants.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀and, as soon as the final whistle blew, the atmosphere and fans went even more crazy. the emotions poured out on the pitch, players running to each other to celebrate with jumps and hugs as they congratulated each other on a fantastic season. as expected, i was asked to come back onto the pitch to help out with photography, which i quickly rushed to do so. watching them celebrate made me smile, even more so when they started lifting hansi into the air.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀what made me the most proud, however, was seeing pau celebrating with the fans, shouting into the horn speaker as i took picture after picture as he chanted "visca barça y visca catalunya." the scenes were nothing short of amazing, as raphinha started banging the drum as everyone jumped in elation- players and fans included. soon enough, it was time for the trophy lift where i smiled so much my cheeks started hurting. i took so many pictures, but happily so as i watched the amazing scenes, fireworks lighting up the sky.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀finally, when everything was done, i put my camera aside to celebrate with pau who greeted me with a huge smile and a hug. we took a couple pictures, even with the trophy which we held together. and as the players came up to me to say hi with countless of good moments to capture, i couldn't help but pick up my camera once again (although this time my smaller one).
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀eventually, the players made their way off the pitch and into the dressing room which was nothing short of crazy celebrations. i waited for pau, editing and picking out pictures as fast as i could until i saw him come out of the dressing room, smiling widely. "i'm so proud of you," was the first thing i said, having realised i had not told him that yet. "couldn't have done it without you," he replied as he gives me a quick kiss.
WHAT'S IN MY RINK BAG!
⠀⠀⠀what's in my rink side tote bag in my figure skating dr!
note:⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i love being a figure skater and i always like having a tote with me to keep my stuff so i don't have a million things sitting on the boards! (also it's way easier to take everything) i also love this bag so much! and yes, i will make an intro post soon for this dr :)
THE BAG! VINTAGE MARC BY MARC JACOBS
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀is this admittedly a very fancy bag to have as a rink side tote...perhaps. but i really love it and think it's so cool, and i only really train at professional ice academies or on private ice time for figure skaters so i don't have to worry about public skaters snooping through my stuff. most of the time, my bag is the least cool one out of everyone, but i personally think the blue and silver hardware makes the bag so me! i have a custom organiser for it, and it keeps the bag very steady on the boards, and also i can fit everything and so much more in it! admittedly, i keep a lot more than i should in my rink tote bag, but i always carry so much as it is anyways.
THE CONTENTS! MY SKATING ESSENTIALS
༊*· snoopy & woodstock tissue box!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀the rink can get so so cold at times, and so having tissues always are a must for me! ask any skater and they will most likely have some form of tissues at the rink. my snoopy & woodstock tissue box cover has come from a tradition since i started skating, so it is very dear to me
༊*· kknekki hair ties!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀one, i love kknekki hair ties becasue they're so pretty they double as bracelets, and also they do the job well. i always have multiple hair ties in my bag just in case!
༊*· red bull!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀what can i say? red bull is my sponsor, and also red bull gives you wiiings! it helps me when i need a burst of energy during training, and also i just love red bull in general! i always have at least a can on stand by!
༊*· rockerz skate guards!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i've been using rockerz skate guards for what has felt like forever! firstly because of all the colour combinations, and also because of the fact they cut it and put the guard together for you! my colour combo now is a light purple and dark blue, which i love oh so dearly. and also, skate guards are so important to make sure you're not damaging your blades.
༊*· edea gloves!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i always have an extra pair of gloves with me, just in case anything happens to my current pair. gloves are so important to me, especially when i am doing spins and spirals where i have to grab my blade! also it's just nice to have warm hands.
༊*· two stretch resistance bands!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i have two stretch resistance bands (of different resistance) from gaynor minden which is technically meant for ballet, but these come in use for figure skating. i use it to warm up, and i also use it during footwork exercises when i want to work on my posture. there are so many ways to use resistance bands, like when working on snapping into jump rotations. so, i like to have two of different resistance with me.
༊*· lace straps and lace picker!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀so so important to have lace straps as an extra precaution for my laces to make sure they don't come lose, and the lace picker helps with tightening and loosening the laces. they make putting my skates on and taking them off so much better!
༊*· blade towel!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀my blades are dear to me and it's always important to make sure take care of them. it's useful to wipe all the excess ice and water off them to prevent them from getting rusty (no one likes rusty blades).
༊*· extra laces!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i have this paranoia that my laces might break or snap on me, and also sometimes you just need a change of laces. so, i carry an extra pair with me every time i go to the rink. just in case, and also sometimes you do need to change your laces.
༊*· skate spinner!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i don't know why this is in my rink side tote, but somehow it finds it's way in there. this spinner often gets confused as a hockey puck, it's only because it's really small which helps with balance (as when you're spinning, you're only on a small part of the blade which is your rocker).
༊*· extra bunga pads!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀bunga pads are so useful for skaters and are genuinely life saving, they help with preventing blisters and provide cushioning to elevate pressure on your feet. i used these for not just skating but dance as well, and it does help so so much. i always keep a spare tin of all the possible bunga pads i might need more off, as well as some plasters.
༊*· water bottle!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀staying hydrated in training is so important!! i always have a filled water bottle with me no matter what, and it's usually empty by the time i'm off the ice.
༊*· skating notebook and pen!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i like to write down notes on what i should work on, what i thought about a certain session, if i've done a goal or what my new goals are, corrections and drills, and anything skating and training related in a dedicated notebook. most of these are choreography notes or notes on drills i should do more, and anything my coaches tell me. it helps to keep me on track and accountable!
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summary: It is the 66th Hunger Games when Oceana Fontaine is reaped as tribute, and at just thirteen years old, the odds are certainly not in her favour. As much as it is seen as an honour for Oceana to represent her district in the games, it is also practically a death sentence. But Oceana knows she needs to go home and is determined to, no matter how low her chances are and with the help of her mentors, she might just do that. But if she is to win, she will have to learn where her biggest strengths start to turn into her biggest flaws and weigh her options carefully as she starts making choices that pushes her morality and the lengths she will go to for love.
tags: slow burn (finnick x oc), violence, death, canon typical violence the usual stuff when it comes to the hunger games, weapons, not sure what else
I nearly freeze upon hearing the voice but my legs somehow keep me running. Maybe it was the adrenaline flowing or the Mutts chasing after us but I can’t seem to stop. Cordelia? What was she doing in here? I turn my head back to look at where her voice is coming from before I hear another cry for help.
“Oceana! Please, help!”
Aurelia? I’m about to run back to where the voice is coming from when I feel Briar’s arm around my shoulder, preventing me from turning back. “Jabberjays,” she says, “they’re not real, keep running, Oceana!” She’s shouting so I can hear her voice above all the screams of help. I hear a few voices that I don’t recognise but brush it off, still concerned as to why Cordelia and Aurelia’s voices are being copied because Jabberjays copy, don’t they?
“Jabberjays copy!” I shout, looking at Briar who nods. I can’t read her expression but don’t get a chance to before she’s stabbing another wolf Mutt with her sharp spear. Right now, she’s probably the reason I’m still running to try to get out of the forest because I have a million questions rushing through my head and feel tears welling up in my eyes as the screams become more antagonising to hear. “Briar, Jabberjays copy! Where are they getting their screams?”
“I’m not sure!” She says as she shakes me a little, “look, we’ll figure it out later, just run. Run as fast as you can, alright. Don’t turn or look back.” I look at her and can see that she’s concerned although I’m not sure what for but I follow her instructions as we split up so as to take down more Mutts, slashing through the thick forest as we try to get to shore as quickly as possible.
“Oceana, save me!”
“Waves! Please! Help!”
I want so badly to cover my ears and scream but at this point, I follow Briar’s advice though, I don’t look bad at all. I’m running, no, I’m sprinting through the forest with Gill shouting warnings as to where the Mutts are coming from to help warn me.
“We’re almost there!” He shouts as the familiar scent of sea salt water fills the air.
I don’t even know if it’s him or the Jabberjays that are saying that so I keep running straight, jumping over rocks and logs until I finally reach the end of the cliff, my breathing ragged as I slow it down, “how are we going to get down?”
“Jump,” Gill says and I look at him, my eyebrows furrowing together, is he crazy? “What? There’s no time to find another exit, the fall shouldn’t be that deep…”
“We’re going to crash like lightning if we do that!” I reply, heaving in a sigh of relief as the Jabberjays have stopped with their screams.
“There’s a pond there!” Briar shouts and looks at us nervously before looking back as Alvise, Chase and Giselle miraculously make it to the edge. The next herd of Mutts are not far off but still, there’s no time to spare. “Look, we have to jump, if not, we’re dead, for sure!”
I analyse the height from where we are to the pond– it’s not that high but still high enough to give me goosebumps. Picking up a rock, I throw it down into the pond and watch as it splashes before sinking into the unknown. It’s deep enough to jump down. I’ve dived off a jumping board before, not this high, but close to this high. “I’m going to go, it’s deep enough, as long as we dive in properly, we should be fine.” I pull down the straps of my bag and take out my jacket, making a makeshift parachute for my bag before stuffing my boots in. “Now or never, right guys?” Everyone gives nervous glances at each other as I take a deep breath, throwing my bag down the cliff. Thank goodness for the wind and the laws of physics because the parachute idea actually worked. “There’s nothing left to lose,” I say before I take a deep breath in, getting into position as I put my feet together and bend my knees, my hands over my head. This is it.
It takes a significant amount of effort to jump but I manage to do so, the wind whistling in my ears before I feel the cold plunge of the water and finally manage to breathe properly. I splash the water on my face before I quickly swim out of the way, “it’s okay!” I shout back and give them a thumbs up I’m not sure they can see as I pull myself out of the pond to retrieve my bag.
One by one, I hear splashes and see that each of them have made it down– even Chase who still has blood dripping down his leg. “Ouch,” he groans as he stumbles out of the pond, limping as he takes a seat on the edge of it. “I hope the water helps.”
“At least it's all over now,” Briar sighs as she takes a seat next to me on the sand. Now, not only is the whole nightmare of the Mutts over but the sky is bright once again. I admire the glistening water and sigh, unable to get the voices from the Jabberjays out of my head. “You alright?”
“I can’t get the Jabberjays out of my head, that’s all,” I sigh as she puts a comforting arm around my shoulder as I rest my head on hers. “Where’d they get the voices?”
“Probably had some recordings and distorted them, I guess,” she shrugs, “they won’t actually do anything to our families so I guess it’s some kind of way to put us off.”
I nod and we sit with one another in silence. She’s right. I’m itching to ask her who she heard but I’m guessing it must be someone close to her because she seems just as affected as me. And just like that, we’ve turned into everyone else in the arena; scared kids. The whole ordeal has stripped everyone of their confidence and ego now.
Then, six plastic pots float down from the air with silver parachutes. Sponsor gifts!
One floats and lands gently on my lap. It’s rather big and I’m curious as to what’s in it. Curiously, I unscrew the lid and my eyes widen in shock. There’s bread and soup which look ever so delicious and a dozen knives and daggers. A dozen knives and daggers. I’m in awe and take one out to admire– they’re like the ones we had in the training centre. The first thing I notice is that they’re well sharpened and that they’re brand new. I get a comfortable feel of it before looking in the box to notice a small piece of paper.
‘I hope you’re okay, stay strong – Coral’ ‘Stay strong and stay tough, you got this – Finn’
I let out a dreamy sigh, this is more than I could ask for and I don’t even want to know how much the knives must’ve cost. How did they manage to get such a big sponsor gift for me so early into the games? “Thank you, Finn and Coral,” I whisper as I put the knives and daggers in my holster and count the remaining ones I had left after throwing almost all of them at the Mutts.
“Soup and bread?” Briar asks as she peaks over to my container and I nod.
“Same here,” she smiles as she tears off some of the bread. “Feels nice to have decent food again.”
I laugh as I drink some of the soup. Briar was right, the quality of food right now was significantly better than what we’ve become accustomed to in the arena. It tastes somewhat comforting, reminding me of all the good times I’ve shared with the victors in the Capitol. It also reminded me somewhat of home. Home…I miss home, but there’s no point in reminiscing if I don’t actually do something.
I finish drinking the soup and put the bread in the old container which holds remnants of the previous food provided by the gamemakers before collapsing onto the sand. I’m exhausted. Not just physically but mentally and I’m not sure how long I can hold my brave act up for. The Mutts alone were enough to affect me, but the Jabberjays and the screams of Aurelia and Cordelia have messed me up as they play in the back of my mind repeatedly like a broken record tape.
I’m trying to hold back tears as I think of all the ways they could’ve gotten their screams and how much I want to run into their arms for a hug. I close my eyes as I slow my breathing down, I’m too tired to move but I know the others would want to continue moving.
“You okay?” I hear Giselle’s voice and nod, my eyes still closed as I take more deep breaths before sitting up and opening my eyes to find Giselle and Briar seated on either side of me. “Are you sure?”
“Yes,” I nod, “the Jabberjays just got to me a little, that’s all.”
“I think they all messed with us one way or another,” Giselle says before turning her head behind which I do as well, watching as Gill and Alvise help apply medicine and bandages on Chase’s legs. “I’m glad Chase is okay, though.”
“Hopefully he feels a little better,” Briar adds before their attention is on me again, “Who did you hear?”
“My best friend and my sister,” I sigh, shaking my head before looking up at Briar, “how about you?”
“My brother and boyfriend,” she sighs.
“Boyfriend?” I ask, looking at her with a cheeky smile, “who is it?” I nudge her playfully as she laughs. “Ooo, Briar’s in love!” I tease as a small blush forms on her cheeks.
“Oh shut up, Oceana,” she chuckles, “I’m sure you have someone else well.”
I pause, thinking, did I? “No,” I shake my head, smiling.
“Not even a tiny crush?” Giselle asks and before I can say no again, I hesitate. What about Finnick? There’s no denying he’s good looking, not to mention he’s been incredibly nice to me throughout the days we’ve spent together in the Capitol and how we’ve clicked instantly. Then, my conversation with Gill comes up in my head, how Finnick had gone out of his way to comfort me even when Coral had told him not to. Then, I’m reminded of all my conversations and times spent with Finnick– it’s not much, but it’s enough to make me feel a little fuzzy. “Someone’s hesitating,” she giggles as she puts her arm around my shoulder.
“So, you do have someone!” Briar squeals excitedly, “tell me, who is it?”
“No,” I giggle, shaking my head adamantly. “I can’t tell if it’s a crush, anyways. We’re probably just really good friends.”
“That’s what people say when they have a crush,” Giselle shakes me slightly, “come on tell us!”
“Is he good looking? What is he like?” Briar pushes a little as I try to suppress a smile, feeling my cheeks heat up. “Come on, there’s definitely someone! Tell us!” She nudges me. It’s at this point that Giselle is also trying to pry information from me. “Fine,” Briar sighs, “if I tell you about my boyfriend, you have to tell me about your crush, alright?” I pause, think, and nod before linking my pinky with hers. “Pinky promise?” She smiles.
“Pinky promise,” I nod and she sighs.
“Alright…Well where do I start?” She says, looking up at the sky. “His name is Jasper…” She’s smiling so hard that I’m convinced her cheekbones hurt. “We met in school, he’s a little older than me…Well, I love him a lot…He’s got these dark brown, almost black, eyes that are light brown in the sun. I could stare into them forever. We like to go into town for small days together-”
“You mean dates?” I smile as I inch closer to her.
“Alright, that’s enough,” Briar hits me playfully. “Now tell me about the boy you have a crush on.”
“Well, I wouldn’t really call it a crush…”
“So it’s definitely a crush,” She smiles and I roll my eyes.
“We get on really well and he’s really nice to me,” I fiddle with my fingers. I can’t say too much because I know there’s a high chance Finnick is watching the games and there are chances that the cameras are on us. “He comforts me and talks to me, even when he doesn’t need to, he calls me these really pretty nicknames that no one else calls me by that I like–”
“Sounds like he’s got a crush on you as well,” Briar teases. Finnick? Having a crush on me? Impossible, although the sound of it is nice. I try to hide my smile but she catches me as she laughs.
“I don’t think he likes me though,” I admit with a disappointed sigh.
“Why not?” Briar scoffs. “You’re really pretty and nice, not to mention talented, why wouldn’t he have a crush on you?”
“Well, I’m sure a lot of other prettier girls have a crush on him, and he’s really popular…” I say, trailing off as I try to get my thoughts together.
“So you think you’re not good enough for him?” Giselle joins in.
“Well, maybe…” I sigh before turning to Giselle, “how about you, Giselle? Do you have anyone?” I ask. “I see how you look at Chase, is it him?”
“What?” She asks, suddenly tensing up.
“I see the way you look at him with those lovey dovey eyes,” I say, a smile tugging at my lips, “do you love him?”
“I have no idea what you’re talking about, Oceana,” Giselle shakes her head only to receive a groan from Briar.
“Come on! Oceana is right, Giselle,” Briar shakes her head, “for anyone not to see it, they’d have to be blind. The eyes, they never lie, and I see the way you look and care for him.”
Giselle opens her mouth to answers, but before she can, Alvise is shouting at us. “Are you girls going to sit there all day?”
“Oh calm down, Al,” Briar rolls her eyes and stands up, “we all could use some rest.”
“We don’t have all the time in the world,” he argues back, “Chase is feeling better, so I reckon we should explore the other islands. We’re thinking of the one with the meadows.”
“And what if they’re Mutts?” She retorts back, staring at Alvise who is growing frustrated.
“Whatever, let’s just keep going, you can’t talk all day,” he says before walking away and Briar looks back at us, making me laugh with her judgemental expression.
We quickly pack up our belongings and get ready for a long swim to the next island. I take a look at my holster which now holds more than enough knives and daggers for me to use in the event of Mutts once again or an attacking tribute before looking up to see Gill grinning at me before putting his thumb up. It’s a question– are you okay? I smile and nod, giving him a thumbs up back and he nods. I have to say, it’s nice to know that he genuinely cares about me despite all of us fighting for our lives here where only one out of the twenty four can go home.
At least there’s some humanity left in him.
author's note: GUESS WHO'S BACK!!!! I AM!!! AND I'M MORE THAN EVER DETERMINED TO GIVE YOU ALL WHAT YOU DESERVE (a completed fic)! to the ogs who are reading this thank you for waiting for so long! and to the new ones, helloooo!!!! as always, constructive criticism is welcomed and if you liked this please consider reblogging and/or commenting! love you guys and I WILL BE ON TMS WRITING GRIND AGAIN
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⠀⠀⠀exploring my figure skating history in my nhl anything dr!
note:⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀this is inspired by the lyric from 'watch' by billie eilish and a quote from the queens gambit! hope you guys like this and yes i will always be a figure skater in any reality (including this).
𝓚osice, 𝓢lovakia: 𝓟etrova 𝓘ce 𝓐cademy, 2018
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀a girl, no older than eleven steals the show of the ice rink: even if it is just training. she glides across the ice gracefully, yet jumps with much power and strength. it is no secret that she is the superstar of the academy, even with the other skaters being of equal quality and strength. the girl however, with her striking green eyes and dark brown hair, is undoubtedly the best skater in the rink. she jumps and spins with precision and perfection, and whilst the documentary crew is thoroughly impressed, her coaching team comprising of three coaches are not. it is simply what is expected of her.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"lilichka!" a man in his mid twenties calls out, catching the attention of the young girl. he is next to a crew of cameras and an interviewer, "they want to interview you!" he shouts in slovak. "come back once you're done, alright? you're doing good, and then we work on the loop." he instructs, affectionate but stern as lily approaches the barriers, panting slightly as she puts her skate guards on. aleksander has always been her favourite coach, and lily nods in agreement as he pats her on her shoulder.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she follows the crew into one of the free rooms of the skating facility and sits down on the chair, opposite of a blonde woman who looks at her with a smile she can't tell is fake or sincere. "will this take long?" the child asks and nods when she receives a 'no' followed by a brief rundown of what the interview will entail before the camera starts to roll.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"lily, you're only ten years old, eleven this year. not old enough for international junior competitions, yet you already are a two time canadian national champion. you are one of the best skaters in the world right now, going by scores and technical component. at the recent pyeongchang winter olympics, tessa virtue and scott moir- i'm sure those names are familiar- have spoken out and says that you are the future of candian figure skating. even kaetlyn osmond, who got bronze and who you beat at nationals say that you would've won gold at those olympics if you were old enough to compete! how do you feel when i say that?"
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀the young girl sits on the chair, fidgeting slightly as she shrugs. "i mean, the compliments are nice, but i don't really care for them if i'm honest. it's really sweet for them to think highly of me, but what's the use of compliments if i don't continue to work hard? i'm not going to win gold purely because tess or kaet praised me in a interview. people say that i'm going to be number one, but i'm not gonna be number one if i stop working hard."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"you skate close to ten hours a day, and you still are in school. don't you get exhausted? surely you work hard enough." the interviewer prompts.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"i work just as hard as any skater in this academy," lily is blunt in her response. "the thing about sports and education is that it is honest. when you go out there on centre ice, or sit down for an exam, you know if you put in the work. you know if you did eleven when everyone else stopped at ten, you know if you were first in the rink and last to leave, you know if you put in the work even when nobody is watching; if you studied as hard as you could, if you did everything you could. and then, when you're done, you know if you gave everything. you can't run away from yourself in sport, and just because i'm exhausted, doesn't mean i've done enough. it means i have to push myself."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀the older woman is taken aback slightly. "so, then, what will be your plan once you get old enough to skate internationally?"
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"i mean, i will obviously want to defend my title as canadian champion. i'll aim to win every competition, qualify for the grand prix final and junior worlds and i want to win those too. then, in 2021 i'm eligible for seniors for the 21/22 season, those are the olympics." she lists out. "if i qualify for the olympics that will be great, and hopefully i am good enough to win four continents and worlds after the olympics as well."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"do you want to be olympic champion?"
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"who doesn't?" lily rebuts.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"you'll be only fourteen for the olympics. if you win, what will you do next?" the lady asks, and it stumps lily a little.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"what do you mean?"
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"if you win everything at fourteen, what will you do with the rest of your career...life, even?"
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"that's something i'll decide after i become the greatest."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀lily feels herself crack a genuine smile, for what feels like the first time in years, as she stands on the top step of the podium. she knows she's done it all, she's won everything now. and, to win the world championships at the same place she took her first steps on the ice feels surreal, especially when she knows not just her dad, but the whole of the montreal candians team are there in the stands. she knows she is smiling out of relief more than she is of happiness.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she has given it her all, everything. she has left everything she possibly has on the ice, and now she is world champion. the canadian national anthem finishes playing and she finally turns to look at aleksander who is within eye distance. he knows what she is thinking, and when she steps off the podium, he gives her a steady nod. one of silent approval- not that she needed it- but out of support. only he knows the full extent of the pain and everything she has put. lily smiles, one that reaches her eyes, as she collects the canadian national flag which she displays proudly for pictures and does a lap of victory around the rink, waving to everyone.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she closes her eyes, taking it all in. the emotion, the cheer of the audience, the cold air of the rink- she takes everything in. finally, she poses next to her best friend, chloe moreau, who smiles as they share a picture. eventually, the podium ceremony comes to an end and she returns the flag before skating to aleksander who says nothing at first but hugs her.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"do what you know is right for yourself," he speaks as he hugs her tightly. "i will always be proud of you, and i'm sorry i couldn't protect you from the cruelty of figure skating."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"i only stayed at the academy cause i knew you coached there, you did your best. and i've won everything now, i did it," lily says, "you were the best coach i could ever ask for."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"you're the greatest now," he claims as he breaks the hug. "you're the greatest now and you've earned it. you've put yourself through so much for years, to push the bar higher for figure skating- even when it wasn't necessarily for yourself but for your country and the sport. now, do what is right for you."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀lily nods, wiping away some tears. she skates away to the interviewer, "can i have the microphone? i want to say something."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀the interviewer looks at her confused, but hands it over as he signals for the music to stop. she smiles, and skates to the centre.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"hi everyone," she says into the microphone, and smiles as the audience claps. "uhm, this isn't going to be easy to say, but i know this will be right for me. with this being the last competition of the 21/22 season, i would like to announce my retirement from figure skating." she can feel the collective shock from the crowd as it falls silent and she turns to her dad and sidney who look at her with an emotion she cannot tell. she feels herself smile when she can see brendan smile at her.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"it only feels right that i make this announcement in the same rink where i took my first steps on the ice. over the years, i have given everything i have for this sport. from the very beginning, to when i won my first nationals at nine, to now- i have given and endured everything. but, with how much i have endured, i feel as though now, and going forward, i am too damaged to continue to skate at my highest level. i would like to thank firstly my coach, aleksander, for all his support throughout the years. he truly did his best to be the greatest coach for me, and he has been, without him i would not be at the level i am at today. i would also like to thank the rest of my coaching team. i also owe a huge thank you to skate canada for everything and all the opportunities they have given me- from the very first invite to skate at senior nationals to now. thank you to everyone i have competed with throughout the years, for always giving me a challenge. and most importantly, thank you to the fans for the endless support i've been shown throughout the years. thank you for making my dream of being a competitive figure skater come true." she takes in a shaky breath.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"whilst this is not how imagined my career length to be, i say this with no regrets, and i am relieved to be able to end my figure skating career on a high." she finally concludes, skating to the sides to pass back the microphone.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀the arena is silent at first, but a few seconds pass and she can hear claps form and watches as the audience rise to their feet. one last standing ovation for her. lily skates to where her dad is now standing, and he looks at her with a smile as he claps alongside everyone. he gives her a nod, one that she knows says 'i'm proud of you'. she takes centre ice once again with a bow and listens as the applause gets louder, watching as everyone is still on their feet. and, in that moment, she can't help but burst into tears of joy for the first time in years.
𝓜ontreal, 𝓒anada: 𝓑ell 𝓒entre, 2025
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀lily smiles as she steps in front of the heap of microphones. "hey, guys."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"you were incredible today, lily, amazing job. what a debut! how are you feeling?"
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she smiles, "thank you," she chuckles. "i'm feeling really great, a little tired, but i'm just so happy. to be back here in bell centre, it feels so full circle right now. i love the fans, and i love being back on the ice. the last time i was here with a crowd like this, i was fourteen and announced my retirement from figure skating. so, now, to be back here as a hockey skater and also to be able to be on the team i spent my whole childhood watching, i'm really glad."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"talking about your figure skating days, your famous quote from an old documentary where you talked about the honesty of sports, i'm not sure you remember. how different is your mentality now?"
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"i remember that. well, my mentality when it comes to that is very much the same, i think it's true. so much about sports is trusting yourself and the training you've put into it, and also just giving it your all every single time. i am definitely a lot easier on myself now, and obviously no one is basically starving me or making me skate ten hours a day anymore. i wasn't a happy skater then, but i'm a happy skater now. much happier. i never thought it would be possible to enjoy being on ice again after everything, but today...it really felt like being a kid again. i was so happy to just be on the ice, to skate, to see the fans...it was amazing."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"would you ever go back to figure skating? for example, alysa liu who you competed against as a junior, she's come back brilliantly."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"i'm not sure. i mean, figure skating was my life. i loved it, and then hated it. now, i love it again, but i think in a very different way. now, my focus is on hockey, and i'm glad it is. obviously, i've learnt a lot from my time as a figure skater, and i love it again, but loving it again was a lot of work. i still am recovering from what figure skating has caused me mentally, but i think i'm in a better headspace now. whether i'd put myself in a position where i'm back on competitive figure skating ice, i'm not sure. but what is for certain now is that i've got a career to look forward to in hockey."
nhl anything dr ✮ ⋆ ˚｡𖦹
⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⋆｡°✩ "the teenager with the world at her feet!"⠀❄️ 🏒⠀lily madeline aurelia astor-rosenkranz⠀🐇 ✨⠀"nhl's latest super star"
"you show the lights that stop me turn to stone, you shine them when i'm alone! and so i tell myself that i'll be strong, and dreaming when they're gone..."
first overall draft pick. multi-sport athlete. university student. go habs go. daughter of the greatest nhl player. well-read & well-travelled. former figure skater. olympic champion. number fourteen. filmmaker. writer. literature enthusiast. photography.
physical media. music always. collector. lilies. studying. ballet dancer. liverpool fc die hard. you'll never walk alone. top student. snoopy lover. cursive handwriting. hat tricks. history maker. matcha lover. comebacks. fashion addict. chess lover. resilience.
"...cause they're calling, calling, calling me home! calling, calling, calling home! you show the lights that stop me turn to stone, you shine them when i'm alone!"
THE TEEANGER WITH THE WORLD AT HER FEET!
⠀⠀⠀introducing my nhl anything dr!
note:⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀another new dr! so so fun to write this and i absolutely love this dr! one of my all time favourite drs if i have to be honest hehe! i also wrote wayyy toooo much as well. also for the sake of everything, montreal had first pick and yeah! also this is set in mid 2025 :) also i hate how the intro is longer than the actual 'about'...also if anyone wants to be shifting friends, my dms are open!
𝓛os 𝓐ngeles, 𝓒alifornia: 2025 𝓝hl 𝓓raft
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she doesn't belong here, and she has no business being there at the 2025 nhl draft, at least that is what she tells herself as she rushes into the restrooms the minute she stepped off the red carpet and no longer had to speak to interviewers. her breath shortens almost instantly, and her heart pounds so hard that she can hear it as she tries to stop a spiral into a panic attack. she is so concerned with trying to stabilise herself as much as she can that she doesn't realise her tears until she feels the urge to blow her nose. her dark hair which was once styled to perfection is slightly messy now, and her make up is running a little. she lets out a choked sob, unable to keep it in.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"are you alright?" a soft voice asks. she turns her heard sharply to find an older, blonde, woman looking at her with concern. "here, some sour candy, it helps with panic attacks...takes your mind off everything and it focuses on the sourness." she watches the younger girl carefully who smiles gratefully at her, popping the candy into her mouth. "wanna talk about it?" she offers
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"i just don't know what i'm doing here," the young teenager admits. "i shouldn't be here, i don't...i don't belong here, not at all. i...i just-" she breaks down into tears and the blonde woman gives her a hug.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"what's your name?" the blonde asks, "i'm cat, cat belanger toffoli, you?" cat's eyes widen when the teenager chokes her name out as she calms down slightly. "come on, you've earned your place in the draft, alright?" she starts helping the young teenager fix her make up and hair, adjusting her jewellery which was in a mess as well. "the only tears you should cry are ones of happiness. come on, i saw you at the combine, you impressed everyone. you topped all the tests! what do you mean you don't belong here? just cause you've not lived and breathed hockey since you were three and aren't going through the conventional route? you've earned this, you've worked hard. don't cry, alright? also you're in custom john galliano and tiffany, come on." the young teenager smiles as she feels much calmer in cat's presence.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀they aren't sure how long they've been in the bathroom talking, and eventually laughing, until the phone of the young nhl prospect buzzes incessantly with messages and calls from her dad. "shit, the draft is starting soon!" she exclaims, and calms herself down before she panics too much. "i...i should go, what's your instagram? i'll follow you back on my private accounts," she hands cat her phone who quickly types her username who gives a comforting smile as the teenager runs back into the audience at seats.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she slips into the seat next to her dad. luckily, they're in the last row and are by an aisle. she gives her dad, an nhl legend himself, a forced smile as she fiddles with her fingers; she's still trying to calm the nerves which are threatening to get the best of her again. it's fine, she tells herself- surely she isn't going to go first, no way. her dad places a comforting hand on her shoulder, sensing the anxiety of the young girl, and gives a squeeze- his way of telling her she'd be fine.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she doesn’t recognise the man presenting, although she should, as montreal canadiens highlight reels play once it is announced that they have their first pick. the very team her dad spent years playing on, winning cup after cup and setting record after record, all she can hope is to have that level of success as well, but to be seen as so much more as the daughter of the greatest hockey player of all time. the pick is in is displayed in giant words on the screen, and she tries to pick a glance at matthew schaefer who everyone is almost certain will get drafted first.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀“with the first overall selection in the 2025 nhl draft, the montreal canadiens are proud to select, from étoile du soleil international college, lily astor-rosenkranz."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀lily looks at her dad, shocked. eyes wide with confusion, as she struggles to process it, she brings her hand to her mouth. loud cheers echo through the arena as she glances at the stage and back to her dad who encourages her to stand up. the room feels like it’s spinning as she stands up and hugs her dad who tells her how proud he is of her, with her walk out song playing in the background. lily is confused, if anything, but she knows there is no mistake being made as all eyes land on her. unlike many other players, she doesn’t have many people to hug, seeing as she only brought her dad along and only knows one other person in the crowd who stands up to give her a quick hug as she walks to the stage.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀lily steps onto stage, with a graphic of the montreal canadians jersey with her number and last name displayed, as she shakes hands with the presenter who guides her to a lady holding a jersey and cap. passing the cap to him, her hands are shaking as she unfolds the jersey and she can’t help but smile, putting it on as she now wears the badge her dad had worn throughout his own career with pride. she brushes her hair away from her face as she puts the cap on, wiping away some tears as she is guided into the nhl draft house to talk to the team who appear ahead of her on screen. she stares at the microphone in front of her, “thanks guys.” she can hear the roaring audience.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀“we’re all so excited to see you soon, enjoy the moment now. we’ll be waiting for you in montreal,” kent hughes says.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀“thanks for giving me a chance and believing in me, i won’t let you down,” she says as she watches a pretty blonde lady approach her with a microphone. lily turns to her with a smile.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀“what are you feeling right now, what’s going through your heart?” she asks.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀“i…well, uh, i don’t know. just so proud to be able to wear the same badge my dad had worn throughout his career, and obviously i don’t want to let him or anyone else who has believed in me down,” she chuckles as she hears the loud cheers. “i’m proud to carry his last name, but i also deserve to make a name for myself.”
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀the interviewer smiles before turning to the montreal canadians team. “obviously, kent and martin, you guys were playing it very cool originally. but what was the process between deciding that this pick was the one for montreal?”
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀“just how outstanding she is, really,” kent says, “she’s got amazing work ethic, and her skill is phenomenal for someone her age and she’s got such great potential. it wasn’t a question, really. from the first interview we had with her, and from seeing her at the combine, we knew she was the one for montreal. she’s been so impressive and we can’t wait to see her tomorrow.”
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀“well, enjoy it for sure,” the blonde lady smiles, “montreal candians, number one overall pick, lily astor-rosenkranz!”
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀𝓣here was no doubt that lily would walk away from montreal with an entry-level contract, and that is exactly what she did: a three year contract which was offered to her instantly development camp was over. and, with all her potential in the nhl which is as clear as day, the pressure and expectations are on- not that she is new to pressure, as she is still a player on the lpga tour and was a high-level professional and competitive athlete in a wide variety of sports. "i feel pressure, i just don't let it get to me," is the quote which she is perhaps the most famous for.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀'the teenage girl with the world at her feet!' is what she is so often described as, and to many extents, it is true. an award winning filmmaker, signed to img models as she dabbles in fashion here and there, running an excellent writing blog, playing the role of a sports photographer occasionally, sponsored by brands from red bull to being the muse of the likes of chanel. and recently, an lpga player with twenty two wins (including nine majors) to her name. and now, an nhl player for the montreal canadians. the very team her dad played and captained to an obscene amount of stanley cup wins.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀born on the 12th of october 2007, she is only just turning eighteen, yet has accomplished so much that it is only right that vienna by billy joel is her anthem.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀also she has lived all across the world, growing up mostly in montreal but then moving to the likes of cities such as barcelona, paris, monaco, lisbon, lucerne, and florence as she spends time travelling back and forth between countries and košice for training (when she was younger), she is fluent in at least nine languages at a native level. whilst her past as a competitive figure skater and rhythmic gymnast has affected her deeply, and is a conversation for another day, she does think that it has taught her discipline and resilience she wouldn't have been taught otherwise.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀a student in the cross program between kings college london and mcgill university, she is also a top student- essentially making her an all rounder. she studies two degrees: first in politics, social science, and economics, the second in sports, exercise, and rehabilitation science with contemporary media cultures. impressive, but also those close to her aren't surprised- she's as good at her studies as she is in sports. it's also incredibly common to see her in a book or writing in her journal, lost in her own world as she listens to music.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀and, whilst she keeps herself busy with hockey, golf, and university, she still makes time for a social life with her friends and for all her hobbies: including watching her beloved and former team, liverpool football club, play (despite how bad they are). she loves living in montreal now, and now being able to call herself a player for the team, and to wear the same badge her dad did with so much pride, feels so full circle for her.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀there are many things close friends and family associate with the name lily astor-rosenkranz: filmmaking, a bag with a ludicrous amount of things, cursive handwriting that is arguably illegible, snoopy, superstition for the colour blue and number fourteen, digital cameras, always writing, the ability to go through books and yet analyse them with much depth at an ungodly speed, being good at nearly every sport there is, winning, etc. she is nothing but unforgettable and simply remarkable.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀and with her endearing smile, charming humour and humility, it is no wonder that she is a fan favourite- and maybe even a favourite with the press which she happily rambles to. she is so often nicknamed the 'it girl' and 'stargirl', with her phenomenal sports results and many ventures in film, fashion, and her other side quests.
SWINGING AND SWINGING!
⠀⠀⠀introducing my lpga golfer dr
note:⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀new dr! new dr! so glad i found passion back for my sport hehehehe! also sorry this is long i tend to write wayyyy too much...
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀the stage at the 2025 us women's open is set. lily castile, the seventeen year old who had came into the major tournament as a complete underdog and written off by everyone has now successful forced a playoff with star player and one of the best players in the world, nelly korda. the very player that she has held as her idol. and, now, for the first time in the tournament, she is starting to feel pressure. because she isn't just playing for a personal best anymore, she is playing for a very first professional win and major title. and with one hand on the trophy.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she looks to will- her best friend turned temporary caddy (her actual one couldn't get another flight to wisconsin in time)- as they walk to the first tee, gods knows how many dozens of people following them and with their phones out. he can see the anxiety and nerves written all over her, and gives a comforting smile as she walks closer to him. "hey, don't pressure yourself, lills," he says quietly enough for only her to hear. "just play how you normally do, how you play with me, or how you've played in every other tournament. you've got everything to gain, and nothing to lose. so play like it."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"thanks," she smiles. she needed to hear that, and needed to hear that from someone like him; someone who's had to experience this level of pressure before- albeit in professional ice hockey, and not golf. his words are comforting and manages to do the job of calming her nerves down as she does her best to ignore the dozens of cameras and eyes on her as her golf bag is set down and her driver is taken out.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she gives a nervous smile as she takes her driver from his hand, and finally places down her tee and ball. the crowd has gone quiet, complete dead silence falling upon the golf course. as always, she closes her eyes and takes a deep breath in, her ritual since young before doing a quick practise swing. finally she approaches the tee, and takes a deep breath in before she rotates her shoulders and takes her swing. the sound of her shot rings through the air, sharp and precise, as a few scattered claps and 'good shot!' echoes from the crowd.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she steps back, feeling a little relaxed knowing she has started the play off round with a good shot, and watches as her idol- and now competitor- takes hers. every second now feels like a minute or an hour, as nelly's shot is taken and as they walk to the fairway. the course is anything but forgiving, and with the first hole being a par five, lily knows she has to remain her composure. and, it is her guess that the play off will be anything but short.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀the young player's guess is right, and she is doing her best to stay concentrated as she drinks a cold can of red bull to help with her nervous system. it is hole five, and she now has to try and chip the ball in for a birdie which will ensure her win. she looks to the club she is handed and nods, examining the green carefully before approaching the golf ball. the green is small and precise, and there is no absolute room for error.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she glances at her best friend who gives her a nod of encouragement before she takes a couple practise shots before finally deciding to chip her ball. the crowd is at a standstill as she gently swings at the ball. lily watches the ball goes into the air and lands on the green, "come on," she mumbles, watching it as it continues to roll in the direction of the hole. "go, go, go," she chants as she awaits nervously and finally, after a painful couple of seconds, the ball sinks into the hole as the crowd burst into loud cheer and applause. she finally breathes, and it only hits her that she has become the winner when she sees will's reaction.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"i knew you could do it! i knew it!" he exclaims as he gives her a hug. "us women's open winner, holy shit! you're insane for that chip, lills!"
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀lily smiles, "i'm so tired and i can't believe it," she admits. "i really can't, this doesn't feel real. i'm so tired that it feels like i'm dreaming, but i know i'm not."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"you better believe it, you've earned every bit of it."
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀a safe six months from her first professional (and major) win, and lily castile can confidently say that she is no longer an underdog. it's crazy to her how much momentum that win has given, and how much of her life, has changed. she started 2025 as a regular seventeen year old playing as one out of dozens of players, and has started 2026 as the best player in the world. in true fashion, she went on to win the other three majors of the year, and a total of five more tournaments she participated in that season, making the spotlight ever so present. especially as she made history as the first to win all three rolex lpga awards.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀'one hell of a player' is what nelly described her as, following the 2025 us women's open, and she has sure proven to be that. born on the 12th of october 2007, the now freshly eighteen year old essentially is the teenage golfer with the world at her feet. still, her spirit and discipline never relents, as she continues to train and work hard despite all the new found fame and glamour. lily has always been like that, though- humble and grounded. of course, she enjoys the thrill of winning, but if there's one thing she will ever stand firm on, is that she will not let the spotlight change her. ever.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀it helps that she keeps her close ones around, especially her family and her best friend, now turned boyfriend, will. she guesses all the headlines and gossip of whether they were dating or not finally made him ask her out, but whatever prompted it, she is grateful for it (although everyone simply rolled their eyes and made a statement on how it was about time). trips to san jose naturally got more frequent, and her time is now mostly split between england, the states, and canada. more trips to san jose also means that being in the stands of his ice hockey games have begun to feel more natural, and she has gotten to know more people apart from just macklin.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀there are times, more frequent than not, where lily feels like she lives three lives all at once. the first, as a professional golf player on the lpga tour (aka the pinnacle of women's golf) and an occasional model. the second, as the girlfriend of an nhl player and a university student in the prestigious kings college london and mcgill university joint program studying double degrees spanning politics, social sciences, sports science, and media. and finally the third as simply a teenage girl who posts on her spam accounts way too much and who likes spending time doing her hobbies like figure skating, reading, ballet, and more.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀"at the end of the day, i'm just a teenage girl who happens to be decent at golf," is what she likes to say, or something along those lines, whenever she is asked at press conferences how she feels about her new found stardom. and it is true in every way, and so often does she have to remind herself to slow down because she is just eighteen, and she is just a teenage girl. even when it doesn't feel like it as she plays amongst the worlds best golfers, which list now includes her. and, it still doesn't feel real how she is now grouped with the very players she looked up to growing up.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she stands out distinctly from the rest of the players on tour, not because of her unique sense of style and way of playing, nor is it because of her signature look of french bangs and braided hair. but rather because of how private yet authentic she comes across as. yes, she has a public social media account where she posts on like a niche influencer, but still she tends to stay off it. she rather spends time on her private accounts (especially her spam), which also has the lpga account and any other major related account blocked. yes, the taste of the glamorous life and fame is nice, but she rather be without it for as much as she can.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀much of how she's started to prefer the quiet and peace of her home in the english countryside compared to london is also due to her new found position on the lpga tour, and she has finally managed to start appreciating slow days rather than keeping herself busy. but, as she hops in between the cotswolds, london, montreal, and san jose frequently, lily knows she truly won't have it any other way.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀admittedly, she keeps shifting her expectations and goals higher to the point she doesn't even realise she's living her dream at times. and whilst lily can realise it, most times she requires a small reminder from either will or her dad that she is only eighteen and she needs to not only be gentler on herself, but also that she still has so much time ahead of her. even when it feels as if twenty four hours in a day isn't enough.
YOU KNOW WHERE TO FIND ME!
⠀⠀⠀my instagram in and a short intro to my student athlete dr!
note:⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i'll make an in depth intro soon but hiiii i have a new dr! really short post oops sorry :(
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀lily elvira fontaine- arguably one of the greatest athletes of all time in the world of figure skating, rhythmic gymnastics, and ballet. she is an all rounder, no doubt about it; musicality and skill beyond her years, alongside grit and discipline which so many easily confuse with obsession. but, outside of sports, she is also an incredible student, studying sports and exercise science with comparative media.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀she lives between montreal where she spends time training and being with her boyfriend (and also going to his hockey games), london where she is a university student and where she also trains, and barcelona where she works part time as a sports photographer. in other words, she keeps herself busy. still, she makes sure to do her best to prevent burnout and in the event she is, she makes sure to bounce back from it.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀there are the ups and downs, but she is ever so grateful for the support she gets from her dad, her friends, and her boyfriend. often described as the 'sweetest angel ever' by those who know her personally, a 'force to be reckoned with' by commentators whenever she competes, and 'one of the greats' by fans, to say she is loved is an understatement.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀however, despite her love for her career as an athlete and photographer, she keeps her personal life separate; with private social media accounts only meant for those she knows. it gets difficult at times, especially when she is hurled into the spotlight from the very minute her relationship with juraj became known. it's died down now, and she happily sits in the stands of his hockey games trying to understand the game (it's so different from football).
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀her main instagram; a little archive and treasure trove of memories and pictures. her love for her highlights and posting stories is unmatched- which explains the amount of highlights compared to her posts.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀her highlights london, reflection, camera, montreal, barcelona, sport, and creative are her more frequented ones, although she has others with countries she has visited like denmark, portugal, italy, and france.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀it's mostly explanatory- those with cities and countries as names highlight her memories there. reflection is a collection of pictures of herself, camera is where she posts some of her photography, sport is where she posts about competition and her training, and creative is where she posts literature, art, and film.
