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I've given up on promises and I love you's. I would say that every syllable stabs me in the heart, a knife in my back. But how can I say that when you hurt me without speaking. Don't tell me you love me if your actions speak otherwise. Every step you take is a walk away from me, every step you don't take is also the same. You like to tell me I'm overreacting, that I expect too much and maybe, okay I know I do. But if you love someone you do things to show them you care. You don't toss them aside for hours knowing they aren't feeling well and never check up on them. For god sake, we were in the same fucking house it wouldn't kill you to come up for 2 minutes or even just 1. 4 hours alone. How easy it is to unlove yourself when someone else helps you

You tell me I'm perfect but when the waves get rough you have a full Arsenal waiting to attack. My anxiety, insecurities, low self-esteem, my constant need for assurance, my dying need for affirmation,, my unjust reasonsing. You paint my flaws at the back of your mind telling me you accept them and then use them like grenades whenever things get shacky

I will always struggle with the idea about being independent for you see I've depended on you for so long that even when I want to do something for myself, my body cannot seem to hold up its weight

cosmicwizdom

Lonely is not a feeling when you are alone. Lonely is a feeling when no one cares…

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(via quotelounge)

just promise me you’ll treat me special. Wrap me up in a warm blanket of tender care and hot chocolate. Remind me everyday how lucky you are to have me. Kiss me like I might die tomorrow if you don’t. All i’ve ever wanted was to be the reason to make someone smile everyday. I wanted to know that someone needed me so much that they would put my needs before anything else.

I hate the fights, I hate how insecure i am and how you have to always deal with me. I wish I wasn’t this way. sometimes I wish alot of things.

abandonment issues

i will always hear you walking away

you’ve never told me reasons that made you want to stay

words I’m waiting to hear from you...

I'll wait, I'll wait I love you like you've never felt the pain, I'll wait I promise you don't have to be afraid, I'll wait The love is here and here to stay So lay your head on me Little do you know I know you're hurting while I'm sound asleep Little do you know All my mistakes are slowly drowning me Little do you know I'm trying to make it better piece by piece Little do you know I, I love you 'til the sun dies

the guy i begin liking whenever I’m already in a relationship

I always have a you.

You came to be when I was 13.

I never felt such rush with my own boyfriend, but you sweeped me off my feet

your sweet words and not-so-clever thoughts you had me instantly even though I belonged to someone else.

it was then that I realised, you were my first love.

As quick as it hard started, it came to a stop. Like a speeding car jamming its break infront of a red light. Broken. you broke me.

The next boyfriend I had didn’t know about the other two you’s. You were not the same person, but you had started the cycle and it was shackled onto me.

You were older now, going to Ireland to study for 6 months - the only thing that kept us from being together.

the other you had an amazing voice whose words could go on for days.

The next boyfriend I had, had to face a different you

this you was stronger, and I ended that relationship for you.

You and I were stronger than ever but even this guy had to face another you.

I'm not even allowed to be angry

The beginning of the end. Been here done that. So why does it still hurt so much

I've loved you through everything and given you my all and you still think I'm a shitty person

And who are you to tell me being broken is not an excuse

It's not that I want to be a shit ass girlfriend but if you've loved so much and been hurt and screwed so many times over by so many friends and boy and people in general you get left a it broken

The worst thing is knowing you're a shitty girlfriend and hear your boyfriend still constant tell you you're not good enough. Like my insecurities are already rock bottom. Just cut me open and kill me now

Because if my all is not enough for you. Then there's nothing left of me

Maybe letting you go to find someone who will love you in a fair way is what love is meant to be

Things I do for you that you’ve never realized

1. Everytime I stay over I always make your bed without you asking me to.

2. I like to chill in my room with the aircon off. But when I know you’re coming I’ll switch in on 10mins before you get here so that my room is cooled down for you cause you can’t stand the heat

3. I always try to snuggle up with you when you’re asleep. But I’m afraid I’ll wake you so I just lay there thinking of you

4. When you get angry at me, I really don’t know what to do

5. Sometimes I call you love when you're angry cause I'm hoping the fear and sadness in my voice is enough to calm you down and come back to me

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