reckless suffering

two teens running a blog BPD & AVPD

[come-at-my-v-doritezz]

sk8er boi but in a minor key

sounds so sad ;_;

[that-bpd-babe]

[come-at-my-v-doritezz]

[bloodcrush]

“I’m scared, okay? I’m scared that one day you’re going to wake up and not love me anymore. I’m scared that you’re going to get sick of my craziness and my need for constant reassurance that you aren’t leaving me. I’m scared that you’re going to get fed up with my mood swings and my panic attacks and my uncontrollable fits of sadness. Most of all, I’m scared that you’re going to see me the way I see myself. Just please, please don’t leave me.”

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[soyapal]

Here’s my acoustic cover of Sweet Child o’ Mine by Guns N Roses. I hope you enjoy!

https://youtu.be/nBv-IV0kb4c

[avoidantgh0st]

[batwizard]

imagine being able to handle things. that’s wild.

[heartbreakclubs]

me? both avoiding and craving attention? you bet

[unwelcome-ozian]

[smspoetry]

to love me is to love a circus. watch me fling myself from these heights and see just how gracefully i fall onto this double edged sword. tonight, let’s pretend that my scars are ribbons. stand in awe of me as i threaten to use this tightrope as a noose while juggling my trauma. tell me that you love me and that you’ll always be here as i breathe fire. constantly assure me that my body is perfect while i become a contortionist and break and bend at will. run your fingers through my hair while i take this stubborn clown makeup off. watch my tame the animals that are gnawing at my psyche and then watch me become the lion just in time for you to run. i’m a sideshow, baby - and i warned you. this circus never leaves town.

smspoetry (via smspoetry)

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[soyapal]

I’m opening my own e-store and need some opinions! plz help!

So I’m going to be starting an online store with some cool stuff for you guys to buy, It’s gonna be selling mostly cool tees and other clothing items, jewellery, beauty then a gifts section. I love if you could answer this questionnaire and then post it in my ask box, thanks lovelies!!

1) Store name ideas? The products will be tumblr style & alternative (feminist quotes, van gogh, but also alternative, u know the drill): 2) Product recommendations (be as specific or vague as you like, you can include links for ideas):

3) What aspects make you willing to shop on an online store?:

4) How badly do you mind delivery times not being the fastest.. is it a huge issue for you?? (products will most likely be shipped from asia): 

If you have any questions or advice then give me a shout!! THANKS! <3 p.s. please reblog this so I can get more people to help :)

[bpd-babe]

My fp is an ex if mine who i dated for over 2 years until last year. We were relatively close and he still had a huge effect on me and then he started dating someone in August and i tried not wanting to kill myself over it. Now i am dating someone and I am still in contact with my fp and he is saying things that make it sound like he still has feelings for me... he was my first everything. He will always have a hold over me and i dont know what the fuck to do.

Obviously it’s different for everyone but when I was getting real obsessive over my ex and couldn’t get over him I had to just block him for a while so that I had no way of contacting him. Over time it worked and I didnt think about him 24/7 anymore and got on with my life. It will be hard but if you keep contacting him then it will just make it even harder for you (and possibly ruin your current relationship). Just try and focus on the future! I hope it all works out.~Abbie x

[bpdtraits]

I feel everything very deeply, yet I am still empty.

[bpd-babe]

Emotional abuse counts as trauma right? Sometimes I feel invalidated because it seems a lot with BPD have experienced physical or sexual trauma and abuse

1000%. Just because it’s emotional doesnt make it any less valid than physical abuse! Trauma can be caused by all sorts of things, you should never feel invalid. Sending my love your way ❤️

[democrips]

fake conversations in your head of you venting to someone

[gahhhdamn]

how I stay sane

[bpd-babe]

(Part 1) I've done a lot of research about bpd, for about a year I'm 18 now, and really resonate with it.I'm not saying I have it but I think it is a possibility (along with avpd) but I was wondering, can you have bpd without trauma? I haven't suffered any form of abuse or dealt with trauma as a child, in fact I feel like I've done just about nothing in my life and don't get why I feel this way. I feel like it's wrong for me to think I have it when other people have been through so much.

It is more common to have it after suffering trauma yes, but Id see a specialist because you really don’t know. I know that it is hard for BPD to be really diagnosed due to how broad and different the symptoms are for every person. I feel like many people think they have a specific disorder when reading it all over tumblr, it could be many things as the symptoms of many mental disorders cross over and theyre also different for everyone. I hope you get it sorted :)