Something

not content thats for sure

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If you're reading this you need to tell me the name of your favorite black character NOW‼️

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Havent used this blog in a while but I am mad

Got new puppy, its moms and she specifcally got it, so grandma wouldn't be lonely after I take my dog when I move

Her reaction? Hate. She is not a dog person, but she loves my dog so much, mom really thinks this is a good idea. She doesn't deserve this. She doesn't deserve my dog.

If she doesn't turn around that attitude, ill be not okay

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I feel like someone put me together And they didn’t ask me about it

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its good that dying is hard

if it could happen easily, id be out of here long time ago

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

just let me die

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i hate feeling like this second time i drink coffee and i feel like this. come on im not sad, why u gotta do me like this coffee? i have enough stress as is

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school is coming the urge to die intensifies  why am i so forgetful

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I think *countinues to say a nicer version of what I think so I don't offend anyone*

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Had quite a couple of close calls in the past year with cars. Is this the universe finally answering my wishes to perish? 

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When someone asks me if im fine

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"Gaaaaaay!" the man shouts, thinking he is funny as im giggling, while im holding my cute gf's hand

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Someone: You are so stupid

Me: Did it take you this much time to figure that out or did you only work up the courage now

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being mentally ill + suicidal at a young age (before 18) is. strange, because you grow up with this idea that one day you’ll finally snap, turn off, be brave enough to kill yourself, so you don’t really plan for the future. adulthood- further life, it isn’t for you, nor do you feel included within the future of it. it isn’t.. it isn’t part of your life plan.

and then before you know it you’re 18 and you’re an adult but you never thought you’d get this far and sure it’s great that you’re still alive you guess but also. you feel so alone + lost in a world you never expected or planned to be a part of.

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Brain: What do you need?

Me: A therapist.

Brain: Good job, it's imortant to realize you need help. Now, what should you do?

Me: Not talk about it to anyone because I know my family wouldn't understand.

B: You know that your school offers 6 free sessions, right? You don't need family approval for that.

Me: ... I don't want to bother.

B: Fair point but also WTF

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Does space scare you?

No. Space is beautiful, timeless and is. It doesn’t care, it just does what it does and that is calming. No reasons, morals, worries, just going about as it did millions of years ago and it will later. I wish I could be a meery part of it, flowing, just being, without a reason.

Why haven’t you tried to kill yourself?

I always find a reason not to. Find something that I’d feel bad leaving behind, without experiencing. And I don’t put much effort into reaching some of it, so it seems like I’ll be here for a while. But parts of me doesn’t want to exist very much.