It's like All Might said...

Giving help that's not asked for... is what makes a true hero! [MOVED TO BETAAMITY]

[bpd--deku]

while i did reblog the post from my new blog again, heres a few notes!

my tags are literally based on mcr lyrics from songs about vampires, on that note my vent tag is 'you put the spike in my heart' if you wanna block it in advance! we all cant handle venting and thats a-okay!

if you post aphobic stuff, accuse me of things im not doing, or ask me to tag something yet be a hypocrite and have no issue with something else (like asking me to tag mentions of queer yet see nothing wrong with me calling myself a dyke) then just consider yourself blocked cause my mental health matters more than what people do and dont follow a personal blog

i may check into this blog from time to time but my main blog from now on is @localbutchvampire!

[betaamity]

I forgot to like. Say this quite a while ago but I used to be bpd–deku! This is my new blog!

[bpd--deku]

while i did reblog the post from my new blog again, heres a few notes!

my tags are literally based on mcr lyrics from songs about vampires, on that note my vent tag is 'you put the spike in my heart' if you wanna block it in advance! we all cant handle venting and thats a-okay!

if you post aphobic stuff, accuse me of things im not doing, or ask me to tag something yet be a hypocrite and have no issue with something else (like asking me to tag mentions of queer yet see nothing wrong with me calling myself a dyke) then just consider yourself blocked cause my mental health matters more than what people do and dont follow a personal blog

i may check into this blog from time to time but my main blog from now on is @localbutchvampire!

[betaamity]

I forgot to like. Say this quite a while ago but I used to be bpd–deku! This is my new blog!

[bpd--deku]

fuck it, i return for other things adults sent me around the time i just turned 16 cause why not

[betaamity]

I forgot to like. Say this quite a while ago but I used to be bpd–deku! This is my new blog!

[bpd--deku]

oh yeah also a notice in case any old mutuals wanna follow but cant see my new blog

i blocked any of you that decided to spend your time reblogging aphobic shit cause im not putting up with it anymore :)

[betaamity]

I forgot to like. Say this quite a while ago but I used to be bpd–deku! This is my new blog!

[betaamity]

I forgot to like. Say this quite a while ago but I used to be bpd–deku! This is my new blog!

[betaamity]

I forgot to like. Say this quite a while ago but I used to be bpd–deku! This is my new blog!

[betaamity]

I forgot to like. Say this quite a while ago but I used to be bpd–deku! This is my new blog!

[betaamity]

I forgot to like. Say this quite a while ago but I used to be bpd–deku! This is my new blog!

[bpd--deku]

I don’t even know how I am just claiming things in relation to this now.

That whole tag is things you’ve sent me before, my dude!

I can, like, uncensor your name if you really wanna say I’m just claiming it’s you.

[bpd--deku]

I really wanna post screenshots of them getting mad at me for unfriending them while I was having flashbacks to my abuser that devolved into them blocking me cause I told them to stop cursing at me (cause I really associate it with them being mad at me) but I’m worried it’ll show I “wasn’t really panicking” if I tried to argue too to tell them to stop and why I wanted them to stop

[bpd--deku]

Fuck it, here it is anyways

[bpd--deku]

Honestly this really rubs me the wrong way so I’m gonna break down the one thing that’s like..90% shoving things onto me that I told and tried to prove I never did :’)

Cause fun fact time!

- I hate sending anons unless it’s somebody I don’t know or I’m saying something I’m too nervous to not be on anon for. We talked about that a lot. I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t suddenly go against what I said so many times just for that (I’m also really paranoid to use emoticons too often now in case they claim that’s evidence it was me when I just don’t like using emojis)

- Again. What fake account?

Honestly I was really tempted to give them the sign in to each account to prove it’s not me cause I thought giving them all my email accounts would prove it’s not me

- I was asking what they counted as block evading because they started telling me I was doing that when I unknowingly followed a new blog they made. I didn’t know it was them, and it doesn’t even tie to what else they’re claiming I did.

Block evading is jumping onto different accounts to talk to somebody who blocked you. Y'know. Evading the block. They started throwing block evading at me when I followed their blog. I’m confused what words mean now.

[bpd--deku]

God I’m just remembering one time they told me to “stop pulling this ‘suicidal’ shit so you can get my attention” cause I was suicidal over family stuff

Oh yeah and they also brought fucking kin stuff into it and told me I was bad for making them hide shifts

when they knew those sources were triggers (AND HAD IT PINNED ON DISCORD TO REMEMBER TOO)

[bpd--deku]

:)

[bpd--deku]

I honestly really wish I was kidding about half the things I said happened

Like.. After this whole thing went down, they suddenly started saying we became friends cause we had the same abuser… when I met them months before I even came into contact with our abuser and now I’m just. Really paranoid they’re right and my memory is wrong.

I was suicidal a lot for my own reasons. Like..my family started threatening to hurt me? Suicidal so I could do it myself. My mom threatened to send me to conversion therapy? Seems like a pretty fuckin valid reason to be suicidal!!

But they always cursed me out for being in the wrong for feeling that way and blocked me and sent their friends after me to say it was obvious I was threatening suicide over something I wasn’t even aware of at the time! Yet there wasn’t a single peep for the multiple times they threatened suicide just because I tried to talk to them about how what they said hurt sometimes

And now they’re suddenly bringing up things I wasn’t aware was wrong at all to further try and pin me as the bad guy. It’s great.

[bpd--deku]

Seriously like

I was venting about my own things and they just. Came in saying how obvious it was that I was talking about them

(Surprisingly, other people have block buttons too! Who knew?)

[bpd--deku]

Adding other things cause I finally got em

This is when I started talking to them

And this is when I started talking with our abuser

Pretty sure we didn’t become friends through that one thing that happened much later after becoming friends

Threatening suicide because I was expressing how scared I was that my mom was saying she was either going to murder me or put me into conversion therapy

[bpd--deku]

:)