champagne dresses

sometimes it takes a little creativity and a leap of faith to convey meaning through cat emojis

[introvertproblemss]

[butterflysturnedtodust]

it has been a really great couple of weeks and i’ve felt happy and whole in ways that i don’t think i’ve ever felt before. but tonight i feel sad again. and i keep having to remind myself that pain is okay. i can be in pain and still be happy. i can have all these complicated feelings of grief and loss and still be excited about the future. life is more than one thing.

[butterflysturnedtodust]

Harold B. Lee Library, Alice Louise Reynolds Auditorium

F, April 12; 12:29p this auditorium feels holy; more than the tiny blue couch or the only group of people who knows the Truth, even more than the tears themselves. sitting in these chairs has healed me— this space is Mine. & Alice’s. & all the Women-in-Between’s that fought to give us a voice and listened hard when we found it. listen: you’ll hear and heal, too

[valtsv]

if you see me wandering the windswept moors and highlands in nothing but a nightgown plastered to my skin with rain, wailing and wringing my hands as i stumble over the already mud-trodden hem, i ask that you do NOT approach. i will be FINE. i just need to work through some stuff & be dramatic first. please respect that.

[butterflysturnedtodust]

today i said out loud for the first time “i think he’s a person now instead of a villain” and there is still so much hurt, but i think i remembered how to love him, too

& in therapy today i said some of the hurts i’ve held onto for years without telling anyone else. and while they’re not less hurtful, they’re less unimaginably scary

& i feel free in ways i never have before

& i want you to know that healing isn’t easy or fast, but it is possible. you don’t have to hold onto your hurts all alone forever. there are people who will carry them with you and teach you how to hold them. you can be free

[butterflysturnedtodust]

every time i think something inside of me has healed or found forgiveness, something else slips and breaks. i don't know how i'll ever live a life untouched by him.

but he also feels so far away, like he's holding onto some hate for me, too. maybe that's what hurts the most: not that i never got to confront him, but that he never had the time to forgive me

[butterflysturnedtodust]

googling “how to destroy a ring” like some sort of reluctant hero in a fantasy series

[butterflysturnedtodust]

spending my valentine’s day with heretic pride

[butterflysturnedtodust]

just listening to "up the wolves" and "no children" before therapy and idk if there was ever a better image of my mental health

[butterflysturnedtodust]

something inside of me exists

pulsing, waiting to break

like it remembers how

from a past life when

i was small and innocent

bad nostalgia rotting

the joints where I bend

to accommodate the vastness

of ever loving you

[butterflysturnedtodust]

it’s comforting, even in all the confusion, to know that i exist and sometimes i forget that i exist until i remember how much you thought i didn’t deserve to

[ruinedchildhood]

[voodoo74-deactivated20160307]

[teaandkindness-deactivated20150]

Zoom in on her face in the third gif. She means this. You are completely irreplaceable.

[omshanti-ompeace-blog-blog]

This went deep man. Look at her face. I would love to know where this came from, what she was talking about. And it’s true. So true. Completely irreplaceable. You are you and there is no better you

[ineffable-uncertainty]

Reblogging because I needed to see this message tonight, and something tells me someone else does too.

[myseedbelongsinyourwomb-deactiv]

Reblogging as I think every one of my followers are special and impossible to replace.

Remember that.

[pocheposh]

You are all special and important, and Ellen is a gift. 

[butterflysturnedtodust]

woke myself up from terrible nightmares by crying last night, which is a new experience for me. i'm having a great time lol

[butterflysturnedtodust]

my whole life is just changing what i’m sad about.

[mrbulian]

do u ever spend an entire day being really happy and then when night time rolls around you remember that you’re actually sad and kind of dead inside so you’re just like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ well that was fun while it lasted

[impactings-deactivated20240405]

today my professor told me every cell in our entire body is destroyed and replaced every seven years.

how comforting it is to know one day i will have a body you will have never touched.