Broken Poems2212

all poems written by me🤗

[brokenpoemsgirl]

I'm sorry

I'm sorry i fuck everything up

I'm sorry that I don't think things through

I'm sorry that i hurt you sometimes

I'm sorry that it's hard for me to swallow my pride

I'm sorry that it's hard for me to say sorry

I'm sorry that it's hard for me to admit my mistakes

I'm sorry that it's come to this

I don't want to imagine my life without you in it

I love you more than anything

[brokenpoemsgirl]

Self-destruction

i want to scream 

tell you what's really wrong 

tell you everything bothering me

 i want to be open with you 

 but i cant. i cant let myself lose you

 i cant have a mental breakdown

i cant let you see me like that 

you dont know 

how much i cry

 after you leave after i realize

i dont really like sex 

i like destroying myself

maybe this time i'll actually succeed

but you won't know anything

[brokenpoemsgirl]

From a book I will never write

You leaving us has me thinking

A lot, actually.

That maybe I was the reason you left;

I'm sorry my illness was a burden

I'm sorry my constant anxiety

Still is a burden.

I can't control it

I'm sorry I bothered you

For that long.

I'm sorry I tried

And failed.

I promise I won't anymore.

[brokenpoemsgirl]

If only

If I had just been stronger,

If I had just been better,

If I had just tried harder,

If I had just succeeded,

None of this would be happening.

It is my fault.

If I had just been more careful,

If I had just controlled everything,

If  I had just succeeded

at my first attempt...

[brokenpoemsgirl]

♡

And at that moment,

When i looked at you,

In your eyes,

I realized -

I'm gonna be in love

With those brown eyes

Forever

[brokenpoemsgirl]

I'm alone

My eyes filled with tears

As i continued to

Think and think and think

And i could not

Stop thinking

About everything

About how much i

Hate myself

Want to die

Can't handle this

How no one understands

And how no one can help

I'm on my own

Now and always

[brokenpoemsgirl]

Sad truth

Im losing myself

And all i have

Is people

Who dont understand

And who can't help

And the sad truth is

I can't help

Myself either

[brokenpoemsgirl]

Day after day

Day after day

It gets harder

Same routine

Go to school

Suck it up

Get home

Fight with family

Break down

Sleep

So here i am again

In my room,

My heaven and hell,

Broken down

Crying my eyes out

With no one to tell

And no one to care

[brokenpoemsgirl]

You walked away.

My eyes filled up with tears

As you said it's over.

The tears threatened to fall

As you turned away.

The tears fell out

As you took the first step.

Tears continued

As you walked further away.

Scream formed

As you disappeared.

Scream was released as i realized

You weren't coming back.

My mind raced back and forth

But you left and didn't come back.

I'm all alone now. Again.

[brokenpoemsgirl]

Heavy

Everything seemed so heavy

My eyelids that fell down

As tears got out

Those heavy tears

That pulled me with them

While i had already been drowning

In my sadness.

My heart was heavy

It was so heavy

To feel it pump.

My demons were

The heaviest part.

Pulling me down

In my little hell

Known as my being.

Life

Is so heavy

I am not strong enough

To carry it.

[brokenpoemsgirl]

My eyes swollen.

My heart breaking.

My shirt soaked in my tears.

Slowly walking to my room,

Putting earphones in,

And blasting the music so fucking loud

So that i can not hear my toughts.

My destroying toughts

That haunt me

Day and night.

My shaky hands

Taking the blade,

Lifting up my sleeve,

And pulling a deep line.

Tears stop falling,

A smile forms on my face,

The blood drips from my hand.

And the music still silencing

My destroying toughts.

[brokenpoemsgirl]

Broken up

i often have

trouble sleeping.

i often wake u

terrified

and crying.

and you are always there,

next to me,

to hold me,

to calm me down.

but last night

was different.

i woke up

crying again,

turned over,

and you weren't there.

and i remembered what happened

and that made me cry

even more.

i was left

broken,

unable to sleep

that night

nor any other.

[brokenpoemsgirl]

Dead

Her smile slowly fading

Her eyes slowly filling up with tears

Her sobing quietly.

No one could hear.

No one could care.

Her, slowly falling down

Her, slowly picking up the blade

With shaky hands

Putting the razor on her wrist

Vertically while sobing louder.

Pressing down and pulling one straight

Line deep enough and from that final

Release she smiles through the tears

And the blood dripping

But it is an honest smile.

It is the one she had been keeping in her

For so long, trapped with her demons.

One true smile. But for the very wrong reason.

[brokenpoemsgirl]

It's not

It's not 'just tired'.

It's not 'just not hungry.'

It's never 'okay'.

And I'll never be okay.

It's a battle that

I'm losing constantly

And it hurts

A lot. Think before

You speak cuz everyone

Is fighting a battle

You know nothing about.

You know nothing about

Me. You see me and

Think how i must have

Everything figured out.

But you don't see my

Scars nor my tears.

You don't know my pain or what

I've been through and

You can't hear my toughts.

And you never will understand

Or know.

[brokenpoemsgirl]

Her little girl

‘No! No! No!’

She yelled.

There layed

Her daughter,

Her little girl,

With blooded wrists.

She screamed,

Begged her to wake up

But nothing happened.

On her wrists,

Under the vertical cut,

Said 'I’m sorry.’

[brokenpoemsgirl]

She

Her eyes,

That were once so happy,

Are now so sad.

Her smile,

That was once so true,

Is now twice as fake.

Her wrists,

That were once so clean,

Are noe covered in scars.

She,

Who used to despise darkness,

Has now befriended it.

[brokenpoemsgirl]

Because i smile

Because I smile,

No one knows I cut again.

Because I smile,

No one knows how much I cried.

Because i smile,

Everyone thinks I’m happy.

Because I smile,

No one cares.