Iām still vegan, but Iām reorienting my main thing to being dealing with my food addiction. If you donāt believe thatās a thing, have a problem with that, believe itās fatphobic, or just that the concept triggers you, feel free to unfollow. I can appreciate the arguments, there, but at this point im deeply afraid for my life. intuitive eating just feels like one of many diets that hasnāt worked for me. And really, itās one of those thatās made me feel physically worse instead of better. Like binging was supposed to be okay, and im sitting here mid 300s weight wise and struggling to breathe and walk normally. Much heavier (or much older) and Iāll have real problems. Im sure I have enough lasting damage already. I have to try and get a hang of this. This is my latest attempt to take it seriously- to try and divorce my desire to do it from idealizing thinness and focus more on the fact that the way im living, im making myself sick. Im hiding to eat things I shouldnāt. Im wrecking my system. Im missing my life for lack of energy and mobility.I need to make a major change. This is my latest attempt.