my blog where i complain and vent a bit

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[brenguncarrier08]

Realizing you have a horrible personality, terrible work ethic, no chance of keeping the one place in the world you truly love, so you lowkey just aim for fatal alcohol poisoning at 20

[brenguncarrier08]

How it feels to spot fetish art online that makes u uncomfortable: (spent years learning how to reinterpret discomfort/digust into self hatred out of politeness)

[thehypermoth]

Hey i should prob mention but i have an insta now, if u wanna follow me there

https://www.instagram.com/thehypermoth?igsh=b2cxNG5wMmc2OXQy

[brenguncarrier08]

shoutout to the obscure trope in some movies where the side character just has a more dominant character, be that monster or alien or human or whatever, go "yeah i like you you're mine now" and just drags them away from the main cast for most of the movie, and you get bits and pieces of whatever they're doing until at the end of the movie the side character is completely enamoured with the more dominant character and has like a major change in personality because of their experience with the more dominant character, be that more emotional/sappy or dazed seeming. this definitely had no effect on my preferences and fantasies or whatever

[brenguncarrier08]

p.s. the one exception from this that im not as into is the fact that it generally involves the side character betting impregnated and/or giving birth, regardless of genetalia... idk if id like that all that much. im mainly for the part where one gets dragged off and bored out from the asshole wider than a subway tunnel and gets showered in affection from here-on afterwards

[brenguncarrier08]

shoutout to the obscure trope in some movies where the side character just has a more dominant character, be that monster or alien or human or whatever, go "yeah i like you you're mine now" and just drags them away from the main cast for most of the movie, and you get bits and pieces of whatever they're doing until at the end of the movie the side character is completely enamoured with the more dominant character and has like a major change in personality because of their experience with the more dominant character, be that more emotional/sappy or dazed seeming. this definitely had no effect on my preferences and fantasies or whatever

[brenguncarrier08]

Can i vent about this shitstain vent art here? I hate when i do this oh my god.

"Eyestrain collages means i'm venting and whatever i make means something"

"Sarcastic text is super sad and edgy please feel bad for me"

"I'll draw one original thing but give it corny fnaf ass tear streams because of fucking course i cant have anything non-corny"

If you're going to make vent art about being functionally homeless, at least make it fucking meaningful you whimpering piece of shit oh my god

[brenguncarrier08]

Hey im probably not going to kms jsyk. I lost everything that i thought would never leave me yeah but also i dont want to hurt everyone by doing that

[brenguncarrier08]

[brenguncarrier08]

Maybe i won't miss not being able to not enter a room he was in because i know i'd feel watched.

Maybe i won't miss when he'd yell at me, or threaten to break my things, or tell me how much i was hurting everyone.

Maybe i won't miss how little he cared about my mental health.

Maybe i won't miss not being able to work at home because i had to listen for when other people were going to give me a task or scold me

Maybe i won't miss all the distrust.

But i'll miss the grassy fields outside my window.

I'll miss the quiet mornings in my room, waking up to the smell of breakfast sausages and an obnoxious song on the radio.

I'll miss the feeling of petting my cats as they climbed up onto my dresser to greet me as i walked into my room.

i'll miss all the black and white printed posters that i put up next to my bed of my ocs.

I'll miss the squeak of that chair in my room that it made when you flung yourself down into it and it slammed back into the wall behind you.

I'll miss all my model cars.

I'll miss the sound of my tractor starting up, as i got ready to tune her for a show.

I'll miss my bed, the only place i felt safe sometimes.

I'll miss my home. I'll miss it a lot.

[brenguncarrier08]

Well. There goes everything.

[goldensunset]

i’m really sorry about my behavior. you see, growing up, my family- *remembers blaming all my problems on other people is really annoying and unhealthy* i mean. i am responsible for all the evils of this world and i bear sins like the sky bears the stars

[brenguncarrier08]

TOP TEN THINGS I LEARNED AT SCHOOL:

1: no matter how much i shower or clean myself, i will always be revolting and too disgusting to even touch. 2: to avoid being laughed at or made fun of, i have to degrade and belittle myself so that people don't feel like i'm worth their time. 3. trigonometry

[brenguncarrier08]

High school is awesome

[brenguncarrier08]

Failed a driving test, didn't get a job i was really hoping for, dealt with heavy emotions allthe way through, and now my family's getting mad at me for how lazy i am. I cant keep doing this shit

[brenguncarrier08]

Why do i pretend that i deserve a future

[brenguncarrier08]

Why do i pretend like i deserve agency

[brenguncarrier08]

Well, there goes my one chance at a job where i live. I hate how sad i am, seeing as how anyone could have seen this coming