madness takes hold

27, queer as fuck, very mentally ill

[boywithbpd]

oh i’m actually like. at the point where i want to kill myself right now. haven’t been this bad in years. i’m so fucking stupid for going back through faer tag for me. seeing how in love we were. how i still am. how much it hurts that we don’t have the future i wanted. fuck. how did it all go so wrong?

[boywithbpd]

why can’t i be good and lovable and enough? when will someone just want me, completely?

[boywithbpd]

i miss faer so much. all day everyday. all i want is to be faers again. and i can’t have it. and i feel like i’ll never truly be okay again because i won’t ever have faer back.

i keep trying to be okay. having some days where i have this almost-happiness. but it’s not real. it’s pretending and masking and forgetting reality for a while. and then i have days like today where Everything feels bad and i remember this is how it’s going to be forever.

[boywithbpd]

i just fuck everything up all the time without even trying

[disaster-0l0gyx]

sorry for being your biggest mistake

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[444prettybaby444-deactivated202]

[dspressed]

I highly recommend a clingy, lovey-dovey partner. Life’s too short to be with someone who acts like showing love is a chore

[notprettyenough-sad]

I don’t want to just survive, I want to live. I’m tired of just getting through each day. I want to feel truly alive.

[saccharinehell]

I did my best to be lovable.

[hellhoundzzz]

mfs be like "I can handle your disorders" until your disorders disorder disorderly

[bpdizzy]

how do i accept the fact that nobody on this earth will care or worry about me in the same way i do for them

[bpdizzy]

still true in the big 2025 smh

[echoesofsaturn]

"slut era" i say as i rot and decay in my bedroom and watch the years pass me by as i miss out on core experiences other people my age are having while i think about the past

[craaashouttt]

concentrate on you, my first ever pitfall

[cantcontrolthegay-deactivated20]

i may be antisocial and unattractive 

[reytheawakengay]

but?

[cantcontrolthegay-deactivated20]

that’s all

[the-wolf-and-moon]

NGC 6946, Galaxy Swirls

[emwheezie]

A life without collecting trinkets is no life at all