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i feel so left out. like everyone around me knows how to be a human and i don’t.

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well i think i either gotta get better or die chat

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the problem with getting better is you have to want it bad enough. i simply don't want this life that fucking bad.

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i bet feeling loved is soooooo nice lmao.

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i’ve been a ghost my entire life. what difference would it make if i died.

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i feel like i'm running out of time. out of time. out of time.

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i'm always waiting for something horrible to happen.

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i feel like i've been bothering people since my birth.

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i don't know who i am anymore. i don't think i was ever anyone anyway.

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will i preform even in death?

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i’m not made for anything good. i feel like a bad dog that was abandoned.

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i have very big feelings and they all boil down to “i need to fucking die right now.” lmao

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been laying on the floor a lot again

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i’m stuck in time. it won’t let me heal. i’ll be traumatized forever.

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really starting to feel like 27 will be my cap.

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https://open.spotify.com/track/3bWriexgkG7aykYmtfGWr3?si=Gh3422qkTBiLa1FDb_i0iQ

yeah. yeah.

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there's this rage that lives in my blood. i have no where to put it.