in sorrow’s embrace, upon the bathroom floor i rest; as water softly runs down the drain. numbly staring into the ceiling with my heart shattering a thousand times asking me the same question violently. feeling like a stranger to my own fragile body, as if i was brutally forcefully alienated from my precious flesh vessel. forsaken my ancient forbidden cathedral for so called love. a false hope. I’ve never allowed any organism in, I’ve built my walls so high and secured the gates with deadbolts. the first mere mortal I’ve let in after years of devotion to protect it and keeping it sacred had chosen to destruct it, rip off the essence of my being brutally, spitefully. desecrating all the innocence and pureness remorselessly. committing the most dreadful atrocities, distorting not only the insides but the sacred meadows. darkness prevails, a grisly sight. appalled that I’ve let such an odious vicious revolting brute in.. to be seized by a coup de main. leaving me in utter bewilderment, too ashamed to look at my own reflection. a peculiar symphony of melancholy was stealing over me as dim thoughts of death began to unravel. an idea that i was slowly sinking into the unfathomable voids took gentle, every morsel of flesh in my bones shrank as i forcefully digest the fact that you abandoned me. misery shall forever be upon you for the rest of eternity, i wish you a life full of misery and never ending damage. and that everything that’s precious to you shall be mercilessly taken away from you and to feel my pain throughout your whole life and in everyone that’s precious to you. you shall reap all what you sow and shall never be forgiven. no plea that you emit shall be heard, the hymns of seraphic annihilation shall play and carry my soul to eternal serenity and salvation as it carry yours to eternal carnage of damnation.
