6 AM and already the boy ain't right

✧ calico / 25 / they/he ✧ @egoanesthesia ♡

[brobeckology]

✧ calico | he/they | 25 ✧

nonbinary + bi [pronouns page] (tldr; masc/neutral terms are fine)

taken by @egoanesthesia <3 

disabled (autistic etc; i'm not sharing my entire medical history on tumblr dot com)  

white

i make lyric edits + write fics!

18+ please!

brobeckology on all other sites (bsky, goodreads, pinterest, pillowfort, twitter, unsplash)

mutuals can ask for my discord

studyblr/aesthetic blog: @astoriastudies

things i like ↯

music - the academy is…, against me!, avenged sevenfold, bayside, billy talent, the brobecks, dodie, fall out boy, halestorm, idkhow, jack’s mannequin, the maine, marianas trench, motion city soundtrack, my chemical romance, neck deep, paramore, something corporate, state champs, sugarcult, taking back sunday, theory of a deadman, the used, waterparks

tv - brooklyn nine-nine, doctor who, king of the hill, house md, malcolm in the middle, mary & george, psych, schitt’s creek, scrubs, wolfblood

movies - all i wanna do, dead poets society, jennifer’s body, handsome devil, red white and royal blue, score: a hockey musical

books - annie on my mind, one last stop, people like us, red white and royal blue

etc - biking, cats, cooking/baking, drawing, the sims (mainly building lol), swimming, writing

current jams ↯

✧ banner by @cafekitsune ✧

[brobeckology]

brobeckology’s 2025 in 25 songs

↳ #1 - self sabotage - waterparks

[brobeckology]

brobeckology’s 2025 in 25 songs

↳ #2 - sweetness - jimmy eat world

[brobeckology]

brobeckology’s 2025 in 25 songs

↳ #3 - work - jimmy eat world

[brobeckology]

brobeckology’s 2025 in 25 songs

↳ #4 - fuck about it feat. blackbear - waterparks

[brobeckology]

brobeckology’s 2025 in 25 songs

↳ #5 - you'd be paranoid too (if everyone was out to get you) - waterparks

[brobeckology]

brobeckology’s 2025 in 25 songs

↳ #6 - blow - theory of a deadman

[sheisraging]

Ilya never missing an opportunity to grab a handful

[popcornpunk182]

The Academy Is…: Almost Here

This album is a window into the early 2000’s scene and it still holds up.

[brobeckology]

brobeckology’s 2025 in 25 songs

↳ #7 - leg to stand on - theory of a deadman

[mayathexpsychic]

we are so broback

[dalloneveryday]

day 796

[brobeckology]

brobeckology’s 2025 in 25 songs

↳ #8 - watch the sky - something corporate

[findmyfears]

his little pins ʕᵔᴥᵔʔ your honour thats my princess

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

[brobeckology]

brobeckology’s 2025 in 25 songs

↳ #9 - telephone - waterparks

[irrevocablecondition]

“i do not know that side of you” is so fucking special to me. shane grew up with support. shane has brand deal after brand deal, his mum and dad are in his corner, he’s the Golden Captain, he led his team to the cup two years in a row. to have a man like shane hollander turn around and say this? the guy who has the kind of career that, yes you technically have, but not in the same nutured way turns to you and says “that side of you? that part of you your father resents you for? that he makes you think is all you are? i’ve never seen it.” you stock my ginger ale in the fridge. you made me dinner. you are not lazy.

a lazy person doesn’t put this much effort in. doesn’t give his brother mountain after mountain of money. doesn’t go back to a country he hates because his family needs him. needs, not wants, and yet he does it anyway. doesn’t put his all into a game that doesn’t support him. doesn’t put his all into the very game driving a wedge between him and his father. doesn’t learn english for a game. doesn’t sit and research alzheimers for so long a word like “genetic” comes out so naturally. doesn’t start 10 steps behind and end up side by side with Shane Hollander.

shane doesn’t even know any of this. he doesn’t know and yet he turns and says “i do not know that side of you”.

oh, ilya rozanov, of course you slipped up. of course you said shane. how on earth could you not when he sees through you so easily?