last seen . . .

your   arm   is  mint .  .   .    you   ʇsoɯןɐ  had   me .  .   .

[brucephone]

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* ꕥ 、⠀⠀   i  don’t   remember   my   name .    it’s   the   first   thing   you   lose .    .    .   ⠀⠀      an  independent  ⅋  highly  selective  interpretation  of  𝒃𝒓𝒖𝒄𝒆  𝒚𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒂  of  joe  hill’s  𝚃𝙷𝙴  𝙱𝙻𝙰𝙲𝙺  𝙿𝙷𝙾𝙽𝙴 ,    written  as  an  original  character .      cared  for  by  ali ,   (  she / they .   18 .  ) .      low    activity .      mutuals  only .      the    gr*bber    writers ,    minors   ⅋   personals  dni  .      𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐  𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚜  𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚝 .

𝐚  𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐝𝐲  𝐢𝐧 :     golden boys ,    a lover not a fighter ,    make your parents proud ,    always bring your a - game ,    never a hair out of place ,    endless   charm ,    all star players ,    muddled    memories ,    gentle hands ,    printed smiles on discarded milk cartons ,    ⅋    gone but not forgotten .

⠀⠀  ♡   heavily  affiliated  with ,    vancephone .  griffinphone .  donnaphone .

(    𝒆𝒕𝒄 :          ⠀   ⁰¹.  𝚒𝚗𝚏𝚘 ,     ⁰².  𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚐 ,     ⁰³.  𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚝 .  ⠀    )

[brucephone]

hi i miss bruce hi

[saintsebastiensbf]

Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

George Sand, in a letter to Gustave Flaubert

Nikki Giovanni, Mirrors

Anne Sexton, A Self-Portrait in Letters

Mary Oliver, Dogfish

on choosing kindness. again and again.

[edenmemes]

stranger things s4 starters

❝ how are you feeling today? ❞   ❝ what have you done? ❞   ❝ you speak of monsters, superheroes. that’s the stuff of myth and fairytales. ❞   ❝ are you stalking me or something? ❞   ❝ i know it’s a lot of blood, but you’re going to be okay. ❞   ❝ it’s like you’re not even here anymore. it’s like you’re a ghost. ❞   ❝ i can only help you if you’re truthful. if you open up to me. ❞   ❝ it’s okay to not be okay. ❞   ❝ even with it staring you in the face, you can’t admit it. can’t admit you’re wrong. ❞   ❝ it’s just scary to open up like that. to say how you really feel. especially to people you care about the most. ❞   ❝ i think maybe a part of me died that day too. ❞   ❝ it looks like a fairytale. a dream. ❞   ❝ everyone looks at me like…like i’m a monster. ❞   ❝ you start to believe all the things they say. that this place is cursed. ❞   ❝ do you ever feel like you’re losing your mind? ❞   ❝ look, i’m just trying to turn that frown upside down. ❞   ❝ this year is my year. i can feel it. ❞   ❝ i’m afraid you can become lost in the darkness. ❞   ❝ why do you keep pushing me away? ❞   ❝ i want today to be about me and you. ❞   ❝ if they wanna find out who you are, they will. ❞   ❝ please, just go away. ❞   ❝ only by facing all of ourselves, the good and the bad, can we become whole. ❞   ❝ i play that moment back in my head all the time. ❞   ❝ so much has happened since you left. ❞   ❝ did i survive? no, i assure you, i am still very much in hell. ❞   ❝ you are scared. you’re tired. you are injured. ❞   ❝ you’re not what i thought you’d be like. ❞   ❝ i just want to say thanks for saving my ass back there. ❞   ❝ hey, we don’t need to do this. ❞   ❝ you think because you demonstrate some talent that you’re somehow immune to the rules? ❞   ❝ why is this on me? why am i the bad guy? ❞   ❝ never tell me the odds. ❞   ❝ i don’t even know how to describe it. i’ve never seen anything like it. ❞   ❝ there’s nothing to worry about. okay? ❞   ❝ sorry. didn’t mean to scare you. ❞   ❝ now, where does it hurt? ❞   ❝ this place and the people here are not what you think. ❞   ❝ i am different. i do not belong. ❞   ❝ so, um, are we just not gonna talk about it? ❞   ❝ just try to take some deep breaths. ❞   ❝ if i show you something, you wouldn’t tell anyone, right? ❞   ❝ people just change, okay? that’s it. ❞   ❝ you gotta stop pretending to be someone else. ❞   ❝ i was so excited to see you, it was hard to breathe. ❞   ❝ i’ll smile as i watch them die a slow, agonizing death. ❞   ❝ thirty seconds or i leave without you, okay? ❞   ❝ well, well. aren’t you a sight for sore eyes? ❞   ❝ i…i didn’t mean to scare you. ❞   ❝ looks like it’s gonna be up to us again. ❞   ❝ i’m sorry. i’m having trouble understanding any of this. ❞   ❝ i believe you are our best hope. our only hope. ❞   ❝ you’re bright red in the face right now. ❞   ❝ i think it’ll be easier if we’re a team. ❞   ❝ you can’t run from me. ❞   ❝ we’re running out of time here. the world is running out of time. ❞   ❝ everyone i love, i hurt. ❞   ❝ you don’t even seem nervous. i’m impressed. ❞   ❝ what if i’m not good? what if i’m the monster? ❞   ❝ do you flee or stand your ground and fight? ❞   ❝ in dark days like this, we need something to believe in. ❞   ❝ what you’ve been through, what you’re still going through…it’s a lot for anyone. ❞   ❝ i’m not moping. ❞   ❝ there’s not that many. we can take ‘em. ❞   ❝ you remind me of someone. someone i used to know very well. ❞   ❝ we have a big fight ahead of us. ❞   ❝ so, that is it? you give up, then? ❞   ❝ did you get some rest? i have a feeling you’re gonna need it. ❞   ❝ it’s okay. you can admit it. no more lies. ❞   ❝ sounds too good to be true, yes? ❞   ❝ you’ll have to excuse the staring. you’re a bit of a celebrity. ❞   ❝ do you really expect me to believe anything you have to say? ❞   ❝ the way you looked at me. you…you were scared of me. ❞   ❝ small world, isn’t it? it’s a small world. ❞ ❝ i promise i’m gonna stop asking this, but…you’re seeing that too, right? ❞   ❝ i’ve really missed that. your laugh. ❞   ❝ i will do anything for you. ❞   ❝ you have demons in your past. ❞   ❝ you have more important things to worry about. ❞       ❝ i actually thought you’d be kinda mean and scary. ❞   ❝ i don’t want you to go. ❞   ❝ i’ve given you everything you asked for. i’ve compromised my principles. i’ve risked my life. ❞   ❝ you didn’t think it would be that easy, did you? ❞   ❝ or what? are you gonna shoot me? ❞   ❝ they’re laughing. at you. they think you’re weak. ❞   ❝ i know. you’re frightened of me. ❞ ❝ like i said…we’re alike, you and i. ❞   ❝ who knew something so small could cause so much trouble? ❞       ❝ you know, i think there’s a part of you, buried somewhere deep, that wanted me to die that day. ❞   ❝ if you want to make it out of here alive, you must do exactly as i say. ❞   ❝ i understand the stakes quite well. ❞   ❝ you can’t hurt me more than they already have. ❞   ❝ whatever comes out of there…hold your ground. ❞   ❝ you…you’re not supposed to be here. ❞   ❝ you know you can talk to me. ❞   ❝ i know what it’s like to be different. ❞   ❝ you helped me. now i help you. ❞   ❝ i don’t believe in all that supernatural crap, all right? ❞   ❝ why are you staring at me? ❞   ❝ see? there’s nothing to be afraid of. ❞ ❝ imagine what we could do together. ❞   ❝ the more you move, the more this is gonna hurt. ❞   ❝ no one ever comes out here. we’re safe. ❞   ❝ i’m going to try to forget you said any of that. ❞   ❝ my heart can’t take it anymore. ❞   ❝ for a while i tried to be happy. normal. ❞  

[brucephone]

griffin giving bruce a snail

bruce keeps the snail. he buys it a cage and puts it in his room. its name is kurt.

[robertchase]

you raise the phone. take a fast step back. step forward, step back and swing.

the black phone ( 2022 )

[brucephone]

“ is… that my shirt jacket you’re wearing? ”

it    was    always    a    sweet    surprise    to    find    him    waiting    for    you    in    the    first    breath    of    the    day .    in    his    usual    stance :    leaned    back    into    your    locker    in    his    oh    so    signature    nonchalance ,    but    this    time    with    a    knit    of    confusion    that    holds    the    tension    between    the    crinkling    bridge    of    his    nose .    he    questions    you    &    an    instant ,    foolish    recollection    rolls    over    your    face ,    easing    you    into    a    cheeky    grin .    ❝    oh ,    yeah .    yeah    it    is ,   ❞    and    so    it    is    indeed .    black    is    not    your    color    of    choice    but    it    sure    is    tommy’s .    &    the    black    leather    jacket    was    just    so    obviously    him .    

so    of    course    you ,    his    tender    opposite ,    now    covered    in    vulgar    pins    &    thick    squeaky    leather    that    he    pulls    off    so    seamlessly ,    feel    like    you    are    adorning    sort    of    costumed    aesthetic    more    than    anything    else .    but    you    liked    it .    the    jacket    was    an    extension    of    him    &    you    liked    anything    that    was    his .    ❝    you    left    it    at    my    house    the    other    night .    do    i    look    cool    or    what ?    ❞    though    your    eyes    are    twinkling    your    mind    is    solemnly    flickering    back    into    the    events    of    that    night .    he’d    been    sad.    he’d    been    sad    &    tired    &    it’d    all    had    something    to    do    with    his    parents    who    never    seemed    to    go    a    day    without    a    brand    new    marriage-ending    fight .    

though    he    is    a    rugged    thing ,    he    is    your    favorite    rugged    thing    that    sticks    out    like    a    sore    thumb    to    others    but    is    the    favorite    space    taken    up    in    your    heart    (    which    has    often    been    said    to    be    three    times    bigger    than    your    body    ) .    no    one    understood    it    but    they    didn’t    have    to .    you    knew    him    &    he    knew    you    &    anyone    else    might    be    caught    6    feet    buried    touching    anything    of    his    but    if    it    was    you ,    you    figured    maybe    he    wouldn’t    mind    so    much .    

&    so    maybe ,    that’s    why    when    he    left    your    jacket    on    the    armrest    of    your    hardwood    desk    chair    that    night    it    itched    your    brain    to    wear    it    to    school    this    morning ,    just    for    fun .    just    because    he    was    always ,    always    wearing    it    &    you    liked    the    way    it    felt    like    it    was    molded    from    the    curve    of    his    slouch .    him .    your    friend .    your    friend    who    although    you    hated    picking    favorites    was    by    far    the    best    of    all    of    them .    

❝    oh    man ,    are    you    cold ?    ❞    you    are    already    in    the    motions    of    shrugging    it    off    your    frame .    it    is    that    time    of    year    caught    between    the    chilly    transition    of    november    to    december    &    you    are    easily    prone    to    the    consequences    of    poorly -  conditioned    classrooms    but    know    he    is    too    thick -  headed    &    will    say    he    isn’t    cold ,    even    if    he    is .    especially    if    he    is .    &    tommy    seldom    wears    anything    that    isn’t    a    torn    up ,    angsty - worded    tee .    it’s    as    concerning    as    it    is    endearing .    ❝   i    just    couldn’t    find    my    letterman.    i    think    my    mom    took    it    to    get    dry    cleaned    again.    ❞   

                  *      𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗    𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚜 ,          

[roseclone]

from    my    rotting    body,    flowers    shall    grow    and    i    am    in    them    and    that    is    eternity.

🗝 ˚｡ 𖠗       𝚃𝙷𝙾𝚁𝙽    𝚆𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙴𝚁𝚂,    a    clone    of    ᴿᴼˢᴱᴹᴬᴿᵞ    ᵂᴵᴺᵀᴱᴿˢ    of                      the    𝒮𝐻𝒜𝒟𝒪𝒲𝒮    𝒪𝐹    𝑅𝒪𝒮𝐸        RE8    dlc    by    ufo.

[ohisms]

↪     ᵗʰᵉ 𝑫𝑼𝑺𝑻𝒀 𝑻𝑶𝒀𝑩𝑶𝑿 .    (  a  collection  of  various unsorted sentence starters .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .   will be updated frequently .  )

why are you here ?

drive .  drive fast .

i think we should make an informed decision .

are you coming or not ?

you’ve been avoiding me .

[ name ] ,  what were you thinking ?

this should be your priority .

let me hold you for a minute .

get out of my way .  i won’t tell you again .

that wasn’t supposed to happen .

can you keep a secret ?

i don’t know what i did to deserve you .

you seriously think i could’ve done something like that ?

you’re safe with me .

sorry isn’t good enough .

where is all this coming from ?

who told you about that ?

sorry i’m late ,  i got caught up .

you’re being paranoid .

why are you looking at me like that ?

you’re the single most important thing to me .

all i’m asking is that you hear me out .

whatever they told you ,  it’s a lie .

we shouldn’t stick around here .

hold my hand ,  i don’t want to lose track of you .

[ name ]  …  truth or dare ?

i love you .  nothing’s gonna change that .

can you tell me what happened ?

you can’t come around here anymore .

back off ,  okay ?

what ,  you don’t have time for me anymore ?

you’re asking for too much .

i’m trying to start a new life .

what do you mean ,  you aren’t coming back ?

sometimes i think you must hate me .

why can’t we just talk about this ?

i know i fucked up ,  you can stop rubbing it in .

you’ve got quite a reputation .

i’m not usually like this ,  i’m sorry .

please ,  just let me explain myself .

i love watching you work .

we’re on the same team .

did you ever tell anyone ?

you’ve got a lot of explaining to do .

really funny ,  you’re very mature .

you call THAT a PLAN ?

can we get out of here ?

i thought things would be different .

this is not up for debate !

do whatever you have to do .

karma’s going to get you for that .

it could’ve been a lot worse .

i asked you to leave me out of this .

maybe it’s time to take a leap of faith .

i never want to see you again .

can you see how many fingers i’m holding up ?

i’m gonna be there when you get what’s coming to you .

you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me .

i’ve been waiting all night for this .

i told you not to contact me .

sometimes i really think you have a death wish .

what do you need ?  —  what can i do ?

i would do literally anything to keep you safe .

that was supposed to be a secret .

you haven’t called me that in years .

stop telling me to calm down !

we make a pretty good team .

i have so much i want to say to you .

i’m not going to let anyone hurt you .

can we please not do this right now ? 

wait ,  wait  …  just breathe for a second .

how are you holding up ?

why don’t you stay the night ?  i’ll take the couch .

i don’t need your protection !

you’re not making this easier on yourself .

are you going to let me in ?

i’m supposed to be protecting you .

i will kill you if i have to .

do whatever you have to do .

this is going to hurt ,  i’m sorry .

what happened to you ,  where have you been ?!

there was nothing you could’ve done .

you’re all i need right now .

i don’t believe in love at first sight .

have you been following me ?

i need you to believe me .

what do you remember ?

i’m not a good person .

what the hell’s going on with you ?

you’re being followed .

just when i thought my day couldn’t be any worse .

i’ve been having weird dreams .

so you’ve been lying to me this whole time ?

are you trying to get us killed ?

this is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me .

i never asked for your help .

you’re being followed ,  pretend you know me .

why has it started to feel different with you ?

don’t worry ,  i have a plan .

i heard everything .

do you need to sit down ?

i have the right to know what’s going on .

i’ve just gotta catch my breath .

stay out of my business .

what did you think was going to happen ?!

don’t cause a scene .

tell me something about you that i don’t know .

can i buy you a drink ?

what if  …  we played spin the bottle ?

this was never a problem until  [ name ]  came around .

you can’t ask me to make that choice .

are you seeing anyone right now ?

i need you to listen to me ,  we don’t have long .

you’re lying ,  that doesn’t make any sense .

you look  …  stunning .

what are you trying to prove ?

who died and made you the boss of me ?

you can’t just show up here like this .

let me make it up to you .

there’s no way i’m leaving you like this .

can we stay like this ?  just for a little longer .

i don’t need you to fight for me .

so  …  you lied to me ?

you’re the only one that can help me .

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

i never introduced myself ,  i’m [ name ] .

i expected more from you .

you have no idea who i am ,  do you ?

are you real ?  is this real ?

can i stay with you ?  just for the night .

you’re going to get yourself killed .

why did you help me ?

tell me what i can do to help .

pick a card ,  any card .

i never wanted any of this .

i love you .   you don’t have to say it back .

do you wanna get out of here ?

what the hell are you talking about ?

i should have trusted you .

get your head out of the clouds .

how is any of this MY fault ?!

what aren’t you telling me ?

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

it’s never just one with you ,  is it ?

you’re not supposed to know about that .

shut your mouth .

i haven’t kissed you yet ,  today .

where is this coming from ?

come over here and make me ,  then .

keep lying to yourself ,  see where it gets you .

i’m not a bad person .

is that what you wanted to hear ?

we can’t be seen together .

i can’t give you what you want .

i need you to leave .

are you drunk ?

i’m here ,  i’m here .  i’m not going anywhere .

you might want to take a seat for this .

have you been listening to anything i’ve said ?

i haven’t heard from you in weeks .

you’re jealous ,  aren’t you ?

who do you think you’re talking to ?

what are you reading ?

you could’ve killed me !

come on ,  we don’t have time for this .

i just need ten minutes of silence .

really ?  that’s all you have to say ?

we could leave ,  you know .  go far away .

you don’t look too good .

i never want to see you again .

why can’t you just leave me alone ?

i thought you died .

you’ll do anything for attention .

give me another chance .

how’s the weather up there ?

all you do is hurt people !

i’m sorry ,  none of this makes sense .

you need to get out of here before anyone sees you .

i told you i didn’t want you around here .

is that supposed to be a threat ?

you’ve changed .

don’t look at me like that .

it’s a beautiful day ,  don’t you think ?

i did what i had to do .

you never know when to stop .

i’ve got to get home ,  it’s getting late .

i have nothing to prove to you .

stop LYING to me  …  all you do is lie .

you don’t have to be nice to everybody .

don’t tell me what to do .

pull your head out of the past .

nobody can help me .  i can’t even help me .

we are not talking about that right now .

are you new around here ?

you have no idea what you’re starting .

i’m gonna get us out of here .

whatever you came here to say ,  i don’t want to hear it .

everyone’s staring at us .

is there anything i can do to help ?

i won’t cause you any more trouble .

– just follow my instructions for once !

do you want to come in ?

i just didn’t know what to do .

you need rest ,  lie down .

i’m not who you think i am .

i don’t know what you want me to say .

you’re not like anyone else i’ve ever met .

i feel like i’m going insane .

stop asking ,  you’re not going to like my answer .

i didn’t want you to see me any differently .

i wish i knew what to say to you .

don’t give me that look ,  you know what i mean .

you should be afraid .

do you still love me ?

i never thought i’d get this far .

the world doesn’t revolve around you .

i need you to give me some space .

i know what you’re doing ,  don’t play games .

you left me to die .

i’m beyond repentance .

when are you going to get it through your head ?

i missed you more than i thought i would .

i’m in love with you .

what do you need from me ?

i’ll kill them ,   just say the word .

[ name ] ,   what are you doing here ?

how can i help ?

you’re pathetic .

i need you to come pick me up .

where have you been ?  it’s eleven o’clock .

i couldn’t live with myself if i let you get hurt .

i can’t just pretend it didn’t happen .

you’re a real piece of work .

do you remember how we first met ?

when did all of this fall apart ?

that’s not what i came here for .

i would do anything for you .

i don’t need you to hold my hand through this .

are you sure this is the right thing to do ?

can’t we try to pretend things are okay ?

what is THAT supposed to mean ?

you’re always late ,  what am i supposed to think ?

there’s nothing you can do to fix this .

you’re far too kind to me .

can we go now ?  like ,  right now ?

i have to do this alone .

where’s your common sense ?

we aren’t supposed to be in here .

can you feel my heartbeat ?

i think i’ve seen you around before .

why are you acting weird ?

i have a really bad feeling .

i hate seeing you like this .

how am i supposed to react to that ?

what do you want most in the world ?

[slab-cat]

Vance: “You look pretty”

Bruce: “What was that?”

Vance: “I said you look shitty. Good night Bruce.”

[sadprosed]

𝑳𝒀𝑹𝑰𝑪  𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺.

↬   FOLKLORE  +  EVERMORE   ( 2020 )  by  taylor  swift.

taken  from  or  inspired  by  the  lyrics  of  the  sister  albums.  includes  language  +  sexual  themes.

+    feel  free  to  change  pronouns  !

FOLKLORE.

‘  we  never  painted  by  the  numbers,  but  we  were  making  it  count.  ’

‘  you  know  the  greatest  loves  of  all  time  are  over  now.  ’

‘  we  were  something,  don’t  you  think  so  ?  ’

‘  in  my  defense,  i  have  none.  ’

‘  if  my  wishes  came  true,  it  would  have  been  you.  ’

‘  when  you  are  young  they  assume  you  know  nothing.  ’

‘  i  knew  you’d  haunt  all  of  my  what-if’s.  ’

‘  you  drew  scars  around  my  stars  but  now  i’m  bleeding.  ’

‘  i  knew  i’d  curse  you  for  the  longest  time.  ’

‘  who  knows  if  you / he / she / they ‘d  never  showed  up,  what  could  have  been.  ’

‘  i  had  a  marvelous  time  ruining  everything.  ’

‘  you’re  laughing,  but  the  joke’s  not  funny  at  all.  ’

‘  you’re  not  my  homeland  anymore.  ’

‘  you  were  my  crown,  now  i’m  in  exile.  ’

‘  all  this  time,  we  always  walked  a  very  thin  line.  ’

‘  your  eyes  add  insult  to  injury.  ’

‘  if  i’m  on  fire,  you’ll  be  made  of  ashes  too.  ’

‘  did  i  deserve  all  the  hell  you  gave  me  ?  ’

‘  i  loved  you,  i  swear  i  loved  you  til  my  dying  day.  ’

‘  if  i’m  dead  to  you,  why  are  you  at  the  wake  ?  ’

‘  i  still  talk  to  you  while  i’m  screaming  at  the  sky.  ’

‘  you  had  to  kill  me  but  it  killed  you  just  the  same.  ’

‘  i  know  they  said  the  end  is  near.  ’

‘  i’ll  be  shining  just  for  you.  ’

‘  i’m  still  a  believer,  but  i  don’t  know  why.  ’

‘  i’ve  never  been  a  natural,  all  i  do  is  try.  ’

‘  i  used  to  scream  ferociously  any  time  i  wanted.  ’

‘  i  love  you  to  the  moon  and  saturn.  ’

‘  our  love  lasts  so  long.  ’

‘  i  can  see  us  lost  in  the  memory.  ’

‘  you  were  never  mine.  ’

‘  do  you  remember  ?  ’

‘  i  remember  thinking  i  had  you.  ’

‘  i  was  living  for  the  hope  of  it  all.  ’

‘  i  didn’t  know  if  you’d  care  if  i  came  back.  ’

‘  i  have  a  lot  of  regrets  about  that.  ’

‘  i  don’t  quite  know  what  to  say,  but  i’m  here  in  your  doorway.  ’

‘  at  least  i’m  trying.  ’

‘  it’s  hard  to  be  anywhere  these  days  when  all  i  want  is  you.  ’

‘  you  showed  me  colors  you  know  i  can’t  see  with  anyone  else.  ’

‘  look  at  this  idiotic  fool  that  you’ve  made  me.  ’

‘  for  you  i  would  ruin  myself  a  million  little  times.  ’

‘  time,  curious  time,  cutting  me  open  and  healing  me  fine.  ’

‘  all  along  there  was  some  invisible  string  tying  you  to  me.  ’

‘  hell  was  the  journey  but  it  brought  me  heaven.  ’

‘  what  did  you  think  i’d  say  to  that  ?  ’

‘  what  a  shame  she  went  mad.  ’

‘  you  took  everything  from  me.  ’

‘  you  want  a  single  glimpse  of  relief  to  make  sense  of  what  you’ve  seen.  ’

‘  it’s  like  i  couldn’t  breathe.  ’

‘  the  worst  thing  that  i  ever  did  was  what  i  did  to  you.  ’

‘  i  dreamt  of  you  all  summer  long.  ’

‘  right  now  is  the  last  time  i  can  dream  about  what  happens  when  you  see  my  face  again.  ’

‘  i  don’t  know  anything,  but  i  know  i  miss  you.  ’

‘  the  rain  is  always  going  to  come  if  you’re  standing  with  me.  ’

‘  i’m  a  fire  and  i’ll  keep  your  brittle  heart  warm.  ’

‘  i  would  die  for  you  in  secret.  ’

‘  would  it  be  enough  if  i  could  never  give  you  peace  ?  ’

‘  no  other  sadness  in  the  world  would  do.  ’

‘  your  faithless  love  is  the  only  hoax  i  believe  in.  ’

‘  i  don’t  belong,  and  my  beloved  neither  do  you.  ’

‘  i  want  you  right  here.  ’

EVERMORE.

‘  i  never  would  have  known  by  the  look  on  your  face.  ’

‘  the  more  that  you  say,  the  less  i  know.  ’

‘  wherever  you  stray,  i’ll  follow.  ’

‘  i  dropped  your  hand  while  dancing.  ’

‘  love  slipped  beyond  your  reaches,  and  i  couldn’t  give  a  reason.  ’

‘  i  never  was  ready,  so  i  watched  you  go.  ’

‘  sometimes  you  just  don’t  know  the  answer  til’  someone’s  on  their  knees  and  asks  you.  ’

‘  what  a  shame  she’s  fucked  in  the  head.  ’

‘  everybody  wonders  what  it  would  be  like  to  love  you.  ’

‘  what  must  it  be  like  to  grow  up  that  beautiful  ?  ’

‘  my  mind  turns  your  life  into  folklore.  ’

‘  there’s  an  ache  in  you,  put  there  by  the  ache  in  me.  ’

‘  i  won’t  ask  you  to  wait  if  you  don’t  ask  me  to  stay.  ’

‘  the  heart  i  know  i’m  breaking  is  my  own.  ’

‘  you’re  so  much  older,  and  wiser.  ’

‘  i  know  my  love  should  be  celebrated,  but  you  tolerate  it.  ’

‘  if  it’s  all  in  my  head,  tell  me  now.  ’

‘  you  assume  i’m  fine  but  what  would  you  do  if  i  break  free  and  leave  us  in  ruins  ?  ’

‘  i  think  he / she / they  did  it,  but  i  just  can’t  prove  it.  ’

‘  i’m  not  letting  up  until  the  day  i  die.  ’

‘  you  haven’t  met  the  new  me  yet.  ’

‘  there  is  happiness  in  our  history.  ’

‘  you’re  haunted  by  the  look  in  my  eyes  that  would  have  loved  you  for  a  lifetime.  ’

‘  i  can’t  make  it  go  away  by  making  you  a  villain.  ’

‘  when  did  your  winning  smile  begin  to  look  like  a  smirk  ?  ’

‘  sorry,  i  can’t  see  facts  through  all  of  my  fury.  ’

‘  do  you  ever  stop  and  think  about  me  ?  ’

‘  it’s  never  too  late  to  come  back  to  my  side.  ’

‘  i  guess  i’ll  never  know,  and  you’ll  go  on  with  the  show.  ’

‘  you  know  you’ll  always  know  me.  ’

‘  did  i  paint  your  bluest  skies  the  darkest  grey  ?  ’

‘  did  you  love  me,  or  were  you  too  polite  to  leave  me  ?  ’

‘  your  touch  brought  forth  an  incandescent  glow.  ’

‘  i  sit  here  and  wait,  grieving  for  the  living.  ’

‘  my  pain  fits  in  the  palm  of  your  freezing  hand.  ’

‘  i  can’t  stop  you  putting  roots  in  my  dreamland.  ’

‘  i’d  live  and  die  for  moments  that  we  stole  on  begged  and  borrowed  time.  ’

‘  takes  one  to  know  one.  ’

‘  you’re  a  bandit  like  me.  ’

‘  forever  is  the  sweetest  con.  ’

‘  you  had  some  tricks  up  your  sleeves.  ’

‘  now  i  know  i’m  never  going  to  love  again.  ’

‘  i  tried  to  pick  my  battles  until  the  battle  picked  me.  ’

‘  your  nemeses  will  defeat  themselves  before  they  get  the  chance  to  swing.  ’

‘  you’re  alive  in  my  head.  ’

‘  what  died  didn’t  stay  dead.  ’

‘  it  cut  deep  to  know  you  right  to  the  bone.  ’

‘  i  can’t  remember  what  i  used  to  fight  for.  ’

‘  in  the  cracks  of  light,  i  dreamed  of  you.  ’

‘  i  had  a  feeling  so  peculiar.  ’

‘  i’m  right  where  you  left  me.  ’

‘  i’m  still  sitting  in  a  corner  i  haunt.  ’

‘  if  my  love  died  young,  i  can’t  bear  witness.  ’

‘  you  left  me  no  choice  but  to  stay  here  forever.  ’

‘  it’s  that  old  familiar  body  ache,  from  the  same  little  break  in  your  soul.  ’

‘  sometimes  giving  up  is  the  strong  thing.  ’

‘  sometimes  to  run  is  the  brave  thing.  ’

‘  you  know  when  it’s  time  to  go.  ’

[sadprosed]

𝑫𝑰𝑨𝑳𝑶𝑮𝑼𝑬  𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺.

↬   THE  INFERNAL  DEVICES  SERIES   (  2010 - 2013  )  by  cassandra  clare.

sentences  taken  from  or  inspired  by  the  dialogue  from  the  series,  including  the  books  clockwork  angel,  clockwork  prince,  &  clockwork  princess.

+   feel  free  to  change  pronouns  /  roles  !

‘  one  must  always  be  careful  of  books,  and  what  is  inside  them.  ’

‘   we  live  and  breathe  words.  ’

‘  if  there  is  no  one  in  the  world  who  cares  for  you,  do  you  really  exist  at  all  ?  ’

‘  they  say  time  heals  all  wounds,  but  that  presumes  the  source  of  grief  is  finite.  ’

‘  requited  love  is  nice,  but  it  doesn’t  make  much  of  a  ballad.  ’

‘  i  am  not  the  one  of  us  who  has  no  heart.  ’

‘  i  haven’t  broken  his  heart  at  all.  ’

‘  you  don’t  know  that  there’s  only  oblivion  after  death.  ’

‘  if  you  have  the  soul  of  a  warrior,  you  are  a  warrior.  ’

‘  i  thought  we  could  at  least  talk  about  books.  ’

‘  there’s  plenty  of  sense  in  nonsense  sometimes,  if  you  wish  to  look  for  it.  ’

‘  pointless,  needless  suffering  and  pain  ?  i  don’t  suppose  it  would  help  if  i  told  you  that  was  the  way  life  is.  ’

‘  you  hurt  everyone.  everyone  whose  life  you  touch.  ’

‘  it’s  all  heartbreak,  death,  and  unrequited  love.  ’

‘  such  harsh  truths  so  early  in  the  morning  cannot  be  good  for  the  digestion.  ’

‘  hell  is  cold.  ’

‘  i  seek  scandal  and  low  companionship.  ’

‘  perhaps  we  do  need  a  chaperon.  ’

‘  death  could  be  imminent.  ’

‘  the  handsome  fellow  that’s  trying  to  rescue  you  from  a  hideous  fate  is  never  wrong.  ’

‘  i  have  lost  everything.  ’

‘  who  said  we  were  owed  happiness  ?  what  about  what  we  owe  others  ?  ’

‘  he’s  going  to  kill  someone.  or  get  us  killed.  ’

‘  clearly  the  word  excellent  means  something  else  on  this  side  of  the  atlantic.  ’

‘  you  may  hide  here  with  me,  if  you  wish.  ’

‘  with  god  on  your  side,  what  does  luck  matter  ?  ’

‘  are  you  highly  intoxicated  at  the  moment  ?  ’

‘  you  wish  to  marry  me  now  ?  ’

‘  entreat  me  not  to  leave  thee.  ’

‘  don’t  be  ordinary  like  that.  ’

‘  is  it  because  i’m  better  looking  than  you  ?  ’

‘  dreams  can  be  dangerous  things.  ’

‘  declarations  of  love  amuse  me.  ’

‘  be  prepared  to  swoon  at  my  finery.  ’

‘  i  don’t  believe  you  can  threaten  people  into  goodness.  ’

‘  finally  broke  down  and  admitted  you’re  in  love  with  me,  have  you  ?  ’

‘  i  say  this  out  of  pure  selfishness.  ’

‘  is  loyalty  still  a  commendable  quality  if  it  is  misdirected  ?  ’

‘  you  must  be  terribly  dull  witted.  ’

‘  you  need  not  be  so  careful.  i  will  not  break.  ’

‘  there  is  more  to  living  than  not  dying.  ’

‘  men  may  be  stronger,  but  it  is  women  who  endure.  ’

‘  was  there  ever  a  more  beautiful  sound  than  your  name  ?  ’

‘  we  do  not  have  to  carry  the  burden  of  their  choices  or  sins.  ’

‘  life  is  full  of  risks.  death  is  much  simpler.  ’

‘  you  serve  a  greater  cause.  your  life  is  not  yours  to  throw  away.  ’

‘  there  are  so  many  worse  things  than  death.  not  to  be  loved  or  not  to  be  able  to  love,  that  is  worse.  ’

‘  you  are  human.  never  think  that  you  are  not.  ’

‘  if  you’re  determined  to  follow  me  into  hell,  i  cannot  stop  you.  ’

‘  i’ve  always  wanted  to  see  hell.  doesn’t  everyone  ?  ’

‘  come  back  to  me,  for  i  cannot  bear  to  lose  all  my  heart.  ’

‘  i  am  catastrophically  in  love  with  you.  ’

‘   i  can  offer  you  my  heart,  though  i  have  no  idea  how  many  more  beats  it  shall  sustain.  ’

‘  our  souls  are  knit.  we  are  one  person.  ’

‘  i  do  not  want  to  sit  by  while  tragedy  comes  for  us.  ’

‘  i  am  leaving,  but  i  am  living.  i  will  not  be  gone  from  you  entirely.  ’

‘  they  say  that  you  cannot  love  two  people  at  once.  ’

‘  i  cannot  leave  you  to  face  death  alone.  ’

‘  when  i  breathe,  i  will  think  of  you,  for  without  you  i  would  have  been  dead  years  ago.  ’

‘  the  world  is  a  wheel.  when  we  rise  and  fall,  we  do  it  together.  ’

‘  you  are  the  first  dream  of  my  soul,  the  only  dream  i  was  unable  to  stop  myself  from  dreaming.  ’

‘  when  i  am  in  the  darkness,  i  want  to  think  of  it  in  the  light,  with  you.  ’

‘  heroes  endure  because  we  need  them.  not  for  their  own  sakes.  ’

‘  if  there  is  a  life  after  this  one,  let  me  meet  you  in  it.  ’

‘  life  is  a  book,  and  there  are  a  thousand  pages  i  have  not  yet  read.  ’

‘  words  have  the  power  to  change  us.  ’

[brucephone]

thinking of bruce constantly feeling like he has 2 have it together for the sake of everyone else (in terms of grades, baseball, just being someone tht everyone turns to in general) and its so draining but he rarely (if EVER) complains…. he gives so much for the benefit of everyone else

[sadprosed]

𝑫𝑰𝑨𝑳𝑶𝑮𝑼𝑬  𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺.

↬   THE  INFERNAL  DEVICES  SERIES   (  2010 - 2013  )  by  cassandra  clare.

sentences  taken  from  or  inspired  by  the  dialogue  from  the  series,  including  the  books  clockwork  angel,  clockwork  prince,  &  clockwork  princess.

+   feel  free  to  change  pronouns  /  roles  !

‘  one  must  always  be  careful  of  books,  and  what  is  inside  them.  ’

‘   we  live  and  breathe  words.  ’

‘  if  there  is  no  one  in  the  world  who  cares  for  you,  do  you  really  exist  at  all  ?  ’

‘  they  say  time  heals  all  wounds,  but  that  presumes  the  source  of  grief  is  finite.  ’

‘  requited  love  is  nice,  but  it  doesn’t  make  much  of  a  ballad.  ’

‘  i  am  not  the  one  of  us  who  has  no  heart.  ’

‘  i  haven’t  broken  his  heart  at  all.  ’

‘  you  don’t  know  that  there’s  only  oblivion  after  death.  ’

‘  if  you  have  the  soul  of  a  warrior,  you  are  a  warrior.  ’

‘  i  thought  we  could  at  least  talk  about  books.  ’

‘  there’s  plenty  of  sense  in  nonsense  sometimes,  if  you  wish  to  look  for  it.  ’

‘  pointless,  needless  suffering  and  pain  ?  i  don’t  suppose  it  would  help  if  i  told  you  that  was  the  way  life  is.  ’

‘  you  hurt  everyone.  everyone  whose  life  you  touch.  ’

‘  it’s  all  heartbreak,  death,  and  unrequited  love.  ’

‘  such  harsh  truths  so  early  in  the  morning  cannot  be  good  for  the  digestion.  ’

‘  hell  is  cold.  ’

‘  i  seek  scandal  and  low  companionship.  ’

‘  perhaps  we  do  need  a  chaperon.  ’

‘  death  could  be  imminent.  ’

‘  the  handsome  fellow  that’s  trying  to  rescue  you  from  a  hideous  fate  is  never  wrong.  ’

‘  i  have  lost  everything.  ’

‘  who  said  we  were  owed  happiness  ?  what  about  what  we  owe  others  ?  ’

‘  he’s  going  to  kill  someone.  or  get  us  killed.  ’

‘  clearly  the  word  excellent  means  something  else  on  this  side  of  the  atlantic.  ’

‘  you  may  hide  here  with  me,  if  you  wish.  ’

‘  with  god  on  your  side,  what  does  luck  matter  ?  ’

‘  are  you  highly  intoxicated  at  the  moment  ?  ’

‘  you  wish  to  marry  me  now  ?  ’

‘  entreat  me  not  to  leave  thee.  ’

‘  don’t  be  ordinary  like  that.  ’

‘  is  it  because  i’m  better  looking  than  you  ?  ’

‘  dreams  can  be  dangerous  things.  ’

‘  declarations  of  love  amuse  me.  ’

‘  be  prepared  to  swoon  at  my  finery.  ’

‘  i  don’t  believe  you  can  threaten  people  into  goodness.  ’

‘  finally  broke  down  and  admitted  you’re  in  love  with  me,  have  you  ?  ’

‘  i  say  this  out  of  pure  selfishness.  ’

‘  is  loyalty  still  a  commendable  quality  if  it  is  misdirected  ?  ’

‘  you  must  be  terribly  dull  witted.  ’

‘  you  need  not  be  so  careful.  i  will  not  break.  ’

‘  there  is  more  to  living  than  not  dying.  ’

‘  men  may  be  stronger,  but  it  is  women  who  endure.  ’

‘  was  there  ever  a  more  beautiful  sound  than  your  name  ?  ’

‘  we  do  not  have  to  carry  the  burden  of  their  choices  or  sins.  ’

‘  life  is  full  of  risks.  death  is  much  simpler.  ’

‘  you  serve  a  greater  cause.  your  life  is  not  yours  to  throw  away.  ’

‘  there  are  so  many  worse  things  than  death.  not  to  be  loved  or  not  to  be  able  to  love,  that  is  worse.  ’

‘  you  are  human.  never  think  that  you  are  not.  ’

‘  if  you’re  determined  to  follow  me  into  hell,  i  cannot  stop  you.  ’

‘  i’ve  always  wanted  to  see  hell.  doesn’t  everyone  ?  ’

‘  come  back  to  me,  for  i  cannot  bear  to  lose  all  my  heart.  ’

‘  i  am  catastrophically  in  love  with  you.  ’

‘   i  can  offer  you  my  heart,  though  i  have  no  idea  how  many  more  beats  it  shall  sustain.  ’

‘  our  souls  are  knit.  we  are  one  person.  ’

‘  i  do  not  want  to  sit  by  while  tragedy  comes  for  us.  ’

‘  i  am  leaving,  but  i  am  living.  i  will  not  be  gone  from  you  entirely.  ’

‘  they  say  that  you  cannot  love  two  people  at  once.  ’

‘  i  cannot  leave  you  to  face  death  alone.  ’

‘  when  i  breathe,  i  will  think  of  you,  for  without  you  i  would  have  been  dead  years  ago.  ’

‘  the  world  is  a  wheel.  when  we  rise  and  fall,  we  do  it  together.  ’

‘  you  are  the  first  dream  of  my  soul,  the  only  dream  i  was  unable  to  stop  myself  from  dreaming.  ’

‘  when  i  am  in  the  darkness,  i  want  to  think  of  it  in  the  light,  with  you.  ’

‘  heroes  endure  because  we  need  them.  not  for  their  own  sakes.  ’

‘  if  there  is  a  life  after  this  one,  let  me  meet  you  in  it.  ’

‘  life  is  a  book,  and  there  are  a  thousand  pages  i  have  not  yet  read.  ’

‘  words  have  the  power  to  change  us.  ’

[littlelovelymemes]

(    *   & .   —   THE  HAUNTING  OF  HILL  HOUSE  SENTENCE  STARTERS

*   warning   :   may  contain  spoilers  for  episodes  one  through  ten .

‘  if  you  were  me ,  you  wouldn’t  be  such  a  fucking  asshole .  ’

‘  the  world  out  there  has  teeth  and  it  is  hungry  and  it  is  stupid  and  it eats  and  eats  mindlessly .  ’

‘  you  listen  to  your  gut .  even  if  it  makes  them  hate  you .  ’

‘  i  am  a  dream  and  so  are  you  and  so  are  we .  ’

‘  you  are  a  looker ,  aren’t  you ?  ’

‘  honey ,  someone’s  in  the  house .  ’

‘  i’m  dreaming ,  right ?  ’

‘  i  just  need  a  little  time  away .  it’s  nothing  more  than  that .  ’

‘  you’re  saying  it  was  an  accident ,  so  you  accidentally  put  your  hand  through  a  mirror ?  ’

‘  i’m  scared .  that’s  all  i  am .  there  is  nothing  else .  i’m  only  scared .  ’

‘  do  you  think  there’s  something  wrong  with  me ?  like ,  really  wrong ?  ’

‘  it’s  alright ,  sugar .  it’s  just  a  dream  —  just  a  screaming  meemie .  ’

‘  we  yield  to  it  or  we  fight  it ,  but  we  cannot  meet  it  halfway .  ’

‘  i  seldom  am  well  behaved .  ’

‘  i  enjoyed  the  conversation ,  but  i’m  gonna  say  goodnight .  ’

‘  did  you  just  punch  me  in  the  boob ?  ’

‘  just  enjoy  me .  i’m  loving  you .  ’

‘  i  wouldn’t  have  changed  a  thing .  i  need  you  to  know  that .  ’

‘  forgiveness  is  warm  like  a  tear  on  a  cheek .  ’

‘  i  loved  you  completely  and  you  loved  me  the  same .  ’

‘  that’s  all .  the  rest  is  confetti .  ’

‘  forgive  a  girl  for  being  lonely .  ’

‘  there’s  nothing  sadder  than  a  cold  bed .  ’

‘  journey’s  end  when  lovers  meet .  ’

‘  journeys  don’t  end ,  not  if  you  love  someone .  they  don’t  end  at  all .  ’

‘  probably  best  you  didn’t  say  anything  to  them .  ’

‘  i’m  asking  you  to  love  me  hard  for  the  next  few  minutes .  ’

‘  i’m  gonna  jump  and  i’m  asking  you  to  hold  my  hand  while  i’m  falling .  ’

‘  i  have  something  that  i  have  to  tell  you ,  but  i  need  you  to  remember  when  i  do  that  i  love  you .  ’

‘  i  wish  i  would’ve  loved  you  better .  ’

‘  pandas  don’t  like  macaroni .  ’

‘  i’m  just  floating  in  this  ocean  of  nothing  and  i  wonder  if  this  is  it ,  this  is  what  death  is .  ’

‘  i  wonder  if  this  is  what  death  is ,  just  out  there  in  the  darkness ,  just  darkness  and  numbness  and  alone .  ’

‘  i  wondered  if  that’s  what  they  felt ,  just  numb  and  nothing  and  alone .  ’

‘  he  was  a  light  in  the  darkness .  he  was  a  life  preserver  in  the  ocean .  ’  

‘  i  reached  for  him  because  i  had  to  feel  something .  i  had  to  feel  anything .  ’

‘  god ,  i’m  so  glad  i  did  it  though .  thank  god  it  worked .  ’

‘  i  felt  scared .  so  fucking  scared .  ’

‘  honestly  i  had  to  do  it  because  it  felt  better  than  feeling  nothing .  ’

‘  that  thorough  fucking  shame  was  so  much  better  than  that  horrible  empty  feeling .  ’

‘  you  have  to  live .  ’

‘  i  don’t —  i  don’t  know  how  to  do  this  without  you .  ’

‘  i  learned  a  secret  :  there  is  no  without .  i  am  not  gone .  i  am  scattered  into  so  many  pieces ,  sprinkled  on  your  life  like  new  snow .  ’

‘  when  we  die ,  we  turn  into  stories  and  every  time  someone  tells  one  of  those  stories  it’s  like  we’re  still  here .  ’

‘  we’re  all  stories  in  the  end .  ’

‘  you’re  supposed  to  protect  me ,  but  you  say  the  meanest  things  to  me  when  i  try  to  tell  you  things .  ’

‘  that  was  really  wild  stuff .  ’

‘  that  was  really  wild  stuff  considering  you  were  asleep  for ,  what ,  like…  ninety-nine  percent  of  it ?  ’

‘  i’m  sorry .  i  should  have  made  more  of  an  effort  with  you .  ’

‘  you  tried  the  best  that  you  could .  i  should’ve  met  you  halfway .  ’

‘  people  fuck  up .  i  guess  you  don’t  get  that  —  you  really  don’t  get  it  until  you  fuck  up .  really  fuck  up .  ’

‘  i  felt…  nothing .  just  nothing .  and  it  spread  everywhere  in  me ,  this  nothing ,  until  i  couldn’t  feel  anything  anymore .  i  was  just  this  dark ,  empty  black  hole .   ’

‘  i  felt  nothing  and  so  i  drank  and  i  drank  and  nothing  worked .  i  couldn’t  feel  anything .  ’

[brucephone]

“ why are you looking at me like that? ”  

it    could    be    the    summer    heat    or    your    sparkling    nerves ,    in    the    moment    you    can’t    distinguish    it .    all    you    knew    was    you    were    profusely ,    u͟n͟c͟h͟a͟r͟a͟c͟t͟e͟r͟i͟s͟t͟i͟c͟a͟l͟l͟y͟ ͟,͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟c͟r͟i͟m͟s͟o͟n͟ ͟ ͟ ͟t͟i͟n͟t͟e͟d͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟i͟n͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟t͟h͟e͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟f͟a͟c͟e͟ .    it    was    the    same    kind    of    flare    that    ran    up    your    sides    into    the    veins    of    your    neck    when    you    were    just    on    the    home    stretch    of    a    final    inning .    only    this    wasn't    a    baseball    game ,    &    you    were    hardly    doing    much    running    &    swinging    in    your    stiffened    position .    you ,    who    stands    so    large    in    any    room ,    are    now    tucked    away    in    the    aisle ,    right    beside    the    pinball    machine ,    &    subsequently ,    𝚖𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎    𝚗𝚘𝚝    𝚜𝚘    𝚊𝚌𝚌𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢  ,    right    beside    pinball    vance    hopper .    

he    wasn’t    even    doing    much    of    anything .    nothing    out    of    the    ordinary    for    him ,    anyway .    flicking    away    at    the    same    pinball    game    he’s    always    glued    to .    he    must    be    running    the    poor    thing    into    disrepair ,    the    way    he    can    play    for    hours    without    so    much    as    a    break ,    stacking    personal    high    scores    one    after    the    other .    you're    sure    that    if    he    had    it    his    way ,    he'd    play    day    in    &    day    out    without    so    much    as    a    tickle    for    sleep .    he    was    damn    good    at    it    too .    it    was    cool .    h͟e͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟w͟a͟s͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟c͟o͟o͟l͟ .

&    yes ,    you    know    the    stories .    he    gets    sorta    violent    with    some    of    the    kids    in    your    grade    (    you’ve    seen    it    first    hand    &    even    you’d    hate    to    be    on    the    receiving    end    of    his    sucker    punch    )    but    you    can't    fault    him    all    that    much    for    it .    t͟h͟e͟y͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟w͟e͟r͟e͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟m͟e͟a͟t͟h͟e͟a͟d͟s͟ ,    underdeveloped    wasteoids    with    maggots    for    brains    &    you    knew    it .    vance    knew    it    too .    &    that    was    the    thing    about    vance :    𝚑𝚎    𝚍𝚒𝚍𝚗'𝚝    𝚝𝚊𝚔𝚎    𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚝    𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖    𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚋𝚘𝚍𝚢 .    it    was    as    awing    as    much    as    it    was    a    horror    scene    of    a    watch .    

you    hadn’t    meant    to    stare    for    as    long    as    you    were .    it    was ,    by    your    mothers    flowery    words ,    p̳o̳o̳r̳ ̳ ̳ ̳ ̳m̳a̳n̳n̳e̳r̳s̳ .    you    were    going    to    leave    about    five    minutes    ago ,    but    you    couldn’t    help    it .    there    you    were .    borderline    loitering    at    the    convenience   store ,    fingers    pressed    into    the    pages    of    a    magazine    you    never    had    intention    of    reading    nor    buying .    &    anyone    who    were    paying    attention    to    your    expression    would    know    why .

&    so    it    seems    :    even    through    the    curtain    of    feral    hay-colored    hair ,    he    was    catching    onto    you .    his    voice ,    rolled    in    salt ,    knives    through    the    static    of    your    thoughts    without    so    much    as    a    lift    of    his    head    or    stutter    in    his    concentration .    how    long    did    he    know    you    were    watching    him    for ?    the    potential    answer    turns    you    a    deeper    shade    for    good    measure .

he    wasn’t    asking    because    he    gave    a    damn        y͟o͟u͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟f͟i͟g͟u͟r͟e͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟t͟h͟a͟t͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟mu͟c͟h͟ .    maybe    he    thought    you    were    looking    for    problems    too .    maybe    ,    he    thought ,    in    all    your    preening    stance ,    you    were    waiting    your    turn    to    indulge    in    a    𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚍𝚒𝚎𝚍    𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚗   with    pinball    vance    hopper .    though    as    crisp    as    your    swing    is ,    you’re    hardly    much    of    a    fighter .    the    pinball    happily    clanks    around    at    the    top    of    the    machine    between    the    breath    it    takes    you    to    paint    something    swift    to    say .    

soft    &    velvet    are    you    in    return ,    as    if    you    hadn’t    been    caught    right    in    the    dead    of    your    entrancement .    ❝    dude ,    sorry    ,    it’s    just    .    .    .    you're    crazy    good    at    that    game .    ❞   𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢    𝚍𝚘𝚗’𝚝   𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕    𝚑𝚒𝚖    𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚋𝚊𝚕𝚕    𝚟𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎    𝚏𝚘𝚛    𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 ,    genius !    

a    blade    of    raven    hair    slips    down    prim    head :    draping    in    the    crossroads    of    your    eyes .    it    is    all    but    taunting    your    incomplete    composure .    still ,    you    do    what    you    do    best :    play    it    off .    ❝    i    don’t    think    i’ve    ever    seen    anyone    get    a    score    that    high    on    pinball    before .    it’s    kinda    hard    to    not    be    impressed .        ❞    

the    smile    that    splits    through    your    face    practically    twinkles ,    as    if    the    sun    were    meant    to    beam    onto    it .    m͟a͟y͟b͟e͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟y͟o͟u͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟a͟r͟e͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟t͟h͟e͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟s͟u͟n͟ .    maybe    it    is    you    who    is    lighting    up    the    room    &    pouring    your    sunshine    in    the    boy’s    jean-clad    direction .    it    is    so    unconscious    &    so    blatant ,    all    at    once .    ❝    you’ve    got    to    be    like ,    the    best    pinball    player    in    denver .    that’s    a    kick    ass    title ,    if    you    ask    me !        ❞    

                   *      𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗    𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚜 , 

[brucephone]

i am working with scraps but i love him 2 death