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I'm kinda dumb

I am most definitely a masochist, what other explanation is there for the way I end up dating tall thin men that are way more physically fit than me, knowing full well in about 3 months they will lose attraction to me and finally go find the athletic princess they deserved?

Do I do this just to keep reinforcing to myself that I'm too fat and ugly to be loved, and every time I start to forget that I'm unloveable, the universe sweeps in with another boy to remind me.

I'm nothing

and I deserve nothing

But I will keep trying

Because I'm *stupid*

#mental health #fat girls #dating failure #i feel so unloveable

He has never initiated

He fucks me for a while, cums, and then gets off of me. He doesn’t ask me if I came. He doesn’t think I’m worth the effort.

The first few times we had sex he put effort into giving me head, touching me, all the wonderful things, and then it just died off

He acts like he has to force himself to touch me or he’s not fully in the moment with me.

Oh wait. The first few times he was high and or drunk. That explains it.

He really isn’t attracted to me is he

Being in a relationship with someone thin and fit is absolute hell. He loves me but he’s not attracted to me sexually. He jerks off regularly to gorgeous women in his phone but only gives me bare minimum once a week because I ask.

But he loves me deeply for my mind and my soul and my heart. He just doesn’t feel motivated to touch me.

I want to permanently end myself

#mental health #fat girls #sad relationship #sad facts

Who do you see when your eyes are closed?

When your dick is in my mouth

And your hand is in my hair

Who do I become?

You like my pussy, I know that much,

But no word yet on my body.

Does it change every time?

Or am I a recurring character?

Am I slender like you?