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Year cancelled! Suicide

I hope i die this year. Praying 🙏🏻

I believe i'll never amount to anything or have any person to truly cherish me that I can recipocrate

parents when their depressed child is useless (i dont have a will to live)

I have the worlds most disgusting body, face, hair, and bedroom. It's all greasy and messy and filthy. Nothing that makes me feel even remotely good

Eu gastei um mês das minhas férias na praia. Me perdi em um monte de incômodos. Conciliar os desejos de todos é difícil, ainda mais em uma família complicada como a minha. Todo mundo é extraordinariamente complicado. E é começo do ano e eu acho que estou ficando pior de novo. Ou talvez não de novo, só pior. Não sei se vai se parecer com a vez do ano passado, onde eu perdi tudo que era eu e tive que recolher os pedacinhos. Será que dessa vez vou recolher só a poeira? Talvez seja por isso que estou doente, rinite. Apesar de eu não saber se é algo mais sério, tive febre. Mas já passou. Me sinto mal. Meu quarto não é meu, meu corpo não é meu, nem meus "gostos" parecem ser meus. E não tenho certeza se eu "gosto". Talvez seja a tal da podridão mental que tanto dizem. Vi vídeos demais em segundos de menos e agora meu cérebro é incapaz se formar pensamentos pertinentes, satisfatórios, bem construídos, exploradores. É a primeira vez que escrevo um texto mais longo nas férias. Sinto falta das minhas análises e profundas fixações em histórias que surgiram no meu tédio e se tornaram minha vida. A qual eu perdi. Mas recolhi pedaços... Como disse. É um incômodo tão grande todo esse tédio, medo, receio, ansiedade. Mas essas palavras não me sugerem tanto sentimento quanto seria necessário para ser entendido, até por mim. Eu queria ser mais complexo, sim, e melhor do que eu já fui. E mais tolerante, e mais rápido de pensamento. E eu queria ter roupinhas bonitas feitas por mim. E eu queria que eu não carregasse a culpa justa da minha ignorância. Eu queria poder carregar pelo menos toda, do mundo, toda a ignorância do mundo e eu pagaria por todos sozinha. Enfim. Queria conseguir fazer algo e sentir algo e não me odiar. E ser útil para o mundo ainda sendo bom para mim. Solidão, comunidade, identidade. É uma coisa complicada mas parece que eu ainda não me acostumei. Me sinto tão direta, será que sou anti intelectualista? Ah. Primeiro eu preciso decidir pra que ensino médio eu vou, sabendo que ambos são um testamento pra perda da minha juventude. "O homem que nasceu velho" não me parece estranho, eu já fui mais sábia. Mas mais inocente. Agora eu me quero e me torço mas choro porque ainda queria brincar e queria um amigo, um que não me queira eroticamente. Que seja romântico como os lobos e os cavaleiros mas eu prefiro que não como os amantes. Perdão. Eu não tenho amor pra ninguém e portanto não estou pronta... Mas eu quero algo que me pesa o peito não conseguir elaborar o que é, e deve ser minha culpa. Eu sou um zumbi da última geração

#eu

lonniemachin

List of Palestinian Evacuation Fundraisers

Last Update: 05/06/2024

All fundraisers have been looked into by me or vetted by others. If anyone notices issues in validity with any of the fundraisers listed please let me know. Funding updates daily!

Fadi Al-Sharif and family ($10,439/$62,500 goal)

Hayam Taha and family (€8,718/€30,000 goal)

Deyaa and family (€7,764/€20,000 goal)

Fatima Alshanti (kr5,085 SEK/kr150,000 goal)

Shahed Ghazi and family ($6,776 CAD/$94,838 goal)

Little Yusuf and family (€5,960/€85,000 goal)

Sara & Huda Hajjaj and family ($240/$15,000 goal)

Mohammed JH Shamia's family (kr20,168 SEK/kr250,000 goal)

Maram Ahmed and family (€1,032/€30,000 goal)

Hamza Almofty and family ($3,772/$35,000 goal)

Mahmoud Jomaa (€400/€10,000 goal)

Dr. Mohammed Shara ($445/$20,000 goal)

Abdulrahman Alshanti and family (kr137,402 SEK/kr350,000 goal)

Besan Almabhouh's family (€5,767/€25,000 goal)

Said Tanani and brothers (€30,935/€50,000 goal)

Donia Tanani and family (€67,538/€100,000 goal)

Hussein Shamiya, his pregnant wife, and son ($8,042/$40,000 goal)

Mohammed Shamia and family ($15,020/$35,000 goal)

Amro Bakr & kids Bakir and Tala (€1,772/€15,000 goal)

Almadhoun family ($18,365/$80,000 goal)

Child Mohammed (€6,420/€10,000 goal)

Sana'a and family (£19,668/£50,000 goal)

Noha Ayyad and family ($23,050/$95,160 goal)

Nazmi Mwafi and family ($5,151/65,000 goal)

Ibrahim Almofty and family ($535/$40,000)

Hamdi Hejazi and family ($10,236/$25,000)

Mohammed and family ($7,620/$25,000)

lonniemachin

Many of the families that have reached out to me, families on this list, are in Rafah or have family members in Rafah. It is imperative and EXTREMELY urgent we fill these fundraisers as swiftly as possible, the IOF is planning to invade any day. Please, I urge you, to donate whatever you can. People’s lives are at stake.

I hope he doesnt double triple text me because of that picture of the two miners searching for diamond istg

I need increased amounts of antidepressants

gigi-the-crab

Postcards for Palestine

I have been in touch with Ahmed (24) who is desperately seeking help to feed his family in Gaza and pay to continue his education through online courses.

Thanks to the incredible generosity of many donors his campaign has raised enough to cover the €180 out of €200 for the first installment due by December 22nd (the full amount raised is split between covering the cost of his education and feeding his family)! However, he is still missing the remaining €20 for the first installment and the €250 needed for the second installment due in January. Without this money, he will not be able to continue his education, which is a great source of stress for him.

In an effort to support Ahmed’s fundraiser, I will be offering to send these special postcards I collected while living in Japan to anyone who donates €5 or more to his campaign. Donate, DM me a screen shot of your donation, and receive a handwritten thank you message, some art to decorate your space, and a reminder of the gift you gave to Ahmed.❤️🍉

If you are unable to donate, please share this post to boost this campaign!

Ahmed’s fundraiser is #303 on the @/gazavetters list.

DONATE HERE:

My name is Mohamed, and I currently live in Germany. Today, I am… Ahmed Jebril needs your support for Help Ahmed Continue His Education and

#signal boost #mutual aid #important #please help if you can

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#art

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This is our reality. For over 13 months, we’ve lived in this fragile shelter that barely protects us from the freezing winter. My little sister suffers through unbearably cold nights, and we can’t afford a proper tent or even a simple meal that costs €5 per person.

We humbly ask for your help to survive this harsh winter. Every contribution, no matter how small, makes a difference.

Donate here: https://gofund.me/c3436e74

Thank you for your support and kindness.

brokennailwound

Please reblog and donate if you can

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I am Ahmed from Gaza. I am the breadwinner for the physicist, which consists of 11 people. My father, Osama, is 58 years old. My mother is 50 years old. My older brother is Muhammad Talib, 25 years old. I am Ahmed, 24 years old. Mahmoud is 21 years old. Abdul Rahman is the second year old. Youssef is 14 years old. Lama is 29 years old. Mays is 27 years old. Hala is 16 years old. Sing 7We are challenged to survive 400 days of suffering, fear, diseases, lack of nutrition, and the most difficult times of our lives. We decided to run a campaign to collect donations for two reasons. The first reason is to provide the daily food that we obtain with difficulty due to the extreme high prices due to the closure of the crossings.The second reason for leaving the Gaza Strip is so that we can be safe and complete our education as a human being, and in order to leave Gaza, we need each individual $5,000 to coordinate the crossing. Help us with a small donation or by publishing our campaign so that everyone can see it and make our simple dream come true. Every donation or participation brings us to the goal.

My name is Mohamed, and I currently live in Germany. Today, I am… Ahmed Jebril needs your support for Help Ahmed Continue His Education and

brokennailwound

Please reblog and donate if possible. Even small amounts can make a difference.

#signal boost #mutual aid #aid #important #please help if you can #all eyes on palestine #viva viva palestina #current events

hudafamily55

‼️Vetting Done ‼️

Our campaign has been vetted by @gazavetters

✅️Vetted by @gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #325 )✅️

Our campaign link:

https://gofund.me/cd14d440

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mohammedgazaa

🚨 Urgent Help 🙏🏻🚨💔🍉

Please do not skip hello, I am Muhammad Al-Luqta, I want to help my family of 9 people. I will tell you my sad story, after we were living a beautiful life full of fun and reassurance, as we had a special project for me (a dress shop), and my older brother owned a farm, and my younger brother owned a clothing store🥹🥹🥹, and I have a brother studying medicine abroad and we have our big house full of warmth and safety, and now we live a life worse than the pictures of a person, after we left our house, Compulsory from north to south, here the suffering has begun. To provide the basics of his life 😭😭and I have been infected with a moderate injury and so far I suffer from it and I want to be treated, 💔💔💔🥺my father is sick and suffers from hemiplegia due to stroke and now he suffers from malnutrition and lost more than two-thirds of his weight 😭😭😭and my mother suffers from chronic diseases. We cannot provide them with the medicine or healthy food that they need to recover. I have cats that I fear for death and I cannot provide their food. They do not accept anything. I want to provide food and a safe place for them. We all have higher degrees, but there is no job that we can participate in because of the lack of jobs and the inability to go out at any time. Please, I ask you not to stay away from our urgent appeal. A small donation of up to $ 20 or more of each person will make a difference and save our lives. Let's unite and show the world the power of sympathy and solidarity in times of inhumanity. Together, we can rebuild, restore and shape a future full of hope and freedom. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for your steadfast support in this urgent matter.😭😭🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

https://chuffed.org/project/urgent-support-mohammeds-family-survival-and-evacuation

‏✅️Vetted by @gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #254 )✅️.

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Muhammed urgently needs money for medicine, please donate if you can

#signal boost

yossef-gaza11

PLEASE DON’T SKIP🍉🇵🇸🍉

Hello everyone 👋🏻🍉

I’m Yossef Ezz Eldeen Abo Steta , I’m 24 years old , I’m from Gaza , me and my family of 12 person evacuated from Gaza to south Gaza Strip during the war .

I want to help my self and my family , so I will tell you my sad story

Before the war we had a great life full of pleasure and blessings , we had a beautiful , warm and big house , but unfortunately our house was damaged due to the ongoing Israeli bombing of the Gaza Strip.

Also I worked as an accountant in a company , but the company stopped its work due to the war , and I remained without a source of income.

I have a bachelor's degree in business administration but there’s no jobs to apply for because of the lack of jobs and the inability to go out at any time.

Also before the war I was about to marry my fiancee , her name is Ruba Khaled Khader , we had planned to have our wedding in February 2024 but because of the war we haven’t gotten married yet and all our dreams of living a happy life have been shattered

Also my fiancée's house was destroyed and burned by the Israeli occupation and all her new wedding clothes were burned and she has nothing left.

My fiancée and I don't see each other very often because she and her family evacuated to a place far from where I live and the transportation is difficult and expensive.

It has been 2 years since I engaged my fiancée and we want to get married but we don’t have a place to live in and we don’t have the means to live.

And my fiancée is studying software engineering at Al-Ahar University and the university started an online education and I have to pay to the university so she can complete her education but I don’t have money or a source of income or a work to pay for her education.

So please, I ask you not to stay away from our urgent appeal. Your support can make a big difference in our lives. Let us unite, and show the world the power of sympathy and solidarity in times of inhumanity. Together, we can rebuild, restore, and formulate a future full of hope and freedom. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for your steadfast support in this urgent matter.

✅️Vetted by @gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #251 )✅️