GAB

how’d that poem about chewing up pain and spitting it out go? something about how its not my thing anymore… (lol)

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yup, ok moving blogs…

melodrama-hours.tumblr.com

for those of you that actually care i guess

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im thinking its time to move blogs again. this one kinda has too much history maybe…

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ask and u shall RECEIVE 😮‍💨😮‍💨

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honestly i should stop crying, i just got sent [[REDACTED]] not even an hour after the fact and i hate to say it but i think I needed that LOL

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i feel so PATHETIC!!!

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[[visibly gagging]]

i hate this poem too but um. i gotta post it somewhere so its going where no one will really see it

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tfw you’re legitimately not okay and the one person you’d wanna talk about it with is just texting you about some stupid anime and even if they weren’t you wouldn’t be able to bring yourself to talk about it cause they’re going thru their own shit… ya lifes hard

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took you TWO DAYS to text me back and say that youre okay?? 😭😭😭 for WHY ive been worrying so much for WHAT

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went back to bed cause psyche’s feeling real fucked just to turn around and DREAM ABOUT IT?? 😭 pls is there no escape…

and to dream that it was just a “jk didnt mean it” moment and wakeup to reality… that shit hurt a little more than i shouldve i think 🥴

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damn… and on the first day of venus retrograde… holllyyyy fuck

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i should just private this all, this is embarrassing lolololol

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clown behavior on my part… truly

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im sorry but LITERALLY how do you go from “i want to get to know all of you” then five hours pass to wanting absolutely nothing???

actually. no. im trippin this is just how it was with ***** and i gotta just… shut up LOL

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anyway im spamming this blog i’ll shut up LOL

thoughts just be LOUD as the FUCK rn

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i think what sucks is like. normally i do that trope of what made me like them and what didn’t, but i just got nothing to say on things that made me not??? which is so confusing but i guess thats just how things are sometimes. gotta mantra that poem im talking abt in my blog desc & let that just be that LOL

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ugh… you live and you learn i guess

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thinkin back on how relieved i was about *** when i said some shit about “the cold comfort of knowing exactly what it will be: absolute silence” & i hate that im just not so certain about that this time around… so silly and vulnerable of me to be so… INTO someone but lord knows i’d be more fucked up if i was too afraid to let myself feel those feelings