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itβs been a minute since i was last active here, hasnβt it? first of all, iβd like to apologise for that because i feel rather guilty for promising an event that i didnβt go through with. i have all of your requests and i donβt plan on abandoning them, but i also cannot say when iβll get to write them.
iβm going to be honest with you because i love the little safe space i cultivated over the many years iβve been running this blog, but thereβs one or two incidents which pretty much ruined the fandom experience (at least here on tumblr) for me.
i think some of you might be aware of something which happened earlier in the year here on tumblr, a blog which blew things out of proportion and started an argument they couldnβt even stay consistent of. iβm not going to name it, but those who know, know. i feel like personally that was the last straw for me, watching the idiocy unfold while a bunch of people overlooked the lies and twisting of words, turning a simple request not made out of malice into something that resembled a criminal offence, my godβ¦sharing a space with a person like that, to be honest, quite disgusts me and while i donβt care about other people and mind my own business (the block button exists for a reason) this one really turned me sour, watching how easily people let themselves be manipulated, how they didnβt care what the actual issue was just because they wanted to read questionable topics (smut). iβm in no place to be the judge of who reads what, who enjoys what, but it gets to a certain point when the author fails to take accountabilityβ¦iβm a very outspoken person and i donβt stand by bullshit, i hate injustice, so this whole thing, simply put, drove me away from this space.
secondly, i had some big plans for this year that fell through, and around at the time i stopped being active here is when i realised it wouldnβt work out because i wasnβt admitted to what i had applied forβ¦which felt quite disappointing and i felt lost all over again, having to find other alternatives for my future.
now, for the actual real reason i stopped writing on tumblr and being active here is because, sadly, my interest in reader x member stories fell through. they just donβt feel the same anymore, and you people who follow me know that my biases are mingi and yunho. wellβ¦ever since my bestie showed me the world of yaoi, there was no going back from that. yungi just started consuming my life like none other, and what was supposed to be a one time thing (me joining said bestie as i wrote a yungi side story working along with her main story) turned into what actually fuels my creativity and inspiration now.
i havenβt actually stopped writing while i was gone from tumblr, and i donβt plan to ever stop writing because this is my hobby. i do it for myself first and foremost, because i love pouring out my love for the people i write about, because it helps me step away from my life while iβm in their world. iβve been writing since i was 13, so stopping now would feel downright diabolical. if i ever stop writing in fandom spaces, just know that iβm finally working on my own books =)))
so, what iβm trying to say, basically, is that:
i have an ao3 account where i post my member x member stories (so far, i only write about yungi because my mind is consumed by them at all times sadlyβ¦). so, if u are interested in those stories, i would love for us to meet over there too!
as for where i am active? well, i fell prey to the disastrous fandom space over on twitter, where i now have an accountβ¦and dare i say, am more active than iβve been here over the last 5 years lol. i yap about ateez as much as i can, but red velvet and f1 are never forgotten! i know what i like and i hang onto those things tightly hehe.
to answer the question of when iβll return here with stories again? the answer isβ¦i sincerely do not know. i lost all inspiration for the member x reader stories, and as much as it hurts me, i cannot write if it feels like a chore, if iβm forcing myself to create something. but when (and if!) the inspiration returns, you best believe that i will sit my ass down and return with what i once had in store for you!!
thank you for reading this long letter, but i wanted to come clean with all of you. you probably have no idea how much it means to me that my stories are loved, that you guys check in on me and miss my writings. itβs the only reason why i refuse to give up on this space, my blog, and take the time to find inspiration again.
until then, this is not a goodbye! iβll probably be lurking around, answering asks if you leave some. and maybe if you are still interested in what iβm up to these days, iβll leave my twitter and ao3 accounts. i would love to see you guys again over on those platforms if you are interested in these kind of things ^^
just checking in i hope youre doing alright ! we all miss you and your wonderful stories :( but i do hope that everything is ok <3
hiii!! i am doing as best as i can, sorry for worrying you! things have been shifting in my life, but i will explain it better in a post soon. thank you for checking in, it really warms my heart. i hope you are doing well!! <33
havenβt heard from your blog in a little bit, hope youβre doing okay!
Hello, yes, I have disappeared, indeed. I didn't mean to, but some things came up and I decided to take a break from Tumblr. I feel guilty since I have so many requests to write, and they will be written, but I cannot say anytime soon :(( I am doing alright, though, and thank you for checking in, it really warmed my heart! I hope you are also doing alright, anonie! <3
you need to be in AO3 is so hard for me to read here!! your work is great!!!!!!!!!
I'm glad you are enjoying my works, but on AO3 I only post my member x member stories! Sorry, but I want to separate my tumblr works from my member x member focused ones.
Hii, my lovelies! Surprise, surprise, surprise! Thank you so much for reading my stories, for the support you continue to offer me, and all the follows. Since I've hit this small personal milestone, I thought about gifting you something little back as well.
I am opening my ask box for requests for one week (01.06.25~08.06.25)!
πΌ Criteria for requesting:
genres: fluff & angst; I will not write smut for this event, but it can be suggestive; you must be over 18 to request anything that's suggestive, though!
tropes and setting: I am comfortable with writing almost anything as long as it doesn't contain topics that are too dark; please specify which genre and trope you'd like, as well as the setting when requesting (ex.: supernatural au-idk like vampires-with enemies to lovers; zombie apocalypse with angst and best friends to lovers, etc. let your imagination run wild! ^^)
You can select up to two prompts when requesting, and of course, please specify which member(s) you'd like (unless you want me to choose); I also write m x m stories, so that can be requested as well, just specify which members!
This event is for Ateez, but if anyone wishes to request with Red Velvet, I can write that too!
πΌ As for the storyline, you can choose from the following prompts:
Quit smiling at me, I can't stop messing up my sentences when you look at me like that.
Could you hold my hand?
Aw, you're blushing like a rose.
Your lips are really warm.
Would it be too cliche if we matched clothes a little?
Wait, don't pull away...not yet.
First second I saw you, and I couldn't get over how beautiful you were.
I can't get over how a few months ago I wanted to learn your name, and now you're having breakfast with me in my sweater.
You're staring again.
Would you just shut up and kiss me already?
You can't banish me! This is my bedroom, too!
God, here- just hold my hand.
We never speak of this again, do you hear?
I don't talk about you all the time!
What are you so afraid of?
I don't think I've ever seen you smile.
That kiss...did you really mean it?
I guess this means we belong to each other now, hm?
A date? Sorry, but I have to go home and laugh at that idea.
You were my first kiss.
Take. A. Shower. Now.
Did you sleep here on the bathroom floor?
White paint has more color than your face.
Well, I still have my pants on, so not that drunk!
Are we about to kiss right now?
I don't think I can sleep after that...
Do you normally go this long without sleep?
Oh my God, I don't care!
How many fingers am I holding up? ... I don't have six fingers.
I wasn't that worried, I was just wondering where you were...
Woah, what the hell happened to you?
Please correct me if I've been reading this all wrong, but...
Put that bat down, okay?
Scream all you want. Nobody's gonna hear you.
Oh, I'm sorry, does this hurt?
Do you ever wonder if we've met in another lifetime?
It's not up for discussion, you're my date.
I can't think straight with you.
You don't intimidate me. Cut the act.
For once, I'm not the bad guy here.
If you pass out, I'm not going to catch you.
Okay, what are you doing in my Spiderman onesie in my bedroom?
How the fuck did you survive that?!
I'm a psychopath making a difference!
I must be in heaven.
You come to my room and wake me up at 4am, to cuddle?
I'm pregnant.
I know what you did.
Who even made you the leader?
You're a freak, bro.
πΌ all prompts were taken from Pinterest; divider
And so, this event comes to an end today. My requests will be closed from now on! ^^
πΌ First of all, I really want to thank everyone who reads my stories, the people who show them love and talk to me - or just silently appreciate my stories - I wouldn't have been able to achieve this personal milestone without you guys!
πΌ And secondly, I did not anticipate so many of you sending me requests, so I'd really like to thank you for that as well! Your requests are really great and fun, I can't wait to write them all!
πΌ As for when I'll be posting the rest of them...be patient with me please, like I said...I got a lot more than I was expecting lol! So, I will be posting from next week on (16.06) a maximum of two times per week! ^^
Thank you my lovelies again, I'm really grateful and happy...and perhaps I'll be back with another event soon, hehe <3
Yuki:Β Hey, can we stay in your dorm tonight?Β
Pierre:Β Why?Β
Max:Β Liam fiddled with an ouija board and cursed ours.Β
Yuki:Β Isack doesn't know how to banish spirits, so he just throws salt at them and yells "DOES THIS LOOK LIKE A HOTEL TO YOU?!"