Just another rainy night

Just someone who’s trying to make it through another rainy night alone.

[brokenglassrainynights]

I just fucked up and ruined my entire relationship.

[brokenglassrainynights]

Im starting to loose myself again and this time im not sure I have the energy to find me again.

[brokenglassrainynights]

I had the kind of love that you dream about. The kind that I thought was fake, only for fairy tales. The kind of love that was endless, the kind of love where I felt like I was the only person to walk the earth that you saw. I had your complete love and I crushed it. I opened up and when I did that I flooded the fairy tale world that you had created with me and I brought darkness with me. I brought the kind of darkness that kills everything in its path. I kept trying to get the darkness and the water to leave and no matter what, it wouldn't. So, I left our fairy tale land full of love barren and full of darkness.

[brokenglassrainynights]

I ruin everything

[thoughtkick]

“Sometimes I hate you, sometimes I hate myself, but always I miss you.”

— David Henry Hwang, M. Butterfly

[brokenglassrainynights]

Not a day goes by that I don't and it will probably always be that way

[remanence-of-love]

[brokenglassrainynights]

Then why am I and why do I stay regardless

[brokenglassrainynights]

The emptiness is growing and I am growing tired of hoping people will notice it before it's too late.

[disc90s]

[brokenglassrainynights]

I refuse to be left behind to fit your narrative of who I should be. I didn't survive my life for you to try to erase me.

[voldyisoldy]

too empty to write

words don't ooze from my lips anymore

like dried blood

they clog every vein in me

this miasma of a void

incurs, viciously through

struggles to keep me alive

when the duality of it

is a silent killer

I tackle for words carved on trees

on the walls of public restrooms

perhaps on the back of my old school notebooks

only if these words could

burn every essence of me

birth me anew

but they hold no meaning

so I cough them out

like dried blood

futile, and hollow.

[obscurix]

i don’t need anyone to pray on my downfall. i am fucking great at ruining my own life actually.

[becherdireinen]

Do you always feel like you’re a burden to others or are you normal?

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

she once laughed and i wanted to frame the sound in stained glass.

[itsmarysblog]

<3

[brokenglassrainynights]

and I ruined it

[lena-oleanderson]

also a poem from the new, unreleased collection. very possibly my own all-time favourite.

[sweatermuppet]

*remembers*

*gets sick to my stomach*

[nightquotes]

I loved you so much that even when you hurt me I tried to understand you.

[brokenglassrainynights]

And you kept hurting me anyways

[poetryforall]

[brokenglassrainynights]

That hurts