❁pairing: senior!taehyung x junior!oc (Italian education system)
❁description: Daphne moves from the city to the countryside; objectively, a downgrade, but, emotionally, an upgrade. From the urban chaos straight into his warm embrace
❁synopsis:
"Would you go on a date with me?
"Yeah." She nodded. "I'd love to go on a date with you." Voice light and teasing.
"Yeah?" His eyes widened slightly.
"Yeah."
"Oh, God. I thought you'd say no because-"
"Why?" Then her voice dimmed, shy and hesitant.
"I like you."
❁genre: romance, fluff, smut, angst
❁wc: 254.59k+
❁date: 30/03/2024
❁warning: mature content
❁notes: strangers-to-lovers, teen love story, lots of fluff, smut, senior!taehyung (taehyung is like super smart), junior!oc (academic weapon, she loves herself an excellent academic performance), a lil angst, taehyung is head over heels for oc, nature lovers (oc loves flowers, taehyung loves butterflies), countryside (looks like Italy because that is the only type of countryside I know and love), oc has a lovely family, taehyung has daddy issues, jimin and jungkook are taehyung's besties( they also have other two girls as best friends); oc has a girl best friend (childhood best friend) and three boys as best friends); oc is so fucking prettyyy, like girl pretty; cross-posted on wattpad and ao3
❁chapters (status - ongoing) ⇀ updates every Friday, midnight
latest — 06/06
❀ ❛prologue❜ - 1.52k
Rewriting the story of Daphne and Apollo
⇀ «A love that drives me crazy, a lovely crazy, a sexy crazy, an amazing crazy»
❀ 01 ❛love is all around❜ - 4.24k
On a chilly summer morning, a bouncy curly-haired sun rose up and shone above the flower
❀ 02 ❛ying yang❜ - 4.28k
Photosynthesis: the sun shines bright above the flower providing it with energy which will be transformed into nutrients
❀ 03 ❛the exploratory stage❜ - 5.48k
As the sun shines in its might, it brightens the way for a little flower to see over the horizon
❀ 04 ❛just like old times❜ - 6.70k
The bright rays of the sun show the way to the flower, introducing it to an innocent little bear, a ferret and a little wasp
❀ 05 ❛a monarch butterfly❜ - 4.17k
There, going back home, was an unusual combination of subjects: a cricket, a wing-man, a monarch butterfly, a little pika and a puppy
❀ 06 ❛venus❜ - 4.82k
Who could have ever thought that a flower could grow in space? Who? No one surely and yet... there it was, standing upright in its beauty
❀ 07 ❛a laurel❜ - 4.92k
He knew he wasn't meant to fly to space because he physically couldn't but this thought wouldn't stop him. Was he being pretentious? Trying to exceed his limits?
❀ 08 ❛fuck you!❜ - 6.10k
Normally, flowers are in people's gardens or on a bed of green grass so... what the hell is one singular one doing in the middle of the ocean. Does it know, does anyone know, that too much water will cause it harm... especially when the water is salty?
❀ 09 ❛en route❜ - 5.07k
With its six tiny feet into proper boots, a good protective shield over his wings and an astronaut helmet on, the monarch butterfly embarks on a life-threatening journey, one believed to be a one-way ticket travel
❀ 10 ❛who we are, what we do❜ - 6.01k
Flowers don't have eyes, yeah, and neither does a pika glow even during the day. The flower is used to seeing only the sun shine during the day. The little pika walking by is unusual.
Cleopatra is the modern definition of the term "femme fatale"; she's known for ruling in ancient Egypt but also for her relationship with Ceaser and Mark Antony
❀ 12 ❛the butterfly, the cricket and the wing-man❜ - 4.49k
A butterfly, a cricket and a wing-man all have wings somewhat. The first does fly, the second mostly leaps and the last doesn't fly unless the first two do.
❀ 13 ❛the Titanic❜ - 7.31k
Between the night of the 14th and the 15th, in 1912, one of the biggest ships of its time sank, going against the expectations but did it? At the time, there was a little competition between countries so when it sank it wasn't so surprising: something so big with very few resources would have never made it across the ocean.
❀ 14 ❛from five to ten❜ - 11.44k
Brighten the mood. Increase the energy. Make a downturned flower rise high and flunt its beautiful petals for others to see.
❀ 15 ❛bold, red and underlined❜ - 14.70k
“You know? That party I wanted to host at mine? You’re so invited. In fact, you’re the first one on my guest list and I’ll underline your name in red as in ‘in great and urgent need of pussy’—”
❀ 16 ❛«it's Daphne»❜ - 11.30k
A monarch butterfly sees a lot of flowers in its short span of life but never has this one, nor its ancestors, seen a flower as pretty as the one ahead. The flower was there, living beautifully in space.
❀ 17 ❛hesperiidae❜ - 6.41k
Right when the sun faded away and the dark clouds took over, the little butterfly's wings fluttered less as it lost hope until something caught his eye, a gleam slicing through the gloom and focusing on a flower.
❀ 18❛opposites attract❜ - 5.59k
Winter and the Wind of the West come to destroy but nothing can touch a flower when it's under a shelter, something that will prevent it from dying in the cold or losing its beautiful petals.
❀ 19 ❛peek-a-boo (boo boo)❜ - 5.66k
Things have been too unusual for this butterfly. Wasn't it trying to embark on an impossible journey? To space? How did it end up in a shiny sea? it's floating and his pupils are swelling. The beauty is indeed out of this world
❀ 20 ❛lifejacket❜ - 6.97k
The wings grew with each flutter. There was a glowing dot on the ocean and it was slowly fading out into the darkness so the butterfly cradled it and protected the leur
❀ 21 ❛monarch and blue morpho butterflies❜ - 4.13k
The weather was chilly and slightly windy. Despite the discomfort it caused everyone, the flower stood out like a thumb as it danced and waved with the soft patterns of the breeze. The butterfly couldn't do anything other than admire with widened orbs
❀ 22 ❛rosy cheeks❜ - 3.91k
Did it see it? Did the flower see the butterfly? Because the butterfly has already seen the flower. Had already memorised every curve, every line, and every dot that brought the flower to life.
❀ 23 ❛caramel macchiato❜ - 4.23k
There was no way he could ever get lost: one look at those eyes and he'd see all the constellations, the map leading him to Venus
❀ 24 ❛butterflies, flowers... and butterflies❜ - 6.03k
«I mean, it's also an evergreen plant like the Laurel but it doesn't sound as special. Lauri does though.»
❀ 25 ❛bittersweet❜ - 4.10k
There were seven lanes, each welcoming an athlete, for a total of seven athletes. Yet, as the contestants got ready for the lace, some chose to acknowledge the presence of only a few athletes, the ones they were marking. Their true competition.
❀ 26 ❛open stage❜ - 9.78k
Floating and hovering around his spaceship, the butterfly moved closer to the round window giving to the dark glittered expanse. There was Venus and standing proudly in its infinite beauty was the flower.
❀ 27 ❛approach, round out, flare❜ - 8.08k
Poor Cinderella. She cried and cried. Then a small woman appeared in a cloud. It was Cinderella’s fairy godmother. “Biddidi, bobbidi, noo!” sang the fairy godmother as she waved her magic wand, but she gasped, hand coming to cover her mouth in bewilderment. Cinderella had turned into a tomato!
❀ 28 ❛a lighthouse❜ - 6.47k
Water flowed through the clothes, the hair strands, and around the body as the flower held onto a wide piece of wood. The water was chilling, the night was silent, and the ambience was dark, but right through the blackness slid the rotating rays of a lighthouse. Blinking to adapt to the brightness, the flower called for help.
❀ 29 ❛sus or sos?❜ - 7.12k
The rotating and flashing lighthouse lights shone upon a cricket, which floated barely a foot away from the flower. Yet, as the butterfly came to rescue, it didn’t see it, leaving the cricket trying to swim for its life, screaming and choking on water.
❀ 30 ❛a coup d'état❜ - 5.95k
Standing on a tower, two neurons patrolled the area, binoculars to their eyes. Suddenly, they sighted something. They squinted their eyes despite the instrument in their hands and tried to make sense of what they saw. "Hey, send in the alarm. Prepare the defensive barrier. Do something. Hurry up!" As this one darted away, the other remained still, binoculars back to its eyes. Confusion bubbled in its head. What had happened for the heart to be heading towards the body's headquarters? And what was that army of hormones behind it?
❀ 31 ❛the sun on the horizon❜ - 10.75k
The butterfly had finally found the flower. After travelling across space, it landed on Venus, where a singular ethereal natural being stood erect in its almighty beauty. After the coup d’etat, the heart realised that the situation was bigger than expected. The heat rose up to every part of the body. Butterflies increased and with that the flutters of their wings, which fanned the fire, expanding instead of quenching it. Infatuation at its peak.
❀ 32 ❛the lily family❜ - 7.09k
A new member of the Liliaceae.
“You like butterflies, and she’s named after a flower.”
❀ 33 ❛twinkle, twinkle little star!❜ - 12.75k
1905. Annus mirabilis. Three important elements: Einstein, the relativity of time, Planck, quantum mechanics, and Quantum entanglement.
❀ 34 ❛on the highway to Forever❜ - 11.76k
Livin' easy, lovin' free. No stop signs, speed limit. Hey, mumma, look at me.
I'm on the way to the promised land.
❀ 35 ❛collywobbles❜ - 11.57k
Collywobbles: queasiness, intense nervousness… or butterflies in the stomach.
❀ 36 ❛the Daphne odora❜ - 7.65k
A pure white bed. Snow. Then a bundle of grace. Pink petals gathered into a flower. Green leaves held the masterpiece, all in a pure white bed of snow.
here are my reading recommendations for enhypen! enjoy!
disclamer tho,,, i fell uncomfortable reading Jungwon and Riki stories because they are younger than me and underage whoops
• NOTORIOUSLY YOURS | JAY PARK
(fluff, comedy, angst | fakedating!au, college!au, childhoodbestfriends!au, (kinda) e2l!au | 14.7k )
• 14:03 | JAY PARK
(fluff, just cuddling with Jay)
• pay attention to me | JAY PARK
( Jay Park x fem!reader | fluff, established relationship!au, college!au, timestamp |0.37k | taking a break from studying together with bf Jay)
• First Kisses | SIM JAKE
( implied Best Friends to Lovers | Just a drabble about Jake’s first kiss | 852 )
• Blanket | KIM SUNOO
(celebrating your 5 month anniversary with bf Sunoo | idk its not that long tho)
• MORNING KISS | KIM SUNOO
( fluff | you tried to give Sunoo a good morning kiss. however, a slight hesitation stops you but no worries, he’ll just do it for you. )
• you % heeseung | LEE HEESUNG
( fluff | the reader vs heesungs new gaming console | 0.95k )
• HAVE IT BAD | LEE HEESUNG
( college!au, fem!reader | dinner with your friends ended up with Jay deciding to open his mouth and start up the last conversation you wanted to have | 1.0k )
• 11.11 | JAY PARK ★
just pure fluff I love it
• static screens | SIM JAKE
( Breaking up because of jakes dreams | wc. not given )
• champagne and sunshine | JAY PARK
(enhypen’s jay x reader, enhypen’s jake x reader, so many clichés u will have brainrot, fluff, major angst, heartwrenching confessions | 14.1k )
• Beyond 7 Minutes in Heaven | PARK SUNGHOON
( angst, fluff | 7 minutes in heaven in a closet but after that seven minutes of playing jenga your friends cannot find that damn key )
• by my side | LEE HEESUNG ( this series is so good! )
( fluff | roommate!fem reader x richboy!roommate heeseung | mild cussing, LOTS of pet names from heeseung & quite cliche ig + a lot of dialogue ;) y/n also zones out ALOT )
• “break your heart right back” | PARK JAY
(bestfriend!Jay x fem!reader | college au (not really mentioned though),friends to lovers, fake dating and ungodly amounts of fluff (crack-ish?) | wc. 8k )
• MY (ACCIDENTAL) DEMON ROOMMATE | PARK SUNGHOON ★
( demon!sunghoon x human!fem!reader // college au, social media au with occasional written parts, modern supernatural (?) au, super fun // 27 + // ONGOING)
• ✰ 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐒 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐘 | SIM JAKE
( boy! jake x fem!reader //smau, humor at points, angst, fluff // 19+ Parts // ONGOING )
• Behind the scenes | PARK SUNGHOON
( strangers 2 enemies, enemies 2 friends, fluff, angst, crack/humor, one sided pinning, love triangle?? some established relationships // sunghoon x fem!reader, enha members, itzy members, stray kids member, txt member // 19+ Parts // ONGOING)
• Hierarchy | SIM JAKE
(jake x fem!reader | angst, fluff, highschool media, jay is a lil a hole here lol | 25 parts )
• maybe we could be togehter | SIM JAKE
(childhoodbff!Jake x fem!reader | fluff, light angst, crack (as it should!) and Sunoo being the bestest friend you could ever ask for… in his own strange ways | 38 parts ⇭)
• Love me not | PARK SUNGHOON
( sunghoon x fem!reader | angst, fluff | 6 parts )
Royal
• if it means a lot to you | PARK JAY
(Prince!Jay x Maid!Reader | Royalty & Forbidden Love (is it a trope?!) AU; Angst & Fluff I 6,7K )
• THE BROTHERS BEST FRIEND TROPE | LEE HEESUNG ★
( heesung x fade reader // severe angst, fluff and smut //29K )
• BEHIND CLOSED DOORS | SIM JAKE ★
( this is smut so don’t read if you are a MINOR !! // Jake x fem!reader // Jake being Heesungs roommate with a quiet room in a party // 3,6K )
• MAKE YOU MINE | PARK SUNGHOON
( park jongseong (jay) x female reader // series, fluff, romance, angst & slightly suggestive, enemies to friends to lovers, slowburn, college!au, basketball player!jay, radio host!reader // 5+ Parts // ONGOING)
• NOT FOR SALE | LEE HEESUNG ★
( Heeseung + Jay [ft. Sunghoon and Jake] // uni exchange student! reader x uni student! HS x uni student! Jay // Genres: Fluff | Slice of Life | Comedy | Angst | Teenage Romance // 15 chapters )
HIGHSCHOOL
• real me real you | PARK SUNGHOON
( sunghoon x fem!reader ft. jay // highschool!au, fluff, comedy except i’m not funny, a bit of angst but it gets resolved, fake dating, love triangle au // 22k )
BADBOY
• the hates everyone except you trope | PARK JAY ★
( badboy!jay x good girl! reader // smut, angst, fluff. // ca 28K)
• “falling for you, I can’t keep away” | JAY PARK
( Hogwarts AU | friends to lovers | light angst and fluff fluff fluff | 4.1k )
• it girl | Park Sunghoon
( angst & kinda sad | modern-day era | 2,1k )
• the battle of hogwarts l JAY PARK
(boyfriend!jay, friend!jake, brother!sunghoon, chosen one!heeseung, death eaters, voldemort, other small characters | hogwarts!au, angsty angst | wc. 4.1k )
• [03:18PM] | JAY PARK
(a bit of Zombies & fluff, dies das )
• back in time - masterlist | y/n x sunghoon × heeseung × jay
(single parent au, love square (?), angst, fluff, and a little bit of everything | ) | 12 out of 18 PARTS | writer on hiatus | ✧✧✧
• hyung line reaction to their s/o being a single mom
• Vampire enhypen! - Reaction to listening to their S/O’s heart beating faster because of them
• enhypen as your boyfriend ~ hyung line
• hyung line when you sit on their lap while they’re on the computer
( just a bunch of fluff, established relationship, whipped!enha | nspired by the tiktok trend where reader tries to sit on his lap while he’s on the computer or while he plays video games)
• enhypen reacting to someone spilling sm on their s/o
(pop off show off Sunghoon hihi)
you are your worst enemy until you learn to treat yourself like a friend. sabotaging your efforts and relationships, convincing yourself no one loves you, not trying because you’re sure you’ll fail, being apathetic to everything is bc you think you’re not good enough. but the truth is you are good enough and you can be the best person you can be if you learn to change these thoughts into self-love and encouragement. listen to your needs and be there for yourself instead of destroying your health or abandoning yourself or your future.
Description: You meant the world to him, but how could he get over your death. How will he explain to your son that his mother died? How could you do that to him..?
A/N: This is a edited version of the original post. To be honest, I am proud of how it turned out. Enjoy reading it!❤🙇♀️
„No... you can’t do this to me!” Jimin whispered towards the lifeless body that was on the table. „Remember? You promised to love me forever! How could you do that to me?” he asked, still in shock. He knew that he was selfish by saying that, but for the first time he put himself above others... He couldn’t understand what was happening.
One moment he got a call from you saying that you were at the supermarket buying instant noodles and one second later, he got a call from the hospital that you had an accident. Because of a careless driver, who was drunk, he had to say goodbye to one of the most important person in his life. „I should have never let you go that day.” he said angry, blaming himself for everything.
When he arrived at the hospital, he could see how the nurses were pulling the sheets over your lifeless body and that's when something inside him broke. Maybe if he had dressed more fast, maybe if he had driven more fast, maybe if... he could have seen you alive, at least for a few seconds. It took him an hour to gather the courage to enter the room that you were in and with every step he took, his heart was breaking a little more. He just couldn't understand why that happened to you... to him.
He got up from the chair and left the room that was choking him. The way back to the apartment was too long and every single minute when he was in the car was agonizing. He tried really hard not to break down and cry like a baby. The only thing in his mind was your lifeless face. Your face that once was full of happiness and had one of the prettiest smiles, was now blank. When he entered the apartment, he let out everything that he had been holding.
How could he forget you? How could he forget your plump lips and silky hair that he loved? The way you laughed when he tickled you and how you cried when you saw a homeless animal. The way you dragged him to the carousel while your whole body was radiating happiness and how your eyes would light up when you were speaking about something that you loved.
He left his shoes at the door like you always told him to and with small steps he walked into the living room. He was afraid of what was awaiting him. He was afraid of the loneliness and the pain that were waiting to torture him slowly. Memories of you two hit him again and everything is front of him was blurred for some seconds. You were watching him from every corner of the room and the feeling was making him sick.
„How can you do this to me?” he yelled towards no one, collapsing to his knees and crying.
„Baby! I can’t see the movie!” he said while looking at you. You didn’t want to move your head from his chest, because you were too lazy and comfortable. You were sitting on his lap and his hands were around your body, hugging you tightly. You just smiled, a small giggle escaping your lips. You were so happy that you finally found a genuine, caring and loving boy.
„So...this is how you want to play?” he said and when he didn’t get an answer, he moved himself with you in his hands. This time you were under him and he started tickling you without mercy. „Stop it! Jimin.” You said while laughing, but he didn't stop. „I am sorry! Please stop.” you yelled, trying to catch your breath while smilling like an idiot.
He just smiled back at you and right then he just wanted to kiss you. „You are the most beautiful person in the world.” he breathed out, inches away from your face, looking at your lips. You leaned your head towards his and it was as if you were kissing him for the first time. Damn, this boy was making you fall for him and you were more than ready for that.
From his seat on the couch, he looked into the kitchen and memories hit him harder than he expected. From dinner made together...
„Freaking hell! Jimin help me!” you yelled and your boyfriend appeared in the door frame.
„You asked for me?” he said looking at you, but just for a short time because the smoke that was coming from behind you drew his attention. „I actually called for a ghost with your name, but I guess that you showed up instead.” you responded amused while admiring his beautiful face.
„You like to tease me a lot, but are you sure you aren't Namjoon’s sister?” he asked looking at the pot and then at you curious. „Of course not! Why would you say something like that?” you asked. „Because, my love, the food isn’t burnt, but the pot is.” he said and you remembered that Namjoon did the same thing. You started laughing and Jimin joined you.
„Well, we can still eat what is in there.” he said after looking at the clock and realising that it was very late and ordering food wouldn’t be the best decision... and the following day you two were having a stomachache together.
To showing your affection.
„You know that you are so beautiful?” Jimin murmured while looking into your eyes. „You are the most beautiful girl that I have ever seen and I am so honored to have you as my girlfriend.” he said then kissed you again. His eyes were shining like some little stars in the dimly lit kitchen and the way the moon was shining on his face made him look ethereal.
All that he could think about was how lucky he was to have you and that he would’t change that for anything in the world. His hands were on your waist while yours were around his neck and you felt happiness radiating off him. He lifted you up easily and now you were on the counter, your legs around his torso.
„I am so lucky that you are my boyfriend.” you said, leaning for a kiss that the both of you wanted so bad. And in that badly illuminated room, he knew that he loved you to the moon that was shining brightly on the sky and back. „I love you so much, baby.” Jimin whispered in your ear and that surprised you, but you knew that you were feeling the same way. Hell, you knew from the second date that if you would break up with that boy, you would make the biggest mistake. „I love you too, Jimin.” you said while hugging him, squeezing his back.
Everything in the house was so...you. You designed everything for the two of you, to have the perfect place to live. Everywhere he looked, a memory of you showed up, making him feel more miserable than he already was, if that was possible.
„Jimin!” you yelled excited when you came home. Your day was stress free and it seemed that everything was going your way. You wanted so bad to tell Jimin everything about your day so you were really happy to be home. Your boyfriend appeared from the kitchen and he was smiling widely while looking at you.
„Y/N! I have something important to say to you.” Jimin said while kneeling in front of you. „From the moment that I saw you, I knew that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. Three years have passed and now we are living together and everyday my love for you is growing. I can’t imagine my life without you, so please make me more happy that I am and become a Park...” he said and looked up, only to see how hard you were trying not to cry. „Park Y/N.” he whispered looking at you and you could see tears forming in his eyes.
„Yes!” you answered, tears falling from your eyes. He slipped the ring on your hand and hugged you. You are the best thing that ever happened to him. „I love you so much.” he said into your ear while stroking your hair.
Fuck everything. For the first time in his life, someone was understanding him. You were his soulmate. He could speak anything with you. He could say that he is tired without you judging him. You understood that he had a tiring job and you were always for him. Even when he would say something thay he shouldn’t, you would forget him... because he was everything for you and you were everything for him.
You walked towards Jimin, admiring everything around you. Your wedding was in a forest, far away from the city noise. The colors of white from the decorations were combining perfectly with the forest’s color, green. Everything was so perfect that you thought it was a dream, but looking at the person that was waiting for you at the table, you knew that it was real. After you escaped from the church, Jimin drove there and you were like in a fantasy.
„Do you like it?” he asked while helping you sit on the chair. „Like it?... I love it.” you said looking around you. „I knew it! You always liked simple things and I even bet with the boys that you would love it.” he yelled and that made you a little confused, but when you heard cheering behind you, you knew that you weren't alone. „Now, I want you to do what you promised.” Jimin said seriously and they all started running around you.
He took his places at the table that was wearing a white cloth and a beautiful ornament made with pink roses. As clichè at it might sound, they were your favorite flowers and the fact that Jimin put them everywhere around the two of you made everything look just like a fairytale.
Yoongi sat at a piano and music filled the atmosphere. Jungkook and Taehyung put the plates with food in front of you and then they took their seats at the table where the rest of the boys were, next to you. Your wedding was very small and private, because you did not wanted paparazzi to take photos of you. You understood that Jimin was a public figure, but sometimes it was a little too much. The fans were so sweet, but the reporters were most of the time a little bit too much, causing controversy from nothing so you just prefered to keep a low profile.
„May I have this dance?” Jimin asked and you just nodded, tears forming in your eyes. This was just perfect. He walked towards you and put his hands around your waist while you slided your hands onto his shoulders. When you looked into his eyes... you saw your whole future together and that made you extremely happy. You were more than ready for what was awaiting the two of you.
„Is this real?” you asked. He looked into your eyes and nodded slowly. You put your head on his chest and everything around you was quiet. It was like the time stopped so you could enjoy that moment a little longer. „I love you.” you said and he kissed your forehead. „I love you too.” He whispered, lowering his head to kiss you.
And God blessed you two with a baby. A little boy that had your eyes and Jimin's cuteness. His birth made the two of you extremely happy, that you finally had your own family... and now everything is going downhill. He had just two years. How could he explain to his little baby that his mother was dead? That what the kids were going to say at school... was true? How could he say that to a kid in a future? How?
The day at the funeral he couldn’t come near your family. To see everyone so destroyed was again, painful, but to see the coffin lowered into the grave was tearing his heart apart. To see you for the last time, in a coffin, was making him dizzy and he knew that if he came near, he would cry. He could never accept that you were not coming back. You were always going to be alive in his heart. You were his heart.
Your boy couldn't even be there, he was with Jimin’s parents at their home. He was too little to understand anything. Everyday he would ask where you were, when you are going to come home and if you were bringing candy. And all Jimin could say was that you went to look for the most delicious candies in the world. How could he take his child, your child, at his mother funeral?
One week after the funeral, when the boys dragged him out of the apartment, he would feel incomplete, because he was surrounded with couples... happy couples that looked just like the two of you together. Everything was so painful. Even looking in the showcase of a shop was painful, because he was thinking about all the things that you liked. That night when he came home, he cried. He cried like a baby that lost his candy, but he had lost his flower, his power... his everything. He knew that you were never going to come back and that thing scared him even more. He knew that the only person that loved him unconditionally was gone and now he had no one to support him.
The apartment was no longer „home”... it was just a place where he had to go at the end of the day. The apartment was protecting him from the world around him, but was also his hell, torturing him. What was worse was that he didn't want to change anything in it, because that made him remember you. And as bad as he wanted to not suffer anymore, he wasn't ready to let you go. He would never be ready for that... Everything was in the same place, even your clothes, hoping that if everything remained the same...one day you would enter the house and would say that everything was just a bad dream... a nightmare.
One year had passed and Jimin was at your grave. The place where he would come everyday with a pink rose. The photo of you had faded and your face was blurred. Tears started to form in his eyes, but no... he couldn't cry. He had to be strong for Dae-Jung, the three years old boy with a charming smile.
„Hi baby!” he whispered. „I hope thay you are happy in the sky. I hope that you are proud of us... and will support me and our little boy in everything.” he said, bitting the inside of his cheek, trying to hold in the tears that were threatening to fall.
„This may be the last time that we see each other this year. I hope that you are not mad at me for being a bad boyfriend or husband. I hoped that we could live together until we were old, but sometimes what you think, doesn’t happen. I wanted to take you all around the world, to visit the places that you always wanted to see. I wanted to build a house with a large backyard and a big kitchen as you always dreamed. Do you remember when we had that fight about what color our baby's room should be? How silly and in love we were.” he said, reliving everything.
„I know that one day we will meet again. Just wait for me, ok baby?” he asked, looking at the sky and hoping that you were going to answer. „I will be your Jimin, again. I love you.” he finished, putting the rose on the grave and not looking back, afraid that he would break down.
He knew that when everything would be finished, he would come to a empty apartment and nobody would be there for him. Nobody to kiss, hug or comfort him, because nobody could be you. He had to fight with his demons for his son, your son. Because he wanted to make you proud in the sky. He wanted to keep you alive by rising your swhenin the best way he could.
Later that night seven men and one boy entered a private airplane starting their tour around the world. Nobody knew that behind one of the boy smile was a sea of pain. Nobody knew that he was hatting himself and that he hoped that he would die every day. Nobody knew that he was on the verge of breaking down, but he had to be strong for his boy...your boy. Maybe he won’t come to your grave for a time, because he was in the other part of the world, but you would always be there... in his heart. Because you were the only woman that he loved and despite everything, you gave him everything that he could ever want. Now, you lived through your son.
You would always be his everything... and nothing could change that.
You’re my once in a lifetime person... for me, seeing your face light up with joy is better than getting a chance to experience it. Some may say it’s the least you could do.. but for me it’s everything.
