You've been angry from the start

Lucifer, any pronuns other than she, gender is geenderfluid, age is 1000+ but body is 26, body's race is black/indingeous (ciasporic), disabilities are CPTSD, DID, autism and ADHD. Again, still not accepting new friend requests. Not interested in that.

[motobug]

much to think about (original post)

[protectspock]

if I was a cyborg I would want all of my mechanical parts to be like 90s clear plastic so you could clearly see all the machine guts inside and I think that's really sexy of me.

[protectspock]

my robot body parts better look like this or what's the point?

[smileyzs]

Why dont we do that anymore with electronics because it looks sick as fuck

[boxlizard]

Hey. So I’m thinking of finally taking the suggestion of rebranding. For the time I’m still alive, I plan to greatly change how I interact with people on tumblr. I want to develop healthier ways of venting/coping with my traumas on tumblr. A part of me doesn’t want to give up just yet, I think. My new url is genderfluidlucifer. Mutuals follow it if you want. People who have me oni their DNI can block that new url. I’m not really gonna be using this account anymore. Its connected to too many bad memories.

[boxlizard]

Only I’m stupid enough to not know how to drown myself without overfilling the bathtub. So I’m just going for good old overdosing.

[boxlizard]

Like honestly this is just pathetic. Why did I even keep going on after finding out the truth about the JW org? Y’all wanna know the real reason “m trying to kill myself? Since now Floriel is ridiculously claiming Beefy is the only reason. No they’re far from the only reason. The real reason is my traumas caused by the JW org. Cuz I realize that the JW org trains people to be horrible selfish people that only care about themselves. Hell they train us to hope that everyone who isn’t one of us dies in Jehovah’s so called Armageddon that’s “coming soon.” Can you imagine how much that would fuck up someone’s sense of morals? How desensitized that would make them towards things they shouldn’t be desensitized towards? How that would fuck up our understanding of how to treat people we distrust? And that’s not even all of it. If you haven’t I urge you to watch youtube channels like JWVictims or John Cedars to get a glimpse of how much the org fucks up its victims. And to get a glimpse of why I am the way i am. Why I don’t seem to know how to act like “a normal adult/” All that shit they discuss is why.

But the reason Beefy’s callout added onto it is I realized all of this proves I can never recover from how the JW org trained me to think. I can never be a good person. There was no point in becoming a leftist when I did. Because that wouldn’t magically make me a good person. I am beyond the point of being able to be a good person. I’m too fucked up by my mom’s parenting. I am doomed to become the environment I was forced into. I’ve accepted this. There’s no denying it. There’s no point in trying to change that, because its impossible. I’m sorry but literally no one and nothing can stop me from taking this route tomorrow I’m going to fill the bathtub with water and drown myself tomorrow. It’s what I deserve. I shouldn’t have kept avoiding this fate for so long. I realize now that this was how my life was always going to end. All I did was prolong it and for what? Because I’m a coward? I’m sorry for troubling everyone I’ve interacted with. In my next life I’ll just not vent online if I experience any abuse/trauma. That was always a bad idea. And I’ll make sure to not repeat the snartburger situation ever again. That was what really sealed this fate as well. Anyways I’m tired of writing this and I’m sure anyone who stumbles upon this is tired of reading it. Goodbye

[acapelladitty]

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Sometimes I wish fandoms as a whole weren't so completely ship obsessed and that content that was non-shippy recieved better treatment than being disregarded like a babies shit-filled nappy. It's wild and really puts an unspoken limit on creation.

[bottomoftheriverbed]

Include alloaros in your sex positivity challenge 2020

[boxlizard]

Anyways I’m definitely killing myself tomorrow. The people calling me out won’t have to deal with me anymore. And I won’t have to deal with my shitty life irl anymore. There’s nothing anyone can do about it.

[skygenders]

you know you can ask for more mlm rep in cartoons without constantly shitting on wlw. Also look up lgbt representation statics before you open your mouth :) Thank you

[skygenders]

also like idk why this is a wlw vs mlm thing. Go fight cishets instead of making big claims that wlw are more accepted by society than mlm. 

[karebare]

yes please. note. i am not gonna reblog someones post about mlm rep if they say “wlw get so much and we get jack sh-” like no. stop . we deserve shit too. we both have so little of the pie you should be happy for us . its complaining that we get two grains of sand when you only have one . and were on a fucking beach of cishet

[king-dykewarp-deactivated202106]

i put this on an oc blog instead of main fuck my life

[grungegoths]

People on tumblr be like : I saw an ace person at my GSA so all GSAs are useless cishet bootlicker centers now 😒 , my gender studies professor in college used the word “queer” in class so i guess they are a cishet homophobic bootlicker too 🙄 🙄 and im NEVER going to my local queer cafe again after i seeing  a bisexual woman with pink hair kissing her bisexual boyfriend bc its just a normal cafe with straight couples 😡 .My tumblr blog and my discourse blogger mutuals are my only safe heaven bc at least we can bully lgbtqa people who dont meet our standards of “acceptability” with peace  😔 😔 😔

[aroacemonster]

Friendly reminder that LGBTQ+, Queer, and LGBT+ are the preferred terms for the community (x).

Friendly reminder that Queer is approved by 72.9% of the people, and the groups who don’t prefer it’s use as an umbrella term are straight people, exclusionists, transmeds, truscums, sex-negative people, and sex work critical people (x).

Friendly reminder that aros and aces are excluded only 9.2% / 8.1% of the time respectively while being included  78.9% / 81.2% of the time (x)

Friendly reminder that exclusionists are in the minority and aro/ace people are included in the LGBTQ+ community by the people within the community.

[lesser-flamingo]

Also, i checked out the survey the second claim sources a while back: this is not OP choosing the words truscum, exclusionist, etc. These are labels that the survey gave people the option to self-identify as. It’s self-proclaimed exclusionists who dont like the word queer, not random accusations

[boxlizard]

I think I’m gonna rename the Magpies from Mother 3 the Melodies for now. It kinda fits with the whole Eight Melodies theme in the original games. Especially since they’re named after music terms.

[kymeira]

I know people outside of the Southwest generally don’t think about the desert / its peoples but this is only one disgusting act committed by DHS/the United States. They’ve also blown up ancient O’odham burial sites this year.

[optimisticbananaharmony-deactiv]

what if phineas was like hey ferb I know what were gonna do today but ferb was like actually I was gonna go play mario galaxy you have fun with your rollercoaster or whatever

[boxlizard]

Anyways people who keep insisting Biden and Trump aren’t the same cuz of some performative progressive moments from Biden don’t give a shit about all minorities. What we mean when we say that is that Biden is a pedo rapist, is anti immigrant, is pro border patrol, is pro military and pro cop like Trump is. The fact y’all are ignoring these specifications to gaslight Biden critics is very telling tbh. Like we get it...you think minorities who distrust Biden are collateral damage. Shut up now.

[stimman4000]

[1eos]

like when was the last time anyone has given a fuck abt a relationship that wasn’t between two white cis abled bodied men? quickly? remember when star wars that two moc with chemistry in their films nd everyone ignored them? remember marvel stans shipping peter parker, canonically a fucking high schooler, with tony stark bc they refused to see anything btwn him nd his fat friend of color? remember when zendaya was to be the love interest nd suddenly everyone hated ‘forced’ romance plot? when was the last time u saw anyone care abt a romance of color that’s not atla bc that’s cheating since EVERYONE is a character of color?