Bramble

personal projects sideblog. fandom & ocs ram, he/they, 22, black/hispanic (pr)

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❀٭𑽇 intro 𑽇٭❀

hi!! i'm Ram (he/they) and this is my side for personal projects :D feel free to ask me about any of it!

as for what i'm planning:

both original and fandom-related works

including: writing/fics, sketchy comics, illustrations, one-off doodles

some drabbles, wips, and ramblings, with occasional finished work

fandoms i'll probably do:

BUSTAFELLOWS

Our Life: Beginnings & Always

Moomins

The Amazing Digital Circus

Coral Island

Our Life: Now & Forever

CookieRun: Kingdom (but not caught up)

i'll add content warnings later if it comes up.

feel free to send an ask about my stuff, or just to yap about interests :3 it's appreciated either way. i'll even take suggestions for stuff to get into! i like animation and visual novels, webcomics too! i like video games but my favorites are more narrative than about skill

media i might talk about these but it's less likely:

BUSTAFELLOWS 2 (haven't bought it yet)

Nu:Carnival (not caught up)

Date Everything! (haven't finished it)

The Owl House (older hyperfixation)

A Date With Death (need to catch up)

tag list:

【—brambles】 My rambling, mostly. just talking about whatever without art and stuff necessarily attached.

【—asks】 Answers to asks and stuff!

【—art】 Finished art i made!

【—sketches】 Unfinished art i made, so sketches and stuff. or just like silly doodles.

【—oc stuff】 Stuff related to my original characters and stories.

OC content tags:

【—gtbag】 Everything related to my deity ocs. it stands for Guide To Being A God.

i'll update this with more tags as i go! all of my blog-specific tags start with an em dash (—).

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i need a new hyperfixation that suits all my ideals

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sometimes the answer is an old hyperfixation

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still cant get over this. look at Limbo and his white girl starbucks order

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Mozu is the type of mom who carefully looks out for everyone and cooks what he knows you'll eat and cleans without being asked, while Helvetica is the type of mom who's gonna stop by Starbucks on his way to pick up his son from soccer practice where he will stop to gossip with the other moms and flirt with the coach

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i was talking with a friend about how i think Mozu is the only one with both the maturity and the patience to ease Helvetica out of his control freak tendencies and let someone else dom for once. i hope you guys like polyfellows

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this should've gone here oops!

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i need a new hyperfixation that suits all my ideals

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i love the way "don't gotta scream if you ain't got a mouth" demonstrates the exact reason Caine isn't cooperating well with the rest of the cast, while also being a reference to the show's inspo.

he eliminates a tangible factor that he perceives as causing the issue, but doesn't actually eliminate the root of the problem- he's just preventing himself from seeing the result. "if you don't have a mouth, then you won't need to scream!" but having a mouth isn't what creates the urge to scream. preventing the screaming isn't preventing the need to scream. it's just removing the outlet for whatever causes the screaming in the first place.

he doesn't understand the root of their issues. in real life, it would correlate to people's resistance to having an open mindset and just being plain stubborn so that they don't have to re-evaluate themselves or the way they think. in this case, of course, it's a more literal limit. he's just incapable of understanding the circus members, no matter how they articulate their concerns. if they pander to him, he just sees that as positive reinforcement. if they trudge along but make snide remarks, he gets frustrated that he's still not making them happy. if they lash out at him and say to his face what he's doing wrong, he crashes out. it's physically impossible for him to understand it, as he is.

to him, he's not hearing screaming, if they don't have mouths. therefore, they must not need to scream. it doesn't matter what they really experience, because he's incapable of empathizing that way.

it reminds me a lot of how people treat disabled and neurodivergent people. the way disabilities are understood, even down to diagnostic criteria, rely so heavily on what's perceived by other people. ADHD isn't an attention-deficient disorder, it's an executive functioning disorder. but to neurotypical people, it seems like people with ADHD just can never focus, so that's what they think identifies it. people only think you're autistic if you "look" or "sound" or "act" autistic. even then, the term "disabled" is such a hot button that often times, if you try to tell your loved ones that you're looking for a diagnosis, they'll bend over backwards in denial of it. they think you can't be disabled, because Being Disabled is like some kind of curse that'll destroy you forever. as if you can prevent it so long as you deny it and don't get a diagnosis. it's like having all the symptoms of the flu, and people believing that you can't have the flu unless a doctor tell you that you have the flu. it's like believing you suddenly acquire stage 4 cancer by going to the doctor and them diagnosing you with stage 4 cancer. the illness was already there the entire time.

anyway, that was a tangent. the way TADC relates to aspects of real life will never stop impressing me.

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not in my notes but i often think about my favorite fic of all time that was deleted years ago (i still have a copy) and a part of me becomes so tempted to just derive from it my own story. it's like, first of all, it was deleted ages ago and nobody fucking knows how good it was because i don't think it's been reuploaded anywhere. i could just reupload it, but that's the beauty of inspiration—i take what i enjoy from it, i refine and emphasize my favorite parts whilst preserving what makes it distinct from things i come up with all on my own. secondly, it was a moomin fic, but it was ultimately a human au, high school au, historical au where Moomin and Snufkin were teenagers in the 90s living sucky lives but trying to make more of it. it could so easily just be an original story. thirdly, i want to honor one of my favorite things i've read, and recreate the feelings it elicited in me when i read it at like 15 years old, without taking credit or authenticity away by reuploading it myself.

the hardest part would definitely be fine-tuning it to preserve the feeling of the setting, the characters, mimic a little bit of how it was written, while making it my own. but it's so much of its own story in my head now, i think i'd be able to do it.

also, the fic was called "the sun was in my eyes". it had an unfinished sequel called "home to oblivion" that took place when they were both young adults and reunited. started in like 2019 but i think it was deleted sometime before 2022. i still have copies of everything. i think about this fic so much, it still inspires the way i write tbh.

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I'm definitely wanting to move in the direction of channelling this into an original story. since the thing with names & identities are so hard I'm gonna try to focus on the story and making changes until the characters feel original to me, like they've taken on their own identity separate from the fic, though the heavy inspiration will 100% still be there. it's so funny, it's difficult to balance having something very faithful and reminiscent to the original, but distinct enough as to not disrespect the original

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CATHY FROM @chubs-deuce's AFTERSHOW AU!!!!!! it's human Ragatha guys!!!!!!!!!!!

im a #1 cathy lover and since chubs mentioned about me giving the base idea for her Aftershow love interest (hehe >:3) i was like ooo lemme share that sketch i did bc she looks so cute there!!! only one is colored bc i got tired 💔 i love the pathetic people pleaser 30 year old woman shes so me. also combining y2k with actual 2000s style is so fun fr

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not dead. actually i should be alive again starting soon... here is a wip i've posted elsewhere

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he deleted System32

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five minute foot drawing tutorial??

tutorial i sketched up really quick for my friends on how i draw feet. here are some extra points i mentioned on details you can consider that i think make them look more "realistic" or convincing:

having the arch under the foot. this one's pretty obvious and i think is usually there in art, but i'm mentioning it anyway.

defining the ankles. this is also an easy one. but it's worth keeping in mind that the ankles don't align with each other usually (i believe the inside ankle is higher and the outside one is lower?) and they kind of lead into the under-foot arch in most front/side angles. it's hard to explain in words, sorry.

noting the downward curve on the top of the foot. it's more obvious when there's a heeled shoe but it's kinda always there? it's just more subtle when the foot is rested flat.

including the knuckles on the toes. this is the thing that, for me at least, made the feet match the level of detail of bodily/facial features in my style (on a good day when i have a bit more detail). i used to just do a simple curve, which is fine- but having that little bend downward makes it look a lot more natural in my opinion.

i got the core concept from a tutorial i saw on pinterest years ago, i think. the kind of three building blocks method stuck with me, but it works. i find it applies well to most front and side angles, but it's difficult to translate when drawing feet from behind, or when it's a front angle and they're tilted up in perspective. i still tried to include some different poses for reference. from-below angles are still pretty hard for me though.

i feel the need to clarify, i'm not a foot person. i'm particularly disinterested in foot fetish stuff, actually. but i like drawing bodies, and people in general, and there's not anything i particularly dislike that comes to mind. i'm no professional, but i've got a fair amount of experience, so i like helping articulate things like this that i think will be helpful. and there's really nothing i dislike. hands, legs, backs, arms, faces, side profiles, front views, clothing folds, all kinds of hair textures- it's all fun for me :] anyway i hope this helps someone, my friends appreciated it

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i still think about making an original story inspired by that Moomin fic embedded directly onto my brain after like 7 years. it's just difficult because like... it's inspired by a fic. the characters are very fanon-ified versions of the canon, but it's still a fic. i have to figure out how to divorce the connection between Moomins and this concept, in my head. because at this point, my idea of it is so deeply fanon and headcanon that all i'd have to do is change the names and it wouldn't be super obvious what the inspiration was. but i'm still stuck on like, "that's Moomin and Snufkin," so i don't know what to change the names to.

i think i just need to try building them from the ground-up and working through it that way. hopefully then they can become more individual as a story in my mind,,

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i put on sasaki and miyano and i didnt realize it was about This. this is so beautiful i shouldve watched it sooner

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also, i was dead for like a week. irl stuff with not... having a place to live, and all. i'm taking care of what few necessary things i can do (i finally got prescribed Adderall and i'm taking it starting today!!) and outside of that i'm really trying to just throw myself into drawing and writing and oc stuff. doesnt matter if i finish anything. as long as i temporarily escape The Horrors!

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man i cannot get over shadow milk with bellbottoms. im such a genius

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updated my intro post! i added a list of tags i use below the cut :]