001 || Special
You were so special. I remember the way you were like a firework. You were bright and loud, breathtaking and spontaneous. You were so bright I was afraid to look at you, because I thought you were like the sun. A beautiful phenomenon, but dangerous to the eyes.
You were loud the way I could only dream to be. Everyone noticed you, and everyone loved you. Breathtaking in my opinion was your specialty. You could walk into a room and people would just...stare. Awestruck by how gorgeous you were. I wonder if you noticed them? I wonder if you know how special you truly are.
I admit you made me a little spontaneous as well. I’m not sure my family knows about our nights spent leaping from cliffs, and late night swims. You made me stop seeing flaws in myself. You made me feel like I was special too.
Despite it all though...you were volatile. You told me once you would ruin me, I did not believe you. Yet you set ablaze to all around you, tearing down everyone until there was nothing left but...emptiness. So yes you were like a firework. In all senses. But I was the girl who dared get too close in hopes of changing. And you changed me so I should thank you. So thank you. Thank you for showing me I can be special too.
I also need to ask why? Why had you made me feel so much? Why did you leave without a goodbye? Did you not know? I suppose it’s silly now but...what if I was in love with you? Would things have been different?
Because I was. I was so in love with you. It scared me how much you made me feel. You told me I was ‘special’. I wonder if you thought that of yourself. Because to me? You were my world. To you however it seems I was a simple reoccurring summer fling. Now all I have left of you are the memories and this aching empty feeling. I wonder what you have left of me? If I ever do cross your mind. After all I was...special.