Upstart

This is only the beginning.

[bumblehazard]

3728

A small orange menace is testing me

after a long day with fun animals

a grey tree frog this morning

three fawns (including one the dogs chased)

and a road raccoon

plus the baby chicken lying on the bench

[bumblehazard]

3727

Today, I am 35.

Unremarkable as far as days go.

Sick at home, worked, walked, built a felt cat condo.

Might have a hint of taste coming back.

[bumblehazard]

3726

A level of support I have not experienced

would never expect

[bumblehazard]

3725

It’s an odd benchmark

for friends largely absent

and I choose to spend my energy elsewhere.

[bumblehazard]

3724

Grateful for co-existing intermingled moral compasses.

[bumblehazard]

3723

We are doing what we can

resourcing

serving

staying when no one else has.

An exhausting cycle with revolving players.

[bumblehazard]

3722

For a little treat

we go to bed at 8:30

NyQuil for the throat glass

and overriding Olive’s repeat barks of the night before

[bumblehazard]

3721

Turns out, I’m here

doing the thing I have been working toward for 2.5 years intentionally

much longer, universally.

A real trip of a realization.

6/3/26

[bumblehazard]

3720

An arsonist and the new kid meet

tears ensue,

the psychopath or the first-timer?

I held eye contact through it all

setting expectations full of limits

soon to be tested.

[bumblehazard]

3719

And to prioritize me.

Eating, drinking,

taking breaks

naps

studying.

[bumblehazard]

3718

I don’t know if I can take it in anymore

the similarities in aspects

gore

violence

fear

rage.

I need wholesome

kindness

thoughtfulness

light.

[bumblehazard]

3717

Sacred work.

Planting, weeding, watering, protecting, planning

Together

[bumblehazard]

3716

It’s always worth it to spend time with the loved ones,

however long the drive

and short the visit

[bumblehazard]

3715

A day of growing into myself

Teaching and learning together

With zero of the aggressive nerves of the past.

Just a deep knowing

further recognition that now is a means to an end

and then, I do what I mean to do

am meant to do.

[bumblehazard]

3714

Relaxing feels physically impossible

my stomach a ball of stress

and my back entirely knots.

I need a lot of deep sleep

a hot bath

food made by someone else

(Widji 5/27)

[bumblehazard]

3713

Hunger, explained

Exhaustion, current and future

A deep need to fulfill every obligation

regardless of personal needs.

[bumblehazard]

3712

A few snips for clarity and sight.