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James "Bucky" Barnes . ↳ indie rp blog ↳ mun & muse of age ↳ cross fandom & oc welcome ↳ follows back from officerxwilliams

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He’s heard the stories, and he’s seen Bucky in different states of mind. He knew having feelings beyond respect and admiration would be asking for nothing but trouble. And if things would always work logically, then it might be a more efficient place…but considering the amount of literal and metaphorical fires they were always sent to put out, Jack knew he had no chance o fighting those feelings. 

And it seemed there was a rejection, though he could see the conflict in the other’s eyes. Still, he smiled a bit.  

“Well, I still like putting in the effort. You’re worth it.” 

People wouldn’t think that the Inter Soldier would blush quite so easily. But people also had a tendency to forget that he was Bucky Barnes, and despite that fact that back in the 40s Bucky had a way of flirting... when he really liked someone, he was in a perpetual state of flushed.

So as soon as he heard Jack, his cheeks got warm and he had to look back at the injury on his shoulder, trying a bit not to draw attention to that fact.

“You’re sweet,” he said softly, looking back up at him from behind his lashes. “I like that.

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“Is that an order? Cos I’ll give you a fair warning…I don’t always do well with authority.” He replied with a small smirk as he watched Bucky finally determine that the bullet went through. He began to work quickly. With the latest med kits, and his Super Soldier healing, Bucky would be nearly good to go before they even get back to base. “What? Didn’t they have naughty double entendres back then? Or am I just not your type?” He asked with boy a teasing tone but with a not too subtle undertone as well. 

Bucky kept glancing down at his arm, noticing that he was already starting to heal the hole. At the question, though, he turned his attention back to Jack completely, a small frown on his face as he considered it. 

He knew what he should say, knew that he should change the conversation and not talk about it again. Bucky knew he wasn’t always stable, that some days he was more machine than man, that some days the safest thing for him to do was lock himself in his room, a gun in his hand and all exits blocked. But he also knew he couldn’t lie. Didn’t want to. 

“Pup, you couldn’t be more my type if you tried.”

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“Jesus fuck, Buck.” Jack muttered as he shook his head in disbelief. Bucky made a very good point but he still felt horrible about having him take a bullet that had clearly been for him. He didn’t just sit there and watch Bucky play operation on himself. Grabbing the first aid kid he got what he needed ready once Bucky made sure the bullet had gone straight through. “I’m not gonna say thank you because you’d bitch at me just as much if I’d taken one for you. But know I am thankful. There’s a difference. And next time I’m around you while you’re playing doctor, it better be the sexy kind.” 

“Well, the difference is, you’re not allowed to take a bullet for me, you understand?” Bucky asked, taking his finger out of the hole and looking down at all the blood coating the metal. Thank God for Stark and his improvements on the arm, which meant cleaning it wouldn’t be as hard as it used to. He kept his eyes down a little longer since he could feel the blush spreading across his skin, but he smile nonetheless. “Playin’ doctor, really? No idea what you’re talking about there, pup,” he said with a quick shrug, though he raised his head to look at Jack again.

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It was the middle of the night and once again he couldn’t sleep, so out to the common area’s kitchen he went. JamesBuckySoldierAsset, he didn’t really know who he was now. He was tired, he was in pain, the nightmares were still swimming very close to the surface. 

He quietly asked FRIDAY to turn on the lights on the kitchen and padded across to the coffee maker, recognizing the sleep would not happen anymore. He leaned onto the counter, resting his forehead on his flesh hand and rubbed it forcefully, his metal arm hanging uselessly at his side, since any kind of movement cause unbearable pain. 

“FRI,” he called out quietly. “Is anyone else awake?”

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Jack made his way over and took a seat next to Bucky and grinned happily at the bounty of snacks in front of him. One of the huge bonuses of being at the compound was definitely the food. Though deliver was always an option, some of the other Avengers were pretty amazing or decent cooks. And they weren’t stingy or at least had a system in place. Like in most offices, if you wanted to not share something, you packaged it up and put your name on it…and just hope whoever went to raid the fridge was awake or considerate enough to read your name and leave it be. 

“I don’t think I watch enough TV. I’m behind on…everything I ever started. Sometimes I see current commercials for the latest season and it baffles me how the hell they go there.” He’s been around Bucky enough to know that there were different sides to him. Even though he knew that his soldier side was different than his off time/civilian time…with Bucky it was still a more noticeable change. Usually it helped him to hear what the other called him. In the field it was ‘McGarrett’, when at work still but slightly more relaxed setting he might get ‘Jack’. But when he was just…Bucky, he called him ‘Pup’. It made him feel privileged that someone he studied in history books and admired since he was a kid, liked him enough not to punch him whenever he spoke, but to also give him a nickname like that without it being belittling. 

“Let’s binge. What’s on the agenda for tonight?” 

Bucky grabbed a bottle of iced tea (he had discovered he quite liked the sweet ones) and a package of chips before settling back against the couch, throwing his feet up on the coffee table but being careful not to mess up his organizational system. 

“I dunno, pup,” Bucky said, cocking his head as he stared at the giant screen in front ot them. 

“FRIDAY,” he called out, staring at the ceiling even though Tony had explained that was not really where she was. “Can ya pull up my list, please?”

“Certainly, Sergeant,” came the disembodied voice as a hologram of the list popped up in front of them. 

“Thank you,” he said, before turning back to Jack and waving at the list. “Your pick, go for it.”

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Sometimes it’s still surreal to think that he’s allowed in at the Avenger’s compound. It started as the place to go to for briefing, debriefing, meet ups and drop offs. He was a pair of hands who has been on a few ops with Team Cap and it grew from there. From helping test out new tech and weapons to agreeing to pick up Ant Man’s kid from school cos he was busy…Jack was one of the lucky few who wasn’t an Avenger to use the facility. Since he had no real connections anywhere else and was more or less volunteering from job to job to have something to do, it was weirdly nice having a place to somewhat consider home, and people to consider…well, the closest thing to family he’s ever had. 

He’s just finished a stint in the gym and was looking to unwind and was wondering around. When he heard his nickname, he turned and grinned at the other,  “Haven’t gotten a new job in a week, so I had some energy to burn. But just finished up, showered, and…here. Want some company?” 

Bucky made his way to the coffee table and dumped everything down before working on organizing it a little, drinks to the right, savory snacks in the middle and candy to the left. As he worked, he glanced up at Jack and shrugged gently. 

“That’d be nice. Stevie went somewhere with Tony, thought it best not to ask. Tasha went to visit Clint at the farm and... I think everyone else might be trainin’, I don’t even know,” he counted out, before sitting on the couch in front of the very unhealthy display. 

“I was plannin’ on getting caught up with TV if you wanna join? I still hafta make a dent on my list somehow.”

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Bucky walked back into the living room from the kitchen, his arms full of snacks and drinks as he padded around barefoot. The longer he stayed at the compound, the more comfortable he became in the common area, since he knew everyone that had access to it and he had come to trust them all, at least on some level. 

As he got to the couch, he saw Jack approaching from the other side and gave him a small smile. “Hey, pup. What are you up to?”

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James didn’t really remember when he started disliking trains. He knew there was something hidden in his mind about why he couldn’t fucking stand them, but he didn’t really want to pull at that thread. He knew it was a Bucky memory. Those always came with chaos. 

So he let it go and tried, boarded a train in the midwest headed somewhere in the East Coast. He stayed inside as long as he could stand it, but when he a small station in the middle of God knows where, he walked out, backpack over his shoulder and hands shoved inside his pockets.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck,” he muttered under his breath as he walked away from the train.

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