joan⁎

20 y/o they/she lesbian. watching btvs for the first time @ s3

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ଳ⋆.࿔* hello im joan my pronouns r they/she and im 20

watching btvs for the first time and wanted a place to blog abt it so that is this place. i like media analysis & thinking abt things too hard so maybe there will be some of that too. no promises tho.

currently watching: season 3

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nobody told me buffy had a lesbian selfcest episode. this shit rocks.

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i really appreciate consequences for putting more light onto faith's.. let's say promiscuity, in a harsher lens. we've known pretty much from the very beginning that faith is to be seen as a very sexual character; that she is someone who sees, wants, and takes. what consequences finally brings to light is that last part, that she "sees, wants, takes, forgets." that she uses sexuality as escapism, as a mechanism, rather than her purported desire.

in wake of something traumatic — the killing that happened in bad girls — faith seeks to both escape and recreate trauma; she denies, she blames, she covers things up, she takes it out physically. most importantly she recreates the violence of that event when she chokes xander, whilst she's discussing and simulating sex. the connections between violence, sex, sexual violence, and slayerism become tangible (though this is not to say they weren't present before in metaphor) in this instance, and (i think) can serve to contextualize faith's connection to slayerism through allegorical sexual violence.

of course, i'm writing this as i go (i just finished watching consequences) so perhaps this may be (dis)proven later on, but all through this episode i couldn't help but think...

[vampirewillowrosenberg]

I feel the earth beneath my feet

Sorry it's censored, Tumblr will literally not let me post the original. You can find it on Ao3 :)

[excerpto]

Im pretty sure every single media ever is about child abuse so mark that down

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only pain for buffy!

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FUFFY CANON

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if i had a dollar for each of my blorbos whose love interest hallucinated having sex with them...

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ykw i really really liked lovers walk and it might even be up there in some of my favourite episodes thus far except it has sooooo so much xander/willow nonsense. genuinely was anyone asking for that.

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spike on fire set to the benny hill theme for your viewing pleasure

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parallels i made up because i have mental illness part 2

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you can tell xander harris genuinely believes he deserves to live

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parallels i made up in my head because i have mental problems

[crimeboys]

the worst part of getting into new media is when youre at the stage where youre completely obsessed with it but you cant go through the tags or seek out anything about it bc youre not fuckiny done yet

[buffytism]

i have known faith for 1 singular episode and i've already convinced myself that she + buffy are #thetext