i though i should make an intro post so I’m making one :3
my name is Evie, but you can call me burger north if you’d like :3
i go by any pronouns, honestly just use whatever one you think is funniest to use in any given situation :)
i am an artist! i draw and whatnot, but i dont post my art super often <:3
Fair warning, I am extremely possessive and jealous, so I will get a bit pissy when I see people shipping/crushing on characters I really like, BUT I will get over it eventually, I've got mobile games to play :)
I AM INCREDIBLY OBSESSED WITH DIB FROM INVADER ZIM!!!
it is actually kind of unhealthy how much i love him
but i do like other stuff!!
some fandoms i’m into
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Hlvrai (half live vr but the ai is self aware)
undertale
deltarune
Tadc (the amazing digital circus)
invader zim (obviously)
rick and morty
five nights at freddys
gravity falls
Cookie run kingdom
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i have been in so many fandoms that i cant name them all, but here are some fandoms that i have previously been EXTREMELY into
my hlvrai au where it's a TikTok Livestream and Everytime you send gifts Gordon had to do a little dance and everyone is aware of it and it really sucks for him to do because he gets shocked if he doesn't do it and everyone's really uncomfortable
Times I thought I found a nice community online but I actually didn't and I am stupid
in no particular order
Number one
Back when weirdcore was popular I made a parody of it with some comics I made on Pixart, their was a popular artist in the community that was making a actual comic that involved weirdcore, I added one of their characters to the comic and they liked it and we quickly became kind of friends? more like just friendly mutuals. Anyway, at some point, they made a voice claims video for their characters, and I jokingly commented, saying that I was the voice claim for the slug character (didn't have any voicelines), they liked my comment and I responded to my own comment, saying “the creator liked it so it’s Cannon!” and they liked that comment too. sometime later, I joined the Discord, and at some point, I mentioned how I was the canon voice of the slug (who still had no voicelines) and then somebody else piped up, saying that no actually they were! which was confusing since I didn’t expect to argue about who voices the voiceless character, in a comic might I add. and unexpectedly, the creator sided with them??? apparently they had been chosen as the voice of the slug before me,,, somehow,,, even though I had commented that I was the voice of the slug very early on in the comics development. this was a weird thing to get mildly upset about, but also I was like 15? it was odd that they were so defensive over being the voice of the slug. Honestly, I just found it kind of confusing, because I liked these people and it felt odd immediately getting into a slight argument over something so stupid. I don’t think I ever really talked in that server again after that, and I also kind of stopped making comics and talking to the creator. So that sucked :(
Number two
at some point when I believe I was a little bit older I joined this Roblox myth server, (yes all of these involve Discord), and I was accepted as one of the myths (yippee!), I was decently liked in the server and I talked pretty often and I was kind of buddy-buddy with the server owner, we didn’t really do anything at all because the server owner was still making the whole game where all the “myth activities” would happen, but we did have a group! I think maybe it was a year later and the map still hadn’t been built and all the sudden the owner decided that they were going to revamp everything, including the myths. so obviously I reapplied because I liked the server and I wanted to be a part of it since I never really got to do anything with the character that I had made. I ended up being rejected entirely, not even considered, and my role was revoked completely. I didn’t even get a lesser roll. I was kind of just in the server now not a part of any of the myth stuff, and I stopped really talking in the server at all, keep in mind that basically everyone else who was a myth was re-accepted.
Number three!
this one was a bit more recently, and I am slightly worried about saying anything about it since there is a little bit of the community on Tumblr, but still it’s a relatively small community. So there was this game called Backfirewall_ and it was incredibly niche. I found out about it on TikTok because of course. I joined the server before the game even came out, and I was very talkative in it and I posted lots of art! and I was never really that big in the community. I guess I just kind of thought that people liked me at first at least. I quickly found out though that every time I posted art I would get at most one or two responses and then nobody else would say anything. and as soon as anybody else posted art, they would get hordes of praise at first I thought that maybe it was because I was you know semi new to the server but after a while and new people joining and posting their art and getting lots of praise and compliments I just kind of stopped posting anything and just left the fandom.
The end
And my thoughts or whatever
Anyway, the moral of the story, I guess, is that maybe I’m a big baby who overreacted. Still, it sucked being in three separate communities that I thought liked me at least a little and then having that completely destroyed out of the blue. Nobody really said anything when I left, and nobody seemed to care. Maybe I am being dramatic, but it sucks a lot. More recently, I’ve heard of lots of people, especially on art discord servers, having their art completely ignored, just for somebody else to post and get a bunch of praise. So maybe out there on the vast Internet, somebody else has also been in three different communities that have just completely ignored you or made you feel entirely left out for no real reason. It doesn’t really matter in the long run. It didn’t affect me that much (I think), but I do wish I'd been able to join an Internet community at least once that didn’t completely throw me to the wayside; it kind of fucks with your self-esteem, you know?
But yeah, that was my rant. I made this while going to the bathroom. You didn’t need to know that, but I decided that I’m going to tell you anyway. I doubt anybody actually read this, but you know, it's nice to get this stuff out.
