now that i've survived

when does living begin ?

[bretttal]

Truly / i try to be good but sometimes / a person just has to break out and / act like the wild and springy thing / one used to be. It’s impossible not / to remember wild and want it back. — Mary Oliver // independent canon divergent brett talbot roleplay from mtv’s teen wolf, est. sept 2014, written by jan ( she / they ), 21+. 

                     NAVIGATION : CARRD // MISC

[bretttal]

*dusting brett off bc he's been with me for so long*

[bretttal]

“ in my defense— ” when brett starts a sentence with these three words, it usually means he’s going to annoy the heck out of cosmo, whether intentionally or not. “ —it was the best deal i could find online. ”

@khozmoh​ he was gonna surprise cosmo with beyonce tickets but got scammed instead

[bretttal]

there’s just something about brett’s nose that i really like.

[bonniebird]

Brett Talbot - Credit if using

[bretttal]

mason looked really good in the trailer

[calliopesburn-deactivated202507]

First Kill S01E07: First Goodbye

[calliopesburn-deactivated202507]

First Kill S01E05: First Love

[aridante]

the black saint & the sinner lady & the dead & the truth, morgan parker // the truth the dead know, anne sexton.

[bretttal]

i’m putting brett in f.irst k.ill rp now

[outwards]

@bretttal​:

‘if I turned into a miniature pie would you eat me in one bite or a few’ / sucrose please this is for alchemy

it cannot be helped. it is for alchemy. the million dollar question is perched on her shoulders and totes great responsibility; she cannot fail the academic world now after how far she has come. it takes hours of study that roll into days, sleepless nights over handcrafted models and diagrams of confounding confection. finally, a knock on brett’s door announces her results.

          “at first, the spray only worked for sunsettias in their most organic form,” she starts, unpacking a slew of tools from her briefcase with breakneck speed, “but further diagnosis of their molecular compounds paved the way to various alternatives, one of which being the completely unblemished preservation of them in, er, pie form.”

up go the charts. “and because of that stasis, so to speak, you would not have to undergo any consumption at all. such a window would allow us more time to find a proper remedy in the interim. of course, that’s under the presumption that your cellular makeup would be similar enough to that of a fruit’s. however, per the swab i retrieved last month at angel’s share,”

[bretttal]

𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓  𝐈𝐒  𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑  𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊𝐄𝐒𝐓  𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐑𝐄?

—  to be saved by someone.

the hurt you carry in your heart is a heavy burden to bear. you dream of someone, a figment of light and beauty, to heal your scars. but i promise, you are not as broken as you believe. ( let me kiss it better. )

tagged by :  @khozmoh​ tagging :  you !

[jiangwanyin]

— vladimir nabokov, in a letter to his wife [24 march 1937] from letters to véra (trans. olga voronina & brian boyd)

[fabledresources]

𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒

found that there was a lack of text memes i personally liked, so i figured i’d just make one myself!! feel free to alter whatever you need to make it fit your muses better <3

[ sms ]: i know you don’t know me that well, but i wanted to check in after last night.

[ sms ]: oh, i’ve heard of you! [name] has told me so much about you!

[ sms ]: hi there! we’re number neighbors, what’s your name?

[ sms ]: i swear i’m not ignoring you, i just forget people exist sometimes

[ sms ]: i’m not really a big phone call kind of person,

[ sms ]: this is [receiver’s name], right? it’s [sender’s name] from yesterday!!

[ sms ]: sorry i left in a hurry, something came up…

[ sms ]: good morning! i’ve had three hours of sleep and i’m about to make it everyone else’s problem.

[ sms ]: what do you mean you “fell asleep”, i sent that days ago??

[ sms ]: if you’re not busy, could we hang out today?

[ sms ]: i miss talking to you

[ sms ]: be ready to call 911, i have a stupid idea

[ sms ]: speaking of pretty people, let’s talk about me!!

[ sms ]: today doesn’t feel right without you

[ sms ]: if you don’t reply asap, i’m sending you the bee movie script. all of it.

[ sms ]: it’s 3 am, why are you awake?

[ sms ]: is that a threat or are you flirting with me?

[ sms ]: i want to have breakfast with you for the rest of my life.

[ sms ]: good morning, my [ridiculous and/or sappy pet name]!!

[ sms ]: this date is going horribly, can you call me so i can leave?

[ sms ]: do you want to go with me to the movies tonight?

[ sms ]: my friends don’t like you, but i do.

[ sms ]: you’re lucky you’re cute >:(

[ sms ]: i want you to meet my family, is that alright?

[ sms ]: my parents are already asking when we’re getting married…

[ sms ]: i’m starting to think you’re only dating me for my [pet] :/

[ sms ]: so, how are things with that person you were crushing on?

[ sms ]: you don’t look so good. do you want to get out of here?

[ sms ]: do you need me to come pick you up?

[ sms ]: call me if anything goes wrong, okay?

[ sms ]: [receiver’s name]? i heard what happened, are you alright?

[ sms ]: please call me as soon as possible.

[ sms ]: are you sure that’s for the best?

[ sms ]: putting “lmao” behind a message like that doesn’t make it any less serious,

[ sms ]: i think you need to talk to a therapist.

[ sms ]: will you please tell me what i did wrong?

[ sms ]: can you just pick up the phone?

[ sms ]: stop calling me.

[ sms ]: block my number.

[ sms ]: so are you leaving me on read to be petty, or…

[ sms ]: this isn’t really a conversation to have over text.

[ sms ]: can’t you take a hint? i’m not interested.

[bretttal]

𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍  𝐃𝐎  𝐘𝐎𝐔  𝐆𝐀𝐙𝐄  𝐀𝐓  𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑  𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐄?

—  when  they  don't  see  you  .

you love them and you're not sure they know. but that's okay. you're used to loving more than you are loved. you give more than is given. and maybe others don't understand but you don't expect more. you tell yourself the love in your heart is not meant to be savored by anyone other than you. it's more than enough to get to exist at the same time as them. you stand in their shadow and you thank the sun for casting it. they touch your arm but they do not feel the same warmth which lingers on your skin for days. you gaze at them and they might even be looking right back but they are not seeing into your soul the same way you have memorized theirs. it's enough you tell yourself. it's enough. it's enough. but what if it's not? and what if you're wrong. what if they see you and all this time you have been too scared to ask what they're looking at.

tagged  by :  @khozmoh​ tagging :  anyone who wants to do this !

[bretttal]

thinking about how brett died like roadkill 

[fuckindiva]

Homer’s The Odyssey (tr. Robert Fagles)