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doing it well

[afashionodyssey]

[sculpturesix]

[gingahhh]

WHO IS SHE

[chiefarnook-deactivated20220906]

BITCH THE HAIR FLIP SHE THINK SHE ME

[bvlshit]

I know this is not hard. I know I’ve been though worse in my life. I know that I cannot judge 21 year old me for what I thought was a good choice.

I just can’t let go of him. I’m not even sure why, I just feel so fucking invested. Like to throw it all away is a waste of everything.

I know I can have many more boyfriends, richer, better looking, nicer men and I just still can’t imagine telling him to fuck off and thats just the end. Not in a thousand years. I thought this is who I wanna be with and I find it so hard to change that narrative when everything within me is telling me to run the opposite way.

I grapple with this and it is such a powerless position but I can’t imagine life without him and that is why I am beginning to hate myself.

I became a woman that bases herself within a man.

That thought alone should just end me.

[jealousyyouhavetoearn]

Success is the only Option!

GOING HUGE

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[one-and-only-beauty]

[curv]

[bvlshit]

Hello, o ye faithful

I often forget about tumblr. (This is insane because once upon a time, this was literally my life) the 2010-2012 era further reiterating how fucking old I am.

However, now as a twenty-four year old college senior with 3 CLASSES LEFT TO GRADUATE I am completely let go, and ready to change my future. I am so sick of letting everything fuck me in the end. I am now the fucker of everything 

See, the past few years I am what I like to call a victim of “circumstance”. This is popular terminology because it is so EASY to fit yourself in that category. However. starting now I am no longer apart of that group. I am no longer allowing “circumstance” to dictate my present nor future.

[bvlshit]

so I’m reading my archive trying to figure out who did I use to be? I’m just so confused. I really hate my life at this moment. I know every time I post here, I say this shit but I truly think its awful and I get mad at myself every day for not taking action and making a fucking change. I’m just stuck in a endless cycle.

I am proud to say I am taking my body seriously and dieting and exercising and seen a few pounds drop off. I just need to get the revenge body in check.

[hotvvheels]

[nevver]

Hot Wheels

[bvlshit]

I’m ready.

[wanderlog]

[rare-posters]

Rio. 1963. Howard Koslow.

[bvlshit]

I just honestly hate myself and my life.

I’m dumb fuckin idiot. 

I fuck up over and over again and I just can’t get right. 

I feel as frustrated as I did 3 years ago the only difference is age and money are now hanging on my back. I have bills that need to be paid every month. that and about 25 pounds. only differences that shouldn’t make everything feel so shitty but it does. 

I’m the type of moron that prides themselves on being deep and then does the opposite. 

smdh

[hugal]

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[danielodowd-deactivated20170124]

[tylerspangler]

[nevver]