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"prego"

"why did you lie to nora?"

"maybe i should be asking you out"

"do you really consider me to be in your life?"

"for you"

"aht lo leh vahd"

"i want whatever you want, whatever you need"

"a very fond farewell'

"i can change with you"

"she was my family"

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Reposting Update

In February, I started what I referred to as "My Reposting Journey," which is just me finally putting all my NCIS/Tiva fics scattered across the internet in one location, i.e. Ao3.

It's July and I've reposted 18 stories. Pretty cool. Should be more, but I've had sucky RL stuff sidetrack me. Grief is a beyotch.

Things I've asked myself along the way: "why not just throw everything up at once? these aren't NEW - who do you think you are posting them as if they're something special?" As you can tell, my negative intrusive thoughts are alive and kicking.

One reason is that I read through the fics before posting, mostly for editing purposes. But it's also been instructive. It's a gift to view my stories as an outsider of sorts. I've picked up on recurring themes I didn't know were there, common motivations that I use for certain characters. These reflections are helping me look at current wips through the lens of my collective bibliography and channel that energy.

Another reason I've posted them over time is that I was hoping this process would encourage me to write, which has and hasn't happen, though 2 new works is better than nothing. But there's still time and more fics to post.

If you're interested in my journey, follow along here!

Here are a few recent reposts w/ fun visuals:

Interlude (Tiva; piano lessons in the summer after S10)

Loyalty (Tiva; missing scene for "Frame-Up")

Tradition (Tiva; post-S11 reunion)

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I just want you to come home… with me…

bulletproof-eyes

Ok but the “I can change with you” is HEARTBREAKING when you think about it. He really was out there ready to change his whole life for her

killrisma

“Ken wouldn’t do that to Barbie, it’s out of character!” Babes, that is the point.

Ken and his discovery of the patriarchy and the way it changes him is the exact same as what happens with adolescent boys. You have these guys who were so close to you, wether through friendship or family become people that they aren’t due to both peer pressure and the desire to hold power. Especially with the whole “podcast bro” thing he had going on in the Ken Dojo Casa House scene, Ken represents all the boys that lean into the patriarchy and change for the worst.

Ken was always so sweet, he was stupid and lovable and would do anything for Barbie. Then he got roped into toxic masculinity and all of a sudden he was cruel and pretentious. This is the same path that many of the guys I was friends with as a kid fell down. Barbie represents growing up as a woman and Ken represents growing up as a man.

tivaforgood

Personal space? Yeah… they’ve never heard of it.

onscreenkisses

NCIS, 11x02 - “Past, Present, and Future”

farmigafever

LIKE C'MON THAT WOMAN CONTRIBUTED TO THIS

irish-trish

Tony&Ziva AU | Tony Tells McGee

irish-trish

Don’t mind me..

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Tony & Ziva Caps: Season 10 Episode 21

ihatethenciswritingteam

I hate to post this again………… but you’re meaning to tell me that they were looking at each other like this and they claimed they WERE NOT smashing like???????? Ain’t no way that worked on ANYONE