It was a lot to process, between the feelings from what heâd done to what they were now sharing together. Guillermo felt a lot of things, both shared from Barker and to him. There was plenty of fear, shame, and insecurity moving from Guillermo to Barker as well as the other way around, there was a lot that he kept hidden from the world. They both did. It was no wonder they were made for each other, and now there was one person that neither of them could hide from. Someone that could always call them out on their hidden shit. He chuckled, the breathlessness still evident in his voice. He kissed back when kissed, and kissed a second time after that too because he wanted more. Besides, they didnât need their mouths to speak anymore. It was easy to keep close, even when the kiss ended. I love you too, Bax. I think about a lot of things, even in a time like this. What do we do now? We can start with that blowjob, either down here or up on the roof like I promised. Or do that later. I think we can move into a room together, once we tell staff. Honestly, I donât really care what we do next. I got what I wanted. Itâs a good thing youâre so strong, belle guapo. Iâm not letting you put me down for a while. Maybe days.
It was clear that getting used to having another in his mind, and he sharing of thoughts and feelings between the two, would take some time. Though, it was a task which Barker was happy to both take on and complete. It made him sad in a way, now having the ability to feel the darkness that loomed within his Guarded- not in a malicious or evil way, but rather the darkness of a previously unknown and unspoken past. Taking in the pain, the loneliness, the feelings of hopelessness and rejection, being within Guillermoâs entire presence reminded Barker of being within his own, though feeling the emotion wafting from his soulmate, he wanted nothing more than to help. To fix it. To give the other everything, to be everything heâd ever needed. Feeling the other manâs lips on his was an experience akin and second to none, and it was one he wasnât ready to let go of just yet. Barker held his Guarded tightly, keeping his lips on his, or on his skin, at all times, taking full advantage of their newfound ability to communicate wordlessly. Part of me wants to ask if you mean that, but I know you do. Itâs the most incredible feeling, but also the scariest, knowing that you mean it. I know it means you could hurt me now, but I also know you wouldnât and wonât. I can feel that. This is a lot, but this is...Itâs the best Iâve ever felt, Guillermo. Iâve never been so fucking happy. Iâll carry you to the roof, my love. I want to make good on that, I need you. Youâre right, we can. We can. Are you feeling okay about that, about me moving into your space like that? Youâre everything Iâve ever wanted, Guillermo. I mean that. Iâve never met someone so incredible, I...Iâve got you. Now. And forever. Donât let go. Hold onto me, Iâve got you. As long as youâre in my arms, youâre safe. Always. I have so much to say, there are so many questions...I....Are you- Are you okay? With me? That itâs...Itâs me?