Lovelace's Diary

Pup/They, 19 ❤︎ Full Time Puppy ! An actual loser gf and chronically online idiot who has disorders.. :3 fan of messed up visual novels and dark themes

[bpdpuppie]

♡﹕hello! i'm lovelace & welcome to my blog :3 will occasionally post my own things, but this will mostly be reblogs ^-^

♡﹕i am a fan of darker media (movies, visual novels, everything!) so be warned, that will be here.. don't like? keep scrolling! this is my diary and i will post what i want ^-^

♡﹕i yap about my disorders (bpd, autism, adhd, cptsd) and my husband :3 

DNI & Warnings Under The Cut ᐡ ᐧ ﻌ ᐧ ᐡ

DNI: the typical dni criteria, under 18, shame disorders, shame people for how they cope with said disorder, etc.! just don't be a freak

warnings for the mentions of: s*lf h*rm, general disorder stuff, obsessive and unmanaged thoughts, r*pe mentions and my experience with c/sa, ptsd, and other upsetting things. i act like a dog to cope. vents will be here , also guro...prob ns//fw lawl...

[kiiraes]

gonna post my entire stickman reaction pic collection

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[astroslayyy]

throwing in a few more I have :3

[cicada-candy]

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[erijuice]

collecting these like pokemon cards

[borderline-culture-is]

BPD culture is seeing your FP at the mall with someone you've never seen or heard about and when you go up to say hi they show you the matching fandom stuff they bought together and now you want to cry because you thought that buying matching things together was ***you and your fps*** thing and I don't even know who it was they were hanging out with :[

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[borderline-culture-is]

Bpd culture is being told "you always blow everything out of proportion"

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[borderline-culture-is]

bpd culture is stop it! stop taking my things stop taking my words! stop taking my interests! stop acting like me!! nothing can just be mine!! stop it stop it stop it!

-🌊🔪

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[bpdpuppie]

♡﹕It's literally so over, I feel so fucking abandoned dude. Why can he go out and have fun,but I'm stuck at home alone. Why can he have fun without me. I was so excited to watch this tournament with him but no he leaves. He hates me, doesn't he? He wants me dead? Probably. I'm so exhausted, I need to die or something!!!

♡﹕I'm so sick of feeling like I'm boring and annoying and unneeded, I hate everything

[borderline-culture-is]

BPD culture is learning from a very young age that I'm not allowed to express how I'm feeling if those feelings are negative because then that means I'm being selfish and ungrateful

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[borderline-culture-is]

BPD culture is never knowing exactly how im feeling at the moment, not knowing who im trying to be or why i do the things i do, everything is just so confusing and i wish everything would stop so i could catch a break and not have to think about anything at all.

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[borderline-culture-is]

bpd culture is "why can't I change? why am I such a bad person? when are things gonna start getting better for me? Is that too much to fucking ask for?"

Im so done.

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[borderline-culture-is]

BPD + Autism culture is being infantilised because of one of your disorders and then being accused of being toxic and abusive towards your FP by a ‘friend’ (My FP disagrees and is mad at the person lol) all within the timespan of two hours. Because you have BPD so you must be a terrible person, but you’re autistic so you need other people to do everything for you (which might be the case for some autistic people but not me)

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[borderline-culture-is]

BPD culture is healing and trying to stay clean (it’s been.. almost 2 months) but you keep getting urges. More and more thoughts about that fucking blade. I don’t know what to do. I’m trying I’m being vocal I’m using apps I’m trying hobbies I’m doing distractions but it keeps happening and I don’t know how long it will be until I relapse

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[bpdpuppie]

♡﹕not sure how to go about telling my boyfriend that im in full blown pup space ❓❓❓he knows about it, but I don't think he really understands what I'm on about, but at least he's not weirded out about it 😭😭finding it hard to communicate things like that because I don't want to be embarrassed about it...... Augh I die...

[borderline-culture-is]

BPD culture is when your LDR bf goes out to a party, and even though he's given you absolutely NO reason to mistrust him, all you can do is obsess over and over about all the pretty girls that'll be there probably hitting on and grinding all over him bc he's really attractive.

Pls I'm gonna throw up worrying all night 🫠

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[puppymomokinblog]

autism that makes you a dog.

[suugarbunniies]

waaahh the urge to just roll around on the grass like a puppy ( ´ ▿ ` )

[ghibli-stims-deactivated2024080]

🐾 -> Pupsleepyic Stimboard !

📦 -> with related stims !

📬 -> rqd by me, self indulgent !

📔 -> 🐶 - 💤 - 🐶 / 💤 - 🐶 - 💤 / 🐶 - 💤 - 🐶

💬 -> "A gender related to being a puppy, cuteness, being sleepy, cute nicknames, and affection." // coined by @/sakosai

🔓 -> requests closed ! rq rules !

DNI -> NSFW/Kink/Bigots/Etc. I'll Block You.

[v-4-l-0-n]

Dogs wagging their tails is just stimming and brother im the most autistic of them all