It feels so good to obey my nature.
I never wanted children, not really, and not even two years ago I was talking about getting my tubes tied.
2 days ago I flushed my BC on a man's whim and now it's the third day in a row I have unprotected sex and do anything to facilitate conception.
After I take a load deep in my pussy I plug myself with a toy for a few hours, making my cunt flutter so she sucks up every drop of seed. I cum after hours, because I know it helps sperm reach my womb. I sleep plugged.
I looked it up and apparently stopping my kind of birth control mid package can result in ovulation after only a couple of days sometimes, thanks to the hormonal crashout.
I can't wait.
I want to feel that cramp in my ovary and edge to it like a bitch in heat before going out dressed like a slut and making sure I get another load in me.
I want to conceive. I want my egg to be fertilized by sperm and take root in my womb. I want my womb to cradle it and grow to accomodate it.
I want to get sore boobs and nausea and no period.
I want to piss on a stick and cry when I see the two lines and reality hits that I'll be a mom. I want to feel so ashamed over not knowing who the father is. I want to regret everything I'm doing now because I do not actually want a child, neved did. I want to edge over the positive test for hours, cupping my womb and picturing myself swollen and needy.
I won't seek an abortion because only 3 put of 10 doctors perform them in my country and because the truth is I'm too submissive to do it.
I'll wake up everyday horny and nauseous, my hand over my barely visible bumb, and start to edge right away. I'll feel so feminine as I start to show, my womb finally put to use and my hormones singing in delight at the joy of reproducing.
I'll be a good vessel, taking vitamins and supplements and never missing a check up, smiling dumbly when people congratulate me.
I'll outgrow my clotches and rub my cunt viciously over it, a hand cradling my stomach while I hump a pillow on all fours.
I'll feel myself getting slower and weaker as my mind gets fuzzier and love every second of it.
I'll struggle to walk, sit, get up, hold my bladder and I'll feel weak to my knees whenever the pregnancy inconvenieces me, reminding of my womanly duty to sit quiet in a house and be tame and domestic as I fulfill my biological imperative of procreating for the species.
My cunt will be constantly dripping, needy for sex and reassurance but I'll have no mate to take care of me. I'll grow more receptive to male presence as a result, in need of a man to own me and care for me and my offspring. I'll become infinitely more docile, and submit eagerly to any potential master but none will take a used broodmare for more than a quick fuck.
My tits will start to produce milk to feed my youngs, I'll leak in public when I hear a baby crying and get so wet I'll have to look for the closest restroom to finger myself and squeeze my udders like a cow in need of release.
I'll start dressing in motherly gowns that make ne look like a 50's housewife after 20 years of breeding. I'll start pissing myself when I sneeze and waddling around instead of walking.
I'll give birth without pain medication because as a female I'm born to suffer childbirth naturally, and I feel so feminine doing it, submitting fully to my biology as I push a baby through my cunt.
Maybe gearing its cries will make me fold and I'll become a single mom, the thing I swore I'd never be.
Maybe I'll sign the adoption papers and get back to my old life, maybe I'll even take birth control for a while. But I know I'll give up eventually. My body will flood me with lovely hormones and make me eager to obey my base instinct to reproduce. One is not nearly enough. I'm a female of breeding age, I belong barefoot and pregnant as I would've been for all human history, as my ancestors before me have been.
Eventually I'll get off my birth control again and obey my nature once more, submitting to dirty tricks my nurturing hormones will play on me.
I'll birth again and again and again, my womb proud of securing the species for another generation.
I love being female.