first thought, best thought

obsessed w myself / 20 / new paltz

[bubitch-blog]

i’ve always been anxious and i’ve always been depressed but never so much have i felt that there is a built up wall of trauma and emotion that i’ve refused to deal with that is blocking me from being any bit creative or passionate or truly exploring myself and my life and i am ready to knock the wall down i feel so whole heartedly ready to process through my experiences and move on but i can’t drag myself much further out of this rut without help and i can’t find a therapist i feel comfortable talking to and it seems like there is nothing more terrifying than knowing you are ready and capable of growth but being trapped in your own mind and having to rely on yourself to pull you out

[wnq-writers]

Sometimes you can love somebody with all of your heart and at the same time – NOT want them back. Everything has a breaking point – hearts included… and when it comes to broken hearts there’s only so many times you can piece yourself back together before you realize you can’t go through it any more. You continue to love them, despite all of their flaws and the pain they’ve caused you…. But you don’t want them back because you realize deep down there’s no such thing as back. Not back in time to undo everything that was said and done…. And not back together again because you’re not the same person anymore. You’ve been hurt so many times now that you’d rather break your own heart missing them – than give them the opportunity to do it again.

Ranata Suzuki | You’ve Hurt Me Too Much (via wordsnquotes)

[wordsnquotes]

Sometimes, I’m the mess. Sometimes, I’m the broom. On the hardest days, I have to be both.

Rudy Francisco (via wordsnquotes)

[bubitch-blog]

I'm not surprised. I knew the day would come. I'm sure there have been other girls since me. This is just the first one I'm hearing about. I hope you're different now. I hope love is not something you use to wring the necks of those closest to you. I hope you no longer sit back and watch as your mental illness and refusal to deal with it squeezes the life out of her. I hope you never tell her that her actions are the reason you want to slit your wrists. I hope you never try to slit your wrists in her bedroom. I hope you never expect her to live up to the make believe version of her you've designed in your head. I hope you have a therapist. I hope you take your meds. I hope she's smarter than me. I hope she sees through you like I wasn't able to. I hope she is never scared of you like I was. I hope she never blames herself. I hope she does what's best for her. I hope she runs like hell. I hope you don't break her.

[wordsnquotes]

When a thing has served its purpose, it will go away. If you try to hold on to something that has already fulfilled its purpose in your life, you are going to hurt yourself. If holding on is disturbing your peace of mind, it makes sense to let go. Surrender all attachments to people and things that you have been struggling to hold on to.

Iyanla Vanzant (via wordsnquotes)

[bunchofbloom]

x

[anarcho-smarmyism]

even if Trump backs down on his more batshit policies he still:

has a violently homophobic vp

has an entire cabinet full of fascist, authoritarian actual politicians 

best case scenario will be used as a puppet for a Republican House and Senate

ran a campaign on white nationalism and popularized these ideas in modern-day American culture, resulting in many hatecrimes already and more to come

fucked us all over

will not be forgiven for it

[stillhereunfortunately]

tumblr only has 10 levels and when youve completed all of them you have to delete. they are:

get 13 followers

argue with a random person

seen 1000 funny-ish jokes beaten to death in a matter of hours

feel exhausted by the sight of capital letters

get a gross message

block someone

seen that post about the reverse-albino lion

met up irl with a mutual 

given up

hate the whole website

[thelovejournals]

If you want to forget something or someone, never hate it, or never hate him/her. Everything and everyone that you hate is engraved upon your heart; if you want to let go of something, if you want to forget, you cannot hate.

C. JoyBell C.  (via thelovejournals)

[benepla-deactivated20180521]

fuckin gmail is a real friend not like u fake friends

[wordsnquotes]

I am not a graceful person. I am not a Sunday morning or a Friday sunset. I am a Tuesday 2am, I am gunshots muffled by a few city blocks, I am a broken window during February. My bones crack on a nightly basis. I fall from elegance with a dull thud, and I apologize for my awkward sadness. I sometimes believe that I don’t belong around people, that I belong to all the leap days that didn’t happen. The way light and darkness mix under my skin has become a storm. You don’t see the lightning, but you hear the echoes.

Anna Peters (via wordsnquotes)

[middle-eastt]

This is the type of news I like waking up to :’)

[wallahharam-deactivated20200527]

✊🏽✊🏽✊🏽

[myconfusinglife2-deactivated202]

Why everybody gotta hate on Israel?

[anarchopupgirl]

Funnily enough, colonialism, war crimes, rabid nationalism and genocide aren’t very popular.

[homoluigi]

Also all the Israeli Olympians are members or veterans of the Israeli military (this is an assumption since service is compulsory) so refusing to interact with the members of an extremely aggressive terrorist group operating in your back yard is absolutely fair.

[foodffs]

OREO BROOKIE LAYER CAKE

Really nice recipes. Every hour.

Show me what you cooked!

[ecolephoto]

Harbour Vibes

[fuckkkkkkkktumblah-deactivated2]

omfg

[kaijuno]

I’m just super fucking bitter that once the flint water crisis got it’s 15 minutes of fame people stopped giving a shit. The water is still poisoned, people! Donations have plummeted and people have been forced back into drinking and bathing with the water! The medical effects of this are astounding, cases of legionnaires disease have skyrocketed, people are having seizures, people are having weird rashes break out over their body, people (including me!) are having their blood poisoned, and it’s not just lead! it’s coliform bacteria! it’s THMs! it’s all in the water and it gets into the bloodstream and breaks down blood vessels, causing bruising and petechiae and internal bleeding and no one gives a shit anymore and it’s only gotten worse like how many people are going to have to die until people realize this is still a problem

[thequotejournals]

I am made and remade continually. Different people draw different words from me.

Virginia Woolf, The Waves (via thequotejournals)