bVIsIV

Matt, Michigan.

[bvisiv]

We weren’t for each other but there was such value in who we were and who we became together and ever since. Despite the history, the years, and the miles, this hits really fucking hard. Rest easy, Allyssa. I’m proud of the woman you became. 🍁

[crash112233]

[bvisiv]

The Last Time I’ll Think of You

I hope 30 hurts. I hope it eats you alive. “Help me move” you owe me like 15k and I wouldn’t come see you if you had the cash for me. You’re on your own, like I was with you. I hope it kills you the way you tried to kill me when i wasn’t thinking of ways to do it myself.

I never wanted to be vulnerable again but she made it so easy. I owe her the trust you so thoroughly took from me. I don’t know if I’ll ever have it to give. Happy birthday.

[bvisiv]

Fuckin banger 👁️👄👁️

[bvisiv]

Never not going thru it

[bvisiv]

Yeah, but it’ll be okay.

[bvisiv]

Barely hanging on.

[swbxx]

My tumblr is my own little museum.

[bvisiv]

Sometimes it feels okay for a minute, a day, a week. Never longer. I’m ready to go again.

[bvisiv]

Why do I think of you every minute and second of each day

[bvisiv]

I don’t know about this anymore. Everyone says it’s hard trying to figure out who you are as a teenager. For me, it was blissfully ignorant and completely oblivious. Trying to be a genuinely good man is so much harder. Suppress every emotion, hide every fear, never let your outward appearance show the pain and distress inside. Be strong, provide, and stand up for yourself. Be self sufficient, know your worth, don’t take shit from anyone. Do it all, even when no one can be there to understand or listen. I got it all down, except one or two. Or maybe I’m just deluding myself. I watched my grandpa do it, I watched my father do it. Will anyone ever look at me that way? I could never picture them just driving off in the truck, parking up, and crying. I can’t picture them asking themselves these questions, feeling this sort of self hatred. Being a man is feeling like you’re the only one, and coming to terms with it and pushing past it anyways. This is where I come up short.

[wedarkacademia]

Ocean Vuong- On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous

[bvisiv]

A million missed opportunities and not a single lesson learned.

[bvisiv]

They say that ignorance is bliss, but to acknowledge one’s own ignorance can be absolute hell.

[bvisiv]

I love this song an indescribable amount. I wish I could make it fit me somehow. Like a letter from who I should be to who I am instead. But I doubt it will ever be that. So I’ll just continue to sing it to myself sorrowfully when I’m alone, I can really kinda kill it honestly.

[bvisiv]

Do you ever die in your dreams? Does it ever feel good..?

[hey-julian-casablancas]

[kidomarus]