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[broodingmystery]

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[broodingmystery]

Hiatus notice; as of Tuesday the 18th, I’ll be officially on hiatus for a trip out of state. I’ll be gone just over a week, maybe two weeks.

[charmed-redemption]

"If I was going to let a cute guy die my grandmother would never let me live it down."

Rico focuses on the bottle making it disappear in blue flames. He hoped that it made it back to his home something that he can't focus on as the wind had grown and the last spell had alerted the dark druid to their presence. His mind raced as he thought of trying to heal the man. Even if he placed the water on the wound it would have healed it something he likely should have mentioned.

"Definitely... you can use the shower... but you may have to spend the night."

The more he moved the more his defensive abilities awoke. In his mind it was hum yet it started when he gor close to the nameless man. Something about him was amplifying hus senses and he could see more of what was out there. For a moment his eyes glowed blue as a vision took place. A dark creature stood near a tree stomp drawing power casting a spell. The feelings of the man soon hit Rico and he knew that the man at his side was destined to be powerful.

"A dark druid... cast a spell to bring forth a windigo... to kill... a powerful alpha in the making."

[broodingmystery]

"Your grandmother, really?" He chuckles with a shake of his head. Watching the other for a moment as the bottle vanished. His brows furrowing as he looks back at the other. "What the hell are you?" He whispered out. He kept his hand pressed to his side and let out a sigh of relief when he felt the bleeding start to slow. That was good, it meant he'd start healing soon and wouldn't be in so much pain.

He scrunched up his face a little before letting out a low groan. "What? Why would I have to stay the night?" He let out a low growl as watches the other. "My mom is going to be so pissed at him if I don't make it home at some point tonight. Shit, if I die she'll find a way to bring me back to just to yell at me." He tilted his head to the side a little and shakes his head.

"Well then it came after the wrong werewolf. My sister Laura is going to be the next Alpha. Not me. I mean unless something were to happen to Laura, but that's not going to happen.... Right?" He started to panic a little. "Is something going to happen to my family?" He reached over with his free hand and gripped onto the other's arm.

[bamsidsuperbitch]

Fingernails tapped anxiously against the desk as he spoke.

" Do you think I care what you think? " Sidney bit back, not realizing the pencil she was writing with snapped at the tip, earning an annoyed growl and soon after reaching into her bag for a hand-held sharpener to bring the writing utensil back to tip top condition.

A person across from her gave her an odd look at the noise, prompting an awkward wave and the person turned their attention away from her once more.

" Oh, shut it, Loomis. Like you were any better.

I'm trying to move on, pave my own way whatever that may be.

The last person I would want to be stuck with is you and annoying presence. Stu's dead, right? go bother him for once. " The brunette took a deep breath, shifting her focus from her nuisance homicidal ex back to the lesson at hand.

She was grateful he couldn't physically move things.

Save her the time if she had to replace things or if he decided to throw things around for the hell of it.

[broodingmystery]

Billy chuckles softly and shakes his head as he leans forward in his chair. "If I were you, I would care what I think. I mean I am the one hunting you. Which means for the time being, you're stuck with me. And I don't think you'd want me to be pissed off the entire time." He shrugs his shoulders as he leans back in the seat.

He loved how he seemed to be getting to her. It was making this whole thing more enjoyable. "At least I was killing people for a reason. You're just.... well fucking boring, Sid." He shakes his head as he looks over at her.

"I would love to go and bother Stu." He mutters out with an over dramatic sigh. "But he's not at his house. I was stuck there first before I figured out I'm also stuck to you." He runs his fingers through his hair and pouts a little.

"It seems that he was able to move on or just isn't stuck like I am." He folds his arms over his chest. He would have preferred to be stuck with Stu than with Sidney. If he were he'd at least be entertained.

[lcevblossomedmoved]

@broodingmystery asked: ❝  will you sleep with me?  i know how that sounds i just mean—  i feel safe when you’re there.  ❞ (cheryl from karen)

Cheryl stood in the doorway with extra blankets ready to hand off to Karen. She didn't know if Karen even needed extra blankets she had just been looking for an excuse to check up on her. The earthquake had brought devastation through all of Hawkins and no one knew what to do. She had invited Karen and the kids to stay at her house since it was untouched by the madness.

The kids were of course staying with their friends who needed support so it was just them. She smiles a little at the suggestion, "Of course. Whatever would make you more comfortable." She walks over putting the extra blankets on the foot of the bed. "I was thinking of making a cup of tea before bed would you like one?"

[broodingmystery]

Karen chewed on her bottom lip a little, worried that Cheryl didn't approve of her request. With everything that has happened in town, the earthquake had shaken her more than she thought that it would have. She had already gone through so much the last few years, but something about the earthquake didn't feel right to her.

She couldn't help the soft smile that spread across her lips when Cheryl said she would sleep in the room with her. "Thank you. I really appreciate it." She nods her head softly at the other's question. "Tea sounds lovely, thank you."

[lcevblossomedmoved]

"Trust me I never want to go on another family vacation again. It was putting on a show to the extreme. God they would pretend to be so perfect so hard that they would get back to the rental and fight-" Dean says and his voice tapers off as he thinks about it. It was electric another world war just in the two bedroom place they were staying in. It was exhausting and all he wanted was to be somewhere safe and happy. That place was with Billy and he was so ready to be there.

"I do not want to go on a vacation again until it is without my parents. I want the happiness to be real and the vacation to be relaxing." He rests against the wall taking in a breath. "I"m sorry- I shouldn't go on and on about it. I'm sure you'll hear all about it when I come over. How are you? How has your holiday been so far?"

[broodingmystery]

Billy frowned as he listened to Dean talk about his family. He let out a low sigh. "I'm sorry baby boy. If I could I'd come and steal you away from them." He would feel better having Dean with him and not away from him with his family. He didn't trust them to not say something to upset Dean. He hated every second of this. He almost felt like he was on edge the entire time Dean had been gone.

"Next time it'll be us going on vacation. Not you and your parents." He hums softly and smiles to himself. Shifting a little more on his bed to get comfortable. "You know I love listening to you talk. And I am more than happy to listen to you talk about it again once you're here with me." He couldn't wait for that, to have Dean right there with him and not just talking to him on the phone. "I've been okay. I've just been hanging out with Stu while you're gone. Nothing too exciting has been happened."

[lcevblossomedmoved]

@broodingmystery asked: you're not going to let me live that down, are you? (pepper from eddie)

Pepper had not stopped laughing since it happened. She was trying to be nice she knew it wouldn't help anything. Still, she was just tickled by the thought. After a bit more laughing she takes in a deep breath trying to calm herself down. She reaches out and puts a gentle hand on his cheek. "You thought the worst when I didn't answer the phone so you tried to break in. It is a bit strange but I appreciate the lengths you would go to just to make sure I was safe. That was very sweet of you even if you did get stuck in my dad's bedroom window."

She takes another deep breath and smiles. "Okay I'm gonna lift the window a bit more and we will see if we can pull you inside. If our neighbor sees you in the window she's gonna call the cops first and my dad at work next. Come on." She says before trying to push the window open further.

[broodingmystery]

Eddie was not pouting, he'd deny it if anyone said that he was. He watches Pepper laughing at him as he wiggles a little to try and get himself unstuck from the window. He huffs out a low sigh and nods his head as he brushes his hair out of his face so he an get a better look at his girlfriend. "Yes I did. With everything that goes on in this town I was worried something happened." He gives her a small smile at her words. "Well for my own sanity, I need you to be safe, so I was being a bit selfish." He honestly wasn't even mad that she was laughing, if he were in her shoes he'd be laughing too. He has no idea how he got stuck in the first place. He didn't think climbing through a window would be so difficult.

He didn't think about that, the idea of cops being calling and Pepper's dad getting the call that he's stuck in the window. "Okay, I'll try and pull myself inside." He said once she had lifted the window a little. He grabbed onto the window frame and pulled himself inside of the window.

[lcevblossomedmoved]

"You are just the sweetest have I told you that lately?" Pepper asks with a smile. She really does love him he's the sweetest guy and she feels lucky to be with him. She gives him another kiss before slowly pulling back. She looks into his eyes and smiles. "Do you want to take a small break and maybe find something to snack on? I should probably look away from my flashcards for a few minutes anyways."

[broodingmystery]

"Hm, I don't think you've told me today." He smiles a little wider as he watches her. If he were being honest, he was the luckiest guy in the world to have Pepper; for her to love him the way she did. He smiles against her lips and kisses her back. He brushes his thumb across her cheek. "Yeah, a snack sounds great." He was more than happy to walk away from his homework for a bit.

[lcevblossomedmoved]

@broodingmystery asked: sender  has  hidden  an  injury  from  receiver ,  and  receiver  finds  out . (nike from hopper)

Nike opens the front door carefully as she balances her work bag in one arm and groceries in the other. She has a million things to do including starting dinner. She hums to herself as she comes in the door. When she looks ahead she sees Hopper cleaning a large wound on his abdomen. She gasps dropping the groceries and splattering milk all over the floor when she does.

She steps over the mess tossing her work bag on the couch and walking over to him. "How did you do that? Oh Jim..." She takes in a careful breath. She takes the supplies from him observing the wound before she starts to clean the wound. "You should have told me. How long has it been like this?"

[broodingmystery]

“Shit.” He curses under his breath as he sees Nike. She wasn’t supposed to find out this way. He wanted to tell her later, once he had it all cleaned up and not looking as bad as it does now. He scrunched his face a little as he watches her drop the groceries and milk. He reached up and scrubs his free hand over his face before he turns his attention to his wound on his abdomen.

“It was supposed to be an easy call. So I took it off duty on my way home. The call was kids playing in an abandoned house just on the outskirts of town.” He shakes his head softly as he watches her take over. “When I got there, there were no kids. So I checked out the house and I didn’t find anyone. But as I was leaving the house someone or something pushed past me and ended up knocking me forward and something scratched me. It’s not as bad as it looks.”

He lets out a low hiss as his wound was cleaned. “It only happened yesterday. I don’t tell you because I didn’t want you to worry.”

[eyes-blazing]

Felet laughed. "Anywhere I go right now, they're gonna explode." He took a breath before shoving his mother-of-pearl knife into Eddie's hands. "Mind holding that for me. Don't feel like stabbing myself today."

[broodingmystery]

Eddie raises a brow before growing at Felet’s words. “True, but up at the lake house we'll probably be safer than here.” He shoves the knife into his pocket as he looks around. "I'm really not looking forward to the cops finding us here, I really don't want to go to jail. for the murders I didn't commit" He looks back at the other and frowns.

[eyes-blazing]

Emrys groaned and pulled Derek up to kiss the wolf deeply as he wrapped his hands around the man's cock. "Fuck. Your turn."

[broodingmystery]

Derek moans against his husband’s lips and kisses him back. Rolling his hips into his mates hand with a pleased sound. “Mm, baby. It won’t take too much. Getting you off always gets me so fucking close.”

[cfthesoul-a]

"i'm going to take that as a compliment." a light laugh leaves her lips. oh there was definitely a lot they were going to talk about and mainly that was their child. sage was going to lay it all out and take the risk. the risk of him hating her, the risk of her losing ay hope in them, the risk of losing her daughter if he wanted to be vindictive enough -- not that she thought he'd do the last. but who knows how he'd react to this.

"right, no yeah, that makes sense. she did always have a need for it." she chuckles a bit, biting her lower lip. "uh, yeah, yeah. i um...am going to see if my sister can come take wren to the park or something. i'll wait here?" she offers. having juniper take wren was probably best. the las thing she needed to do was to show her daughter what was probably going to be a messy situation.

[broodingmystery]

"It was meant as a compliment. You've always had a big personality, but I always thought that was a good thing." He always liked her personality, it was probably one of his favorite things about her. He knew they had a few things to talk about, but he had no idea how things were going to go. He was hoping it'd end better than their last conversation where things ended between them.

He let out a low l laugh and nods his head. "Yeah, she definitely does have a need for it. No one wants to come between Lux and her coffee." He looks at Sage for a moment before looking down at the coffee's in his hands. Before his eyes snapped back too Sage. "Wren?" He cleared his throat for a moment as he shook his head as he felt his heart break a little at the name. "Okay... I shouldn't be too long, Lux doesn't live too far. Maybe twenty minuets tops and I'll be back." He looks down at Sage's daughter before he nods towards the door. "See you in a few." He needed the walk back to his sister's apartment to clear his head.

[cfthesoul-a]

"oh that's fucking rich. you get to get your dick wet with some street whore and i can't do my own thing with someone that doesn't carry a list of stds they have. what you thought i was going to stay celibate for you? newsflash, i might be your wife but you don't control me." naya knows what type of family she's been married into. that dead bodies and people going missing were always connected. sure, she should be scared. shouldn't push buttons but she couldn't help herself. she was stubborn.

"then i guess we're both unhappy with this decision and yet, neither of us walked away for our own reason. hi pot, i'm kettle." she huffed, throwing her hands up. "some" she snapped. she knew it was most but her family had paid some. everything she had has been controlled by her parents since jeff. barely free to make her own decisions and like hell was she going to let jax have that power too. if she could get control of one place -- it was going to be here. "so at least give me the damn fucking kitchen." she opens the cabinet, back rigid with tension as she gathers ingredients. if he wants to continue this bullshit, then fine. he's in for the fight of his life. if he thought she was going to lay down and kneel at his feet he was wrong. "you are like a parasite. annoying and life draining."

[broodingmystery]

Jax couldn't help but chuckle at her words. "Because that's how this is going to work. I'll fuck whatever whore I feel like fucking." He raises a brow. "The moment you bring anyone into this house I will kill them." He leans back a little as he watches her. "Don't think for a second that I don't control you. Because I do. You are now mine to control and if I say no one will touch you, then I mean it." He glares at her before looking down at his phone a moment. He could end it all and not have to deal with any of this if he were to just divorce Naya. But he knew the club and his father would have him killed for going against them.

"You make it sound like I had a choice in all of this. I couldn't walk away if I wanted to continue to breath. But I promise you, if I wanted death, I would have said no to all of this." He rolls his shoulders a little before raising a brow. "The kitchen's all yours. I don't cook, and I rarely eat when I'm home anyways. I usually eat at the club house or before coming here." He shrugs his shoulders. "If only I were actually life draining, then I wouldn't be stuck with you for too long."

[cfthesoul-a]

"well, it would be extra shitty for you to admit to cheating now. bad enough when you told me you lost feelings." a shrug given like it was no big deal but she doesn't look at him for a moment. she knows the pain still shows on her face. it's been pointed out to her time and time again when steve comes up in topics. even after he broke her heart, she can't help but still talk about him. hopelessly in love with someone who didn't love her anymore.

"not all it was, clearly." she says it like she's reminding him. he's marrying her after all. so sure, it might have started as friends but that wasn't what it ended up being. "look, i clearly don't have a say and anything i feel about this situation is pointless so yeah, glad you found your happy ending." she shrugs because yeah, she loved steve. of course she would want him happy. it just hurts that it's with someone else and hurts even worse that it's with her ex best friend.

[broodingmystery]

"I guess I just needed you to know that I didn't cheat on you." He looks back at his beer and shakes his head a bit. He loved her way too much to ever even entertain the idea of cheating on her. But right now, being engaged to her friend does feel like he's charting on Davina. Because he knew he was meant to be with her and not with who he was planning a wedding with. He picked his beer up and took a large sip from it.

"That's all it was at first. It took a while for me to even think about dating someone else. I had to move on so I did." That was lie. He never moved on. "I wouldn't say it was my happy ending. It's way off from that." He shouldn't be saying that. He should be lying and say he's happy and in love. And that he couldn't wait to get married. But he's lied to Davina enough already he doesn't want to add to it.

[cfthesoul-a]

eddie has avoiding coming back to hawkins because he knew he'd fold the moment he saw steve. that if that man asked anything of him, eddie would do it. is love was still as strong as it was when he first fell in love. eddie didn't care what his future looked like as long as he had steve by his side. hell, steve had been his future and dreams all in one. all of this has him on edge. the mix of emotions; anger, love, betrayal. all of it was swirling inside him and he felt like he was going to explode.

"ones you never explained besides that you no longer loved me." and it comes out with a crack in his voice. he remembers those words. the way they sliced through his heart. the way his whole world crumbled before his eyes. "don't do that...." cause he can't. all he wants to do is march into his bedroom and find it. see if he's telling the truth. why would steve keep a ring he bought if eddie meant nothing now. "fuck..." he curses under his breath, scrubbing a hand through his hair. "it shouldn't hurt the same way it did back then. that's not fucking fair." he mutters and he physically rubs at his chest like he was physically hit. "this was a stupid idea. i don't know why i thought ...i don't know what i thought."

[broodingmystery]

Steve had wanted Eddie to come back since the moment he stepped foot out of Hawkins. He wanted to tell Eddie he was sorry and that he didn’t mean a word that he’d said. He wanted to tell him how much he loved him and needed him to stay. But he couldn't. He couldn't let himself be selfish and beg the man he loves to stay with him in this shitty town. Not when Eddie had the chance to make something of himself and his band.

"Maybe one day I can explain them to you. But I can't right now, Eddie. As much as I really want too... I can't." He let out a low sigh and shook his head softly. A large part of him needed Eddie to go and look for the ring so all of this would be easier. So he could tell Eddie everything. But a small part of him knew it would ruin things even more between then. He looks towards his bedroom and can't help but say. "It's just in there." He quickly looked back at the other and chewed on his bottom lip. "Eddie.." Fuck it. He though as he took in a deep breath and watches the other a moment. "I'm not in love with who I should be in love with. I've never loved that person. Not even for a second. I'm in love with the same person I've been in love with for years, Eddie. Years."

[mcflymemes]

PROMPTS FOR PEOPLE WHO AREN'T USED TO KINDNESS *  assorted dialogue, adjust as necessary

what are you doing?

i can handle that myself, you know.

you didn't have to go out of your way to take care of me.

i'm not used to this. this caring thing.

thank you. don't ever do that again.

i thought you hated me, to be honest.

i didn't ask you to love me!

no one's ever actually just... sat down and listened to me.

i didn't think people like you existed.

is this normal for you? going out of your way like this?

i told you i had it handled. you didn't have to bother.

i... should probably thank you for that.

i don't know what to say. this has never happened before.

wait, that's mine. you fixed it?

you did all of this... for me?

that was the nicest thing anyone's ever done for me.

i'm kinda at a loss for words.

i wasn't expecting this from you.

you did all this for me?

i had it under control.

when did this happen?

how long were you planning this?

i'm not sure what to say. i'm not used to this.

i owe you one.

that was... very kind of you. thank you.

i'm just not used to people going out of their way to help me.

usually people just look the other way, but you actually care.

this is weird. is this what caring about someone feels like?

i could have handled it.

this must have taken you forever to arrange. and you did it all for me?

it would be easier in the long run if we went our separate ways.

i hate being in other peoples' debts.

i didn't want this to happen.

people around me don't last very long.

i feel like i'm screaming and screaming and no one hears me.

i'm in your debt.

how did you find that? i lost that ages ago.

you actually... listened to me?

no one's ever paid attention.

no one's ever put that much time in effort into something for me.

when did i say that?

i didn't ask you to care about me!

i'm easily missed. people don't pay attention to me.

i'm invisible most of the time.

it's easier for people to look the other way.

do you do this often? help people?

i'm surprised you're still here.

if you're expecting something in return, forget about it.

you came back?

why do you care about me so much?

i'm a lost cause. you should just forget about me.

what's the use? there's no point.

i don't even celebrate my birthday. no one cares.

you can't just make someone care about you.

i thought you left.

what is it about me that has you so worked up?

you're making a big deal out of nothing.

thanks for patching me up.

you... brought this here for me?

but i didn't ask for this! i didn't ask for any of this!

stop smiling at me like that.