blog of sulk

[boyhaunter]

i get respect from the og’z

and i saw what was my heart fall this thing all flat and over tired seas, i know it hurt that i left, i know it hurts me to be real, to be biographical, but i can't stop cumming.

give me all yr cake, chase my dreams 4 me. 4 moi. you talk but u dont know, all the lingo out the skies the babies that pour from us into each other fingers like jazz over hair n skin.. its all wishing, intense plotting thru mirrors, dont trouble me, never me, not me, the most untroubled. what a joke, i feel, i've, kind of, (i guess) become. hashtag my whole bright and silver world,

two bitches tag team my lonely skin,

sulk short, for all my people,

i know life and its lingos,

yr multieyedeverything

[boyhaunter]

heartsick // 19 july 2016

After turbulence, I have returned to heartsick.

After a hunger in the fields under feathers and fragility-- I have returned to punctuation.

Let this stolen caring of fire & anger Sob down my seasons, Yes, let it be all breathing without consquence--

Broadcast my shapeshift.

Eyelids hold sand, I bend and break them-- Dabble with their hearts, seeking signs they might fail.

Their season of love has come now to dine on air. Gather my floods And muds-- Push them under my dry thirst.  

All alive with fear, far from Heaven-- I was able to place a maelstrom in a virgin pond.

Sands & precious islands will be my crown and feast.

Let this dream that must twist in my arms find its pharmacy. A pharmacy for my momma, resting flowers and tender on her paella that only I recall.

Let me show something unseen! My armor-- hangs like a kiss, scrambled in bushes, Hollow on rails, let me flock-- Blowing upwards drowsy & sweet toward that haloed carpenter.

And upon showing this, she will cook warm food for me.

[theoregonscout]

South Matthieu Lake, Three Sisters Wilderness, OR

[boyhaunter]

tumblr is my own time capsule now

[ghostlys]

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[heartcountry]

I hope every hurting heart finds a gentle place to rest tonight. you are as loved as dawn. as beautiful as rain. you were meant to happen this way.

[lacerdando-deactivated20141111]

[boyhaunter]

how do i break up with someone that keeps threatening me with suicide

[boyhaunter]

no poem is ever complete

[boyhaunter]

poem 4 $trangerz

yr alone and yr swimmin

snow melts from my head now

rewind to when there was heat

everywhere, sacrificing health

dreams with sweat, shallow 

and medicated, i wouldnt stop moving

and yr alive and yr soft now 

all of yr brain all at once

would b heavy thru our eyes closed

i drove fast searching for you,

drove so fast i almost crashed

as long as yr happy, i couldnt ask for more

[boyhaunter]

“i think you have bpd”

“ew whys your face wet you tramp”

“you look so much sweeter than you actually are”

-touching sentiments from my significant other 

[boyhaunter]

twitter @CalebSulk 

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[hoodteens]

flexican tales when doves cry film

[varsityqueerleadercaptain-deact]

stayed up all night looking at craigslist missed connections ads and matisse flowers

[boyhaunter]

i just need to know that yr fine. 

[boyhaunter]

i spent the past couple months thinking of you, rephrasing everything i’ve said to you in the past to make you hurt a little less, to clear my conscience, but it didn’t change the fact that i broke your heart and that you’re no longer here.