Tiffany Gail @btflmess - Tumblr Blog

Unsent letter (Date Unknown. Already forgot that I wrote this.)

I don't understand how I can be pro-feelings and open/honest but I'm also terrified of being vulnerable + letting anyone get close. I mean I just want to shout into the void. Shout and make my presence and feelings known. Shout about what I love. Shout everyday if it feels good. And see what happens. But damn it, I'm scared that someone will never hear my voice.

The moment I laid my eyes on you, I instantly knew that you were the real-life version of the "Man of my Dream."

This is me trying to figure out how can I lift his heavy feeling on my shoulder without trying to look like a fool or hurting anyone I dearly love. This is me trying to forget how I feel about you...because I'm too scared of the "What Ifs."

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i don't know how i managed to work productively (ON A MONDAY!!!) given the fact that i feel like shit. perhaps once you became acquainted with this "feeling," you can never get away with it anymore. the only thing that you have to do is adapt to it, own it, and live with it. still, LIFE SUCKS!!!

this scene is just...beautiful 🥺😭

I sit and watch you reading with your

Head low

I wake and watch you breathing with your

Eyes closed

I sit and watch you

And notice everything you do or don't do

You're so much older and wiser and I

I wait by the door like I'm just a kid

Use my best colors for your portrait

Lay the table with the fancy shit

And watch you tolerate it

If it's all in my head tell me now

Tell me I've got it wrong somehow

I know my love should be celebrated

But you tolerate it

I greet you with a battle hero's welcome

I take your indiscretions all in good fun

I sit and listen

I polish plates until they gleam and glisten

You're so much older and wiser and I

I wait by the door like I'm just a kid

Use my best colors for your portrait

Lay the table with the fancy shit

And watch you tolerate it

If it's all in my head tell me now

Tell me I've got it wrong somehow

I know my love should be celebrated

But you tolerate it

While you were out building other worlds, where was I?

Where's that man who'd throw blankets over my barbed wire?

I made you my temple, my mural, my sky

Now I'm begging for footnotes in the story of your life

Drawing hearts in the byline

Always taking up too much space or time

You assume I'm fine

But what would you do if I, I

Break free and leave us in ruins

Took this dagger in me and removed it

Gain the weight of you then lose it

Believe me, I could do it

If it's all in my head tell me now

Tell me I've got it wrong somehow

I know my love should be celebrated

But you tolerate it

I sit and watch you

2 more semesters and I am done with my academics ❤ Pushing myself to the limit because after my acads, I still need to pass the comprehensive exams, then practicum, and lastly, my thesis. I STILL HAVE A LOOOOOONG WAY TO GO 🥲 But here's to chasing my dreams 🍻