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She/It || I like adler. || 20 Comms OPEN || Reqs okay !! art tag ♡

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I've got a lotttt of spare time since I'll be on break so I'm tentatively opening up one comm slot with a waitlist! DM me if interested :>

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jacques is tormenting me by making me draw him and his fuck ass horse

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Local Keeper discovers day drinking and cosplay (heartwarming)

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men will be condemned to the dark aether and be like is it because I'm left handed :(? NO BITCH ITS THE HORSE.

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Commission for my bestest oomf @buggiiguts I will be refunding this in a month be ready uwu

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POV you're Bell

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Knowing oomf decided to play Tranzit, exited the station and made a b-line for the fog instead of getting on the bus.

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Playing tranzit and hearing Ted honk the bus horn five million times I genuinely might be special idk why I ran into the fog without hesitation the first time

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@spenglerpedia on tumblr dot com called me a fake black ops zombies fan for liking bo7 Dempsey spat on my face and called me a slur

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cod zombies oc for bo7 that does not rlly make any logistical sense but praying mantis burlesque go brrrrr

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My only contribution to the zombies fandom will be this

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I promise I'm not dead just horrifically terrible with art still so have some Bo6 Bell outfits (I still have like 5 more to go)

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I am actually like 85 years late to this fandom but BO Cold war OC concepts 👉👈

(She mostly for BO6 actually cause I ship her with Felix but yknowwwwww)

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wish i had the capacity to be human. unfortunately ☝️ the curse

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The oomfs for my oomf @buggiiguts

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I think something that bugs me about Liliya (besides how jumbled her design is), is that I wish she was more in-line with her Joan of Arc theming. Or to put it simply. I wish she was French.

Important disclaimer, I enjoy Outlast Trials I want for this game to succeed, I have literally gotten at least 8 different people to buy this game, my opinions are my opinions and not in bad faith, etc etc. At first I didn't really get the Project Messiah catalogue themeing, until it finally clicked in my mind that the cover and the knight-like skins are referencing Joan of Arc, and it was with this discovery that I kind of realized how much I wished Liliya had leaned into this aspect of her character rather than what actually happened.

The concept of a woman in the 1940s being a Joan of Arc esque character is interesting !! And I really wished they had leaned into this visually with her design because besides her comic there's very little visual indication that she is meant to be this kind of figure. Besides a recent concept art post that is incredibly invocative of The Entombment of Christ and Pieta, I don't even really get a religious vibe from her.

And while I understand her design is more cult leaning than Roman Catholic, a lot of her imagery in trials is inherently more traditional Catholicism. In addition to this I guess I'm just kind of confused as to why she's Russian in the first place. Maybe this is because I'm putting too much weight on her and her Joan of Arc imagery but I feel as if it would've been more fitting for her to be French. Not just because Joan was also French but also France was obviously also occupied by Nazis during WW2. Russia was as well obviously, but it just feels very out of left field to have a lot of her inspiration come from the patron saint of France and then just make her Russian while also not really drawing on any real WW2 history.

Anyways at the end of the day I think my issues with Liliya is that her design and aesthetics feel very all over the place. She's Russian with Joan of Arc themes, she's a religious figure that draws on Roman Catholic imagery while being dressed like a dominatrix/gimp, her tongue was cut out, she's both feral but also a composed enough speaker to rally people to her cause and to suicide if she so chooses. It's a mess. It's a mess and the concept of a 1940s Joan of Arc is so fucking cool and I'm sad that it got mashed in with a bunch of contradictory themes.