☹️🤳 (1.4/9kg)

all pronouns 🧟 19 | block don't report | sw 67kg cw 65.6kg ugw 58kg

[boygoingpretty]

new intro 'cause I'm BACKKKK ☻︎ ⋆｡°✩

active oct 2024 🪦 pro recovery!! block don't report

hi, I'm J/Jay/Aspen (use whichever you like) and I go by all pronouns, none are off-limits !! I'm either genderfluid or agender, can't really tell lol

I like tennis, egyptology, ateez/kpop (+ other music), art/drawing, crochet/knitting, reading/literature, genshin impact/wuthering waves

my inbox/asks/dms are always open if someone wants to chat <3

visit my twitter or my pinterest!

stats under the cut !!

height: 174cm/5'7"

sw/hw: 67kg / 148lbs (22.1 BMI)

cw: 66.1kg / 146lbs (21.8 BMI)

gw 1: 62kg / 136lbs (20.5 BMI)

gw 2: 60kg / 132lbs (19.8 BMI)

ugw: 58kg / 127lbs (19 BMI)

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tags:

#j munches — food thoughts, diet/weightloss related :3

#j thoughts — rambles, random thoughts, not diet/weightloss related

#j shares — pics of me, my meals, etc.

#j spo — spo from pinterest

#j answers — asks ♡

[boygoingpretty]

3d unrelated but why do I actually start being annoyed by the fact that my best friend is studying something similar as me and we're at the same uni together ???

like. I know I sound like an asshole saying this but WHY DOES HE HAS TO TAKE SO MANY CLASSES THAT I HAVE.

I don't want him to tell HIS uni friend group to "adopt" me just because some of them are in the same class as I am. AND NOW HE WILL JOIN TOO.

ugh I'm so sick of this, I'm starting to become increasingly awkward when we talk at uni and I don't want him to be so clingy all the time !!

we met in grade school and have been in the same class in high school and now the same university ?? I just want to do stuff on my own and I HATE ITTTTTT

[boygoingpretty]

I have

a) realized that this was definitely my period speaking and I feel kinda bad about it

and

b) realized that I'm also kinda jealous because his life doesn't revolve around food like mine does, and that he keeps on sending me stuff like THIS:

[honeymoonzzz]

weight loss tip: just stop caring about food

ik it’s hard AF because all we do is think about food BUT if you trick your brain into believing you don’t care about it, it’s a lot easier to restrict since ur apetite goes away

how i do it:

- don’t plan my meals too much

- don’t think about what i’ll eat in the future

- all this is accomplished through gas lighting myself

- i pretty much just repeat to myself “i don’t really care” anytime i go to eat

- “not caring about something” means you don’t really want it, you don’t care if it’s there, you even prefer if it’s not because it’s just an annoying task

- the non planning thing makes choosing what i’ll eat overwhelming, so i just give up 💀

- i distract myself, i go do something else

- this works if you don’t care about health, macros and shit like that! you’ll probably not be getting a lot of nutrition, this is something a lot of junkorexics do

- this also works better if you have good knowledge about how many calories everything has, since ur not pre-planning

idk if any of this made sense but yea

[ikissseanangel]

me fr

[nuvco-iv]

Body dimorsphia 💔 like if u crreid 😿

[boygoingpretty]

what the hell☹️ I don't even remember having made this blog one year ago...

[ellarexia]

⟡ ݁₊ . ♱ daily dose of th!nspø (legs ver.)

[jeepersimgay]

Shout out to the 4n4 girlies (and guys) who ARENT anywhere close to societally presentable as 4n4.

The ones who go to the doctor and get told to keep losing weight

The ones whose family hasn’t gotten worried yet

The ones who feel like they can’t mention 4n4 without being disbelieved/told they should starve more.

I see you and I hear you and you’re valid.

[st4rboundd]

i have no secrets other than my social media accounts dedicated to my eating disorder. Thats a pretty big one.

[boygoingpretty]

3d unrelated but why do I actually start being annoyed by the fact that my best friend is studying something similar as me and we're at the same uni together ???

like. I know I sound like an asshole saying this but WHY DOES HE HAS TO TAKE SO MANY CLASSES THAT I HAVE.

I don't want him to tell HIS uni friend group to "adopt" me just because some of them are in the same class as I am. AND NOW HE WILL JOIN TOO.

ugh I'm so sick of this, I'm starting to become increasingly awkward when we talk at uni and I don't want him to be so clingy all the time !!

we met in grade school and have been in the same class in high school and now the same university ?? I just want to do stuff on my own and I HATE ITTTTTT

[miziscrying]

My toxic trait is that I fantasize about being 0rth0rex¡c from time to time.

[boygoingpretty]

I can't do this anymore

[pinkzombiegore]

The difference between you and that skinny girl, is that she actually sticks to it ❤️ hope this helps!

[boygoingpretty]

back to square one :(

[sch1zoland]

[donyalelunaloreeee]

[boygoingpretty]

I just watched a supersize vs superskinny ep while eating and they were talking about pro-4n4 websites with someone who used to post there and ACTUALLY SHOWED THAT GIRL'S BC

it was so triggering, immediately made me lose my appetite and now I feel like shit for not eating less💔