the ship that ruined my life – why sukugo is the best ship on the planet
i finally read the manga
hello everybody. i am taking the talking conch for a moment to share with you something from deep in my soul. it took me a whole year, but i did it. i binged 10 volumes in a night, high off my mind on caffeine, and went through the five stages of fucking grief and terrible anguish to make this. i cannot emphasize enough how much this means to me. this ship has ruined me. i put my head down at night and think of them. i open my eyes in the morning and see them. fighting. kissing. fucking. in my mind’s garden, amongst the weeds and bullshit growing, there is a tall bush, big and thick like sukuna’s musty ass. a rose bush. with thorns and nasty bullshit. i throw myself in there and roll around like a pig in shit. it is my sukugo bush. with flowers so pretty but hurt so good. there is not a worm in my mind that has not been infected by it. i try to get away, but it calls to me like a sex-line hooker in the middle of the night, dick in hand, just need that fix to finish – the sweet, crack-addled whisperings. i say, no. do not tempt me whore. whore. i am good today. today im different. you will take no more from me. by night, im in the fetal position, surrounded by gay drawings and evidence of fujo sin.
sukugo is a calamity that happened to me. here is why.
pre-manga arc (schizophrenic fangirling, delusions of grandeur, mentally unwell online)
i regret nothing
i had always known there was something here. always. even before birth. there’d been rumblings of this ship i believe in the stone ages; i think einstein said sukuna wanted to pound gojo’s ass, that’s a real quote, you can look it up. the first sukugo fanart was actually painted on a cave by the early fujo, believe it or not.
bullshit aside, the exact moment where i knew this ship would be a thing is here:
from the very fucking beginning, my fate was sealed. the smug whispering in his ear??? teasing him, then manhandling him? tossing the sukuna salad around. like a ragdoll. sukuna’s smug reaction???? this is the exact moment where my fujo senses lit up, and i knew exactly what kind of meal we were being served. it was all downhill from here. oh yeah. we touchin tips 2nite.
i would often come on here and blow my load as i do, just talk shit with no idea what the fuck i was talking about, but the spirit was absolutely there. but now im informed. i am enlightened. thus bringing us to our next section, the most important and big horny one ->
the gay ass fight (tags: fighting as foreplay, voyeurism)
and you did it at my birthday dinner
this is where this shit becomes undeniable, and if you try to tell me im wrong, no YOU’RE WRONG, FUCK YOU!!! sukugo became canon to me in this fight, and as someone who had shipped them for over a year before reading this, i’ll be honest, i was afraid. i had my doubts that the canon would confirm my shipping. what if i had made it all up in my head. what if i was wrong. after binge reading so many chapters to get here, my morale was getting low.
well, it turns out this shit was even gayer than i had imagined, and i was soooooo fucking bricked up the entire time. fujo pig in yaoi shit. let’s unpack it
size queen gojo confirmed.
how they talk to each other
while they are opponents, they dont speak to each other like enemies.
there’s teasing, flirting. there’s CAMARADERIE. right off the bat, they seem almost fond of each other. it’s a part of gojo’s personality to flirt, and sukuna is cocky and receptive to it (if inadvertently). and that, is CHEMISTRY!!!!!!!
they’re like the fucking weirdos that get on everyone else’s nerves because they fucking talk weird, so full of themselves, but once they meet each other it’s like an immovable force meeting an unstoppable object and they never shut up trying to big dick each other. only this time everyone has to sit through it because they happen to be the strongest in their universe. objectively, i find this ship to be hilarious. idk they have annoying unc energy. yuji watching his teacher flirt with his uncle after committing crimes against humanity while they beat each other’s ass 👁️👄👁️ (why do they look like they’re enjoying this)
see? even gojo agrees :3 (with that cute ass smile he gave him)
and more on that, they seek each other’s approval multiple times during their fight.
perhaps a praise? is there a praise you have to say to me? i learned this super cool technique just for you i showed you my dick haha, please respond. it’s so so so so so so cute how they keep trying to impress each other and fish for compliments and approval. like they finally found someone on their level, and they want to show each other the super cool moves they never get to bust out. very cute, very ‘look at this cool trick i learned i cant even show the others, they’re too stupid to get it’ ‘oh yeah, that? well i know one better hmph, look at this one’.
HMPH ME FIGHTING HARD?! NUH UH NOT ME I DIDNT EVEN SWEAT, FUCK YOU!! they are so juvenile and stunted, they truly match each other’s level emotionally.
the constant mentions of love and their shared isolation.
the obvious implication is that gojo is the only one who can teach sukuna about love because he’s the only one who can relate to him. when yuji tried to ‘show him the light,’ sukuna wasn’t receptive to it, because he doesnt respect or like yuji. he couldn’t care less about yorozu. but with gojo he actually seems curious. yuji’s way pissed him off, but the way that gojo showed him actually made him happy and “cleared his skies”. that’s because gojo speaks sukuna’s language, so to speak.
so yes, it does seem like gojo is the only one able to get through to sukuna and show him ‘love’. and that does translate well into romantic/shipping contexts. also it doesnt help the gay allegations that the love concept was brought up in a clearly romantic context from yorozu, then transferred to gojo lol. just the sequence of events blurs the lines.
did he literally tap his forehead with the traffic light? ptnk…? they have fought each other brainless. why is this fight very cute to me.
how they choose to touch each other
choosing intimate places to grab him, thigh, hand holding. i dont want to flood this with too many manga panels (even tho this is fair use, im trying to cover my ass a little. obv i do not own jjk or these manga panels, pls go to proper sources to read the full fight, there is much more than this!!), but they both wrap their legs around each other. gojo fists sukuna’s hair, bringing him into his neck. i mean, even just typing it sounds erotic.
AND IM NOT EVEN GOING TO MENTION THE HUG, BUT THE FUCKING HUG, WE ALL KNOW IT AND HOW I FEEL ABOUT IT, THE FACT HE LEG LOCKED HIM AS WELL FUCKING MAKES ME CRAZY, another key evidence of this being a just oddly intimate way of fighting each other.
it’s very playful. if i were to describe fighting as foreplay to someone, i’d just direct them here (or naruto vs sasuke). if either of them were a woman, it’d read as sexually perverse.
7 minutes in heaven with your rival
i would be cash money to see what was going on in that little domain, “too small for one person” with them stuffed in there. all pressed together fighting. hot sweaty bodies. grunting in each other’s ear. like a gay washing machine. i’ve got a boner.
look at his fucking face after being in there with him, feeling his tight little ass on him fucking meaty twunk body, getting pummeled for the first time in his life he enjoyed that so fucking much can no one see how intimate and life changing this was for him to be wrapped up in a little domain with another man and slapped around, he’s so fucking horny for that shit look at that big ass fucking smile. this man is a fucking sadomasochist and the only one up for the task is satoru gojo; he chased that high until his big stupid ass got slimed, opened my skies more like opened my fucking cheeks satoru gojo let’s do it again baby take me to your tight bdsm chamber- i mean domain haha i wanna fuck- i mean fuck i mean fuck i mean fight, hahahaha you rascal you gave me a fucking boner you bitch.
how they talk about each other to others
enough to make his ex jealous
this is a huge part of why it works for me. because not only is sukuna receptive to gojo and curious, gojo expresses interest in wanting to show him love. his conversation with suguru confirmed it as mutual. he even was disappointed in himself that he hadn’t shown sukuna a better fight. he says he wanted to convey everything to him, again mentions love…even in the short time they interacted, he felt enough of a connection to sukuna that he cared to that extent.
also, side note, suguru’s “im jealous, but as long as you’re satisfied, im happy”, like what is this ex-lover’s coded conversation lol
psychoanalysis - why it’d work in the longrun
happily married in another life
Satoru’s Dubious Morals (turning a blind eye to wrongdoing)
why sukugo isnt a typical “enemies to lovers”, good vs bad trope
gojo doesnt seem very concerned at all with sukuna’s evil deeds. kirara even mentions that it seems he’s forgotten that he’s even fighting with megumi’s body during the fight. even after he’s lost, when talking with geto he doesn’t express distaste for sukuna. he does not seem to regard him at all like an enemy, but as an opponent. that goes to what kashimo said about their fight. how this fight was for satoru’s sake. it was personal.
shoko, the one who knows satoru best out of the cast present, even comments that satoru is a bit shady. while satoru is a man of principle and “by the book”, it is by his own book. he doesnt have a boner for justice. he’s not like yuuji. even megumi, who was practically raised by gojo says himself that he (megumi) is not like yuuji in regards to morality, in fact it seems he’s only a do-gooder because of his sister’s influence, not satoru, as she’s the one pops into his mind when he chooses to do good instead of bad. the lecturing we see from satoru to megumi is not about being good, it’s about becoming strong.
and remember how he responded to geto’s departure from jujutsu society. he never lectures geto on his morals. in fact, he seemed less upset about the morality of the path geto chose, just that it didnt include him in it. (🥺 poor baby. even on the day he killed the elders, he was upset that he was left behind. geto, you dog.)
all of this to say, satoru is not concerned with morals in a typical heroic, upstanding way. he just happens to be on the ‘good’ side and very powerful. in fact, the people who seem to annoy him most are boring, weak people (i wonder who he has that in common with).
like his character sheet says, “he marches to the beat of his own drum”.
Sukuna’s Sexuality
sukuna doesn’t seem interested in women or sex in a conventional way. he never had a wife or children. if he and gojo ever got together i could see it as a service top situation. even if Satoru wanted to have sex with others, he seems like he’d be fine with it. like he’d see it as equivalent to jerking off. As sexy as it would be if it were the case, Sukuna doesn’t seem like the jealous type. I do think he’d get a bit competitive if Satoru started sparring with someone “better” tho. He would probably want to set himself back as the strongest. Strength seems to be where his pride lies. But i digress.
There’s a high probability that Sukuna’s a virgin, simply because he never felt like having sex. More evidence of this is that condoms were not a thing in the Heian Era, and again, he never had kids or a wife (if he had offspring, they’d likely be mentioned in some way due to how powerful they’d be). He’s likely never kissed anyone.
A part of me does feel Sukuna would get a taste of sex with Satoru and be really, really into it. Like not just sex but making love to someone. I wrote about it a bit in my fic before, but i do think a big part of why he doesn’t value love is because he’s never felt it.
it would be very cute if Satoru was his first time. very very cute. like obviously sukuna is curious about love, no matter how much he denies it, he keeps talking about it. it’s just so cute to imagine him getting curious enough to let satoru show him how to love and make love. i feel like satoru would be very amused by it but also really gentle. like in the airport conversation, he seems to care about sukuna’s feelings. i feel like a relationship between them would be really dependent on having them learn how to feel things, specifically sukuna
also satoru is good at everything he does including sex so he’d show sukuna a good time hehehehe
i could make a separate post on sukuna and the philosophies i feel he embodies. at first i took him to be very hedonistic (he is) but after reading and pondering i think he just barely touches the edge of stoicism. he so fucking damaged and stubborn though. he doesn’t need gojo, girl he needs Marcus Aurelius. Epictetus and a hug would fix him. More on this later if i havent escaped the fucking prison that is jjk fuck my fucking life.
Shared Approach to Life
Just very briefly, they both are very carefree. Something that struck me about Gojo to this day is that when he gets sealed in the prison realm, he doesn’t worry at all. Just fiddles with his blindfold and says “oh well, I’m sure it’ll work out”. Sukuna would probably say the same. They both just don’t seem to care much when shit goes down, because neither of them have had to worry due to their immense power.
They both march to the beat of their own drum, and their beats harmonize.
Summary/TLDR:
they’re on the same emotional wavelength
they play with each other and don’t get bored,
they like touching each other ~intimately~,
they made a big enough impact on each other to talk about them when they’re not there,
satoru seems like he’d overlook sukuna’s wrongdoings enough to have a relationship,
if there’s anyone who would break through sukuna’s stubbornness regarding love, it’s gojo, and he expressed interest in doing so.
when defeated sukuna says he’d choose a different path if there’s a next life, so there is some glimmer of humanity there
overall they just seem very fond of each other. they have fun together. it is CUTE TO ME!!! OKAY>!?!
they have all the foundations of true love that they don’t or can’t have with anyone else and they naturally gravitate towards each other 🙂 romantic or not, they’re soulmates! <3 honestly, there is so much more i could have put in here, but i had to cut myself off at a certain point.
final thoughts:
i dont think im getting over this…like ever. this ship really touches something deep in me. maybe because i admire and crave this kind of love deep down hahaha :P sukugo is my roman empire. and im perfectly fine with that.
thanks for reading if you made it this far!! <3 xoxo
Something I feel like isn't talked about often with very powerful characters like Sukuna and Gojo is how emotionally stunted their power enabled them to be. Like when those girls offended Sukuna and he essentially went "hmph, don't tell me what to do >:(" and killed them. Gojo's antics and childish ways are tolerated because he's the strongest even tho much of the cast is annoyed by him. Sukuna is disfigured and was likely outcasted for his looks before his power outcast him to a pedestal instead of a laughing stock. Gojo is spoiled and cocky which ultimately led to his downfall. I still haven't read the manga yet so I'm not sure what happens with Sukuna yet, but I'm sure there's some poetic bullshit there too in how things end up for him (in my pussy). They truly are a match made in hell and very much operate on the same level. Just by their nature I don't see anyone connecting with either of them as deeply as with each other. 99.99% of potential romantic interests see them as ceo mafia doms when they are the brattiest brats that ever bratted enabled by big daddy pimp gege mothering them from his shonen-yaoi brained tit, big mommy milkers
Is there really a difference between the weak bullied outcasts of society and the ones placed high above it if neither of them have a seat at the table. Is the isolation not still painful. I guess it feels better to cry in a lambo than on the streets
RAHHHHH i love his personality SO MUCHHH, and his story quest was great, i liked the theme of how his kidnapping and his relationship to his parents shaped his need for power and control into adulthood, i deeply related to how amongst of all the crying kids in captivity he just stood there internalizing it very differently. how he saw the kidnapping as his own weakness when in truth it was something awful that was done to him at no fault of his own of course.
my baddies who internalized feeling weak and developed an incessant need to be strong so no one could hurt you again, STAND!!! (and get some therapy perhaps...maybe throw a xan in the routine occasionally...with peace and love <3)
and i also really liked the ending in how he decided to follow a better path and ignore the cruel voice the trauma had created in his head. and ACCEPTING that he was never going to be the strongest in their universe, but still "ordinary people...we have our own battles to fight too" ("ordinary people" by Lohen's definition basically being people who are...mortal. this fuckin guy lol).
anyway, i also love his relationship with Varka, my fucking king. Varka understands his antics and still looks at him fondly ugh it just hits my soul, i could sit down to a six course meal of their interactions.
also, his relationship with diluc was a pleasant surprise!! they were trying to out edgelord each other and was very cute because they're basically the same person in different shoe sizes.
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