A moment of unnecessary personal oversharing here 👀
Someone told me that I am very not romantic and basically a buzz kill for not liking cinema dates, picnics at the riverside, flowers etc.
And it made me feel bad… but then I opened Tumblr and saw all the drabbles I wrote past 8 months… and I think I am in fact hopelessly romantic and very soft. So turns out someone tried to gaslight me into relationship convincing me that my boundaries and expectations are not normal.
I love Jongho. You all know it already. I am so in love with this man. But also I love Jongho for reminding me who and what I am.
So with that being said I think I’m coming back. Sorry for making you wait and ignoring your messages. I’ve been through a lot of things lately.
There’s no place else you’d rather be right now. Ever, even.
Jongho’s hands are warm against the skin of your back, tucked gently underneath your sweatshirt, as the two of you lie quietly together in the afternoon sunshine. His book lies forgotten on the floor next to the settee, as does your mug of tea, now cooling on the side table. You nestle in closer to his chest, nose brushing his collarbone, and you feel his contented sigh as his arms readjust minutely with you.
Despite the tranquility of everything, your heart is going a mile a minute. Now’s the perfect moment, you think. You should finally say it. Who cares if you’re first?
“What’s wrong?” He murmurs against your hair.
Uh oh. You tilt your head up slightly, and he leans back to meet your gaze.
“What do you mean?” You ask softly, stalling.
A wry smile plays in the corner of his mouth. “You’re mini-hyperventilating on me.”
You snap your mouth shut. Whoops.
“‘S the matter?” His voice is still peaceful, but the smile fades from his face.
You swallow hard. “Um. Nothing.”
He raises an eyebrow, and you sigh. Ah. You notice the shakiness to your breathing now.
“Nothing’s wrong,” you mumble, hiding against his chest again. “Really. Promise.”
He hums, the sound edged with skepticism, but he lets it pass.
You take another five minutes to build your courage up, consciously matching your breath to his.
“I love you,” you whisper so quietly even you can barely hear it in your own skull.
After the briefest pause, Jongho chuckles once, arms sliding to hold you tighter.
“I know.”
You blink, then raise your head to look at him again. There’s a dreamy look on his face.
“You told me in your sleep,” he whispers.
You’re pretty sure your heart stops beating. “I—what? When?”
He tucks you against him again, lifting a hand to sink his fingers into your hair. “Hm. A week ago, I think.”
“A week?”
He nods once, and you feel the warmth of his breath stirring against the top of your head.
“I didn’t know if it was just you dreaming,” he admits quietly. “I didn’t want to make you uncomfortable.”
Figures you’d blab on yourself when unconscious. “…Oh.”
You both fall into silence again, listening to the faint chirp of birds through the open window. You watch the shadow of the tree branches dance gently on the floor next to Jongho’s book, leaves trembling with the slight breeze.
“Did I upset you?” He whispers.
“No,” you wheeze. You clear your throat and try again. “Uh, no. I’m kinda annoyed at myself, but it’s not your fault.”
“Don’t be annoyed,” he murmurs, and you feel his lips curve into a smile in your hair. His fingertips massage gingerly at your scalp. “I was glad you were asleep. I cried a little.”
Your head shoots up. “What?”
The tips of his ears tinge scarlet. “It was stupid. I was just…happy.”
You watch him worry his lower lip between his teeth.
“You’re not upset?”
He frowns slightly. “Why would I be upset?”
“I mean, it’s…” You frown, too. “I don’t want you to feel, like…burdened.”
His frown clears immediately, followed by a fond exasperation.
“Jagi,” he murmurs, studying your face with a little smile. “It’s not a burden to be loved back.”
You stop breathing for a second.
He laughs quietly, guides your head up just enough for him to kiss the tip of your nose. “Don’t tell me I wasn’t obvious.”
“I didn’t want to assume,” you insist, your heartbeat racing again for this entirely different reason.
“You’re allowed to assume,” he says, tucking you against him again. “You’re allowed to do anything. You hung every star in the sky.”
“God,” you rasp, and he laughs again when you bury your face against his neck and pepper it with kisses.
“I love you.”
He says it so simply, like the sky is blue and water is wet and nothing else matters in the world. You breathe deeply in and out, hooking your hand underneath his arm and resting it against his shoulder.
Genre: Fluff, Established Relationship, Slice of Life
Warnings: none
Word Count: ~500
“You know you’ve been checking your phone every two seconds?” you friends give you a look of a heavy disapproval.
“I do”, you reply checking your phone yet again.
They glance at each other and shake their heads slightly. But you don’t see it too busy looking at your phone trying to hypnotize it.
“Stop!” one of the girls snatches your phone and puts it beside her out of your reach.
“I am sorry. He said he would finish earlier today so I was trying to make plans” you pout, “oh well. Maybe they had to stay extra” you shrug trying to smile.
“You know that dating someone like your boyfriend is not easy, right? And you are bound to break up eventually. Why are you so hung up on him?” another friend asks frowning.
Oh how you hate this kind of talks. You have heard it so many times since you started dating Jongho. Literally every person you both knew took it as their personal duty to tell you that not only falling for Jongho was a very bad idea but dating him was an action so stupid they never thought someone like you would walk in a trap like this on your own. And no, that wasn’t about Jong’s personality. They kept saying something about his crazy schedules that would lead you to sleepless night, something about the girls surrounding him which would eventually make you jealous, and something about Jongho not being ready for commitment. Yet here you are.
You sigh and look at your friends, “I know. Maybe we will break up tomorrow. Or next Monday. Or next year, I don’t know. But it doesn’t mean I shouldn’t love him or shouldn’t give him my attention” you crumble the napkin in your hands.
“But it makes you exhausted” they start, but you shake your head.
“It doesn't… Maybe if it does, that’s something I chose. And I want to give Jongho all the love I have. Because if we break up someday, I don’t want to regret anything, I don’t want to spend my days thinking that I could have loved him more but instead decided to hold back in fear of breaking up with him tomorrow”
Your friends’ faces shift from displeased to shocked to embarrassed as you speak. You raise your brows at them, “What?”.
“Behind you” one of them whispers.
Confused, you turn around and see Jongho right behind you.
“When did you come?” you beam at your boyfriend standing up to hug him, “I missed you”
“I waited outside, but you weren’t replying”, Jong replies placing a kiss on your temple. Your friend gives your phone back and you see a bunch of messages from Jongho. “So I came in looking for you”. He looks at your friends with an apologetic smile, “Ladies would you excuse us if I steal my Love from you? We have plans”
He doesn’t wait for their response grabbing your belongings with one hand and holding your waist with another.
“Thanks for spending time with her” Jongho smiles one last time and guides you to exit. “Love?” he calls when you are finally outside.
“Mhm?” you hum looking at Jong.
“I’ll make every day worth being with me so you never regret loving me”.
Genre: Fluff, Romance, Established Relationship, Slice of Life
Warnings: none
Word Count: ~300
A/N this one is kinda meh because I feel like I am losing my ability to write or speak. But I had this idea and needed to write it down before this one turned into a break up drabble too. Life is kicking my ass, but I really miss y’all, so I am trying to come back soon.
The air is warm and filled with smell of meat you are grilling. Faint sounds of music and people’s voices inside the rented party room make you smile. While it’s fun meeting friends of your friends it’s still a little overwhelming constantly saying hi and smile to strangers. It would be a lie to say that you wanted to bail on the party but it’s your best friend’s boyfriend’s birthday. There was no such option because you had to spend last few days helping your friend organize the whole thing.
So when someone suggested starting grilling bbq 40 minutes ago you hoped on that opportunity and volunteered to go outside alone. And so far it’s the best decision you’ve made the whole day.
The door slides with a careful creak letting someone outside to the patio. You look up and meet Jongho’s eyes.
“Hi” he smiles at you approaching with two bottles of beer. “Thought you would be bored here alone, so I came to rescue you”
You accept a cold bottle and take a sip letting a satisfied sigh.
“Thanks. I was thirsty” you reply turning your attention back to the grill.
“That’s all? No ‘you are the best boyfriend in the world’? No ‘what would I do without you’? No ‘thank you so much I am the happiest person to have you’?” Jongho teases you faking shock.
You laugh at your boyfriend watching him clutching his chest dramatically.
“I love you” you say when Jongho finally sits near you.
There is a slight pause on Jong’s side, so you look at him trying to find your boyfriend’s eyes. But he makes sure to avoid looking at you with a great effort. So you just roll your eyes and as you are about to turn your attention to the meat he finally stands up and looks at you with a surprise written all over his face.
“You do???” Jongho gasps, “I knew it” suddenly his voice changes to smug.
“Really?” You chuckle serving the plates to take back inside, “how did you know?”
“Because I am irresistible”
He grabs your hand and pulls you closer to his side.
“Jong!” You laugh in surprise, “What…”
You don’t get to finish the question because Jongho locks his warm lips with yours kissing you gently. But as soon as you start melting in the kiss Jongho pulls away abruptly leaving you breathless and craving for me.
“They actually asked me to check if the meat was ready” he grabs the plates you served moments ago, “be right back”
Jongho runs away with plates and you just laugh at your boyfriend being a menace to you.
Byul! This is angtsy dropping by to say you do what you want. It’s your blog. You have the right to reject any request you don’t wish to do for any reason. I love angst myself (as you know) but you write all the fluff you want if it makes you feel better :)
I love your Jongho boyfriend texts! Maybe I’ll think of a fluff scenario too so you’ll feel lighter. But yeah, you prioritize yourself first always. This should be fun for you first :)
Angtsy
Hi Bunny!!!
How have you been? Thank you so much for your message.
I am still in the mood to turn every fluff drabble I write into angsty one haha but I am working on it.
While I have an urge to make everyone’s love one-sided or maybe lead the characters to break up in my scenarios I still want to keep my blog soft and fluffy (but I might post one angsty drabble that’s been sitting in my head for a couple months now).
So I am slowly trying to come back. Writing was supposed to be a part of my therapy process but somehow I trapped myself unstead haha.
Sorry for oversharing. Hope you are safe and healthy💜
A/N I know it's Tuesday I am trying to catch up. (BTW I rewrote the kiss scene in Starwberry Shortcake pt2. You can check it out. Or not. It's not mandatory. ILY)
I figured out my web version but guess what… I also figured that my mind is not in the best place right now. Every time I open word I only write angst and can’t bring myself to make it a happy ending even if it was a fluffy idea at first. But as I’ve said before this blog is supposed to be soft for most of the time, I think I need some time to go back to fluff. The Monday Boyfriend Texts are still on tho💕
So sorry to bring you these news but I thought you should know💓🐻
A/N: Ta-dah! Part 2 arrived! I still don’t know what is going on here. But here is the POV of the second girl. Hope you like it <3
Everything was… well, not perfect, but it was going pretty much okay at first. At least it seemed so.
Hongjoong finally gave up under boys’ pressure and asked you out, and you had a nice date. And the same evening you had a nice talk over text… End of the story. After that he would ignore all your texts and calls. No explanation, he just ghosted you. Not even “I don’t like you anymore, let’s not do it again”. You would have understood if he for some reason decided that you are not the right match for him. But you needed to know. At first. Now you just don’t care. It’s been a week since he ghosted you, and you’ve gone through a whole palette of emotions starting from curiosity why he doesn’t answer and finish with desinterest, being too tired of wondering.
Standing in front of one of KQ’s dance rooms earlier today you couldn’t bring yourself to opening the door. What if Hongjoong’s there? Of course he is there, duh! All 8 of them should be there waiting for you. You didn’t know how to act around him anymore. But they can’t wait forever, so you took a deep breath, put a happy smile on your face and stepped into the room.
“You are early today”, - boys greeted you with hugs, but there were only 7 of them.
“Where is Hongjoong?”, - you asked trying to not sound too caring.
Boys exchanged looks and after a second of hesitation they informed you that Hongjoong’s presonal schedule changed and he had an important meeting with other producers. You just shrugged and asked guys to arrange the working spot, not knowing if you should be relieved or disappointed.
Few hours later when your activities finished and you were drained, boys asked if you would like to join them for dinner with their significant others. First you didn’t want to ruin the lovey dovey atmosphere that you imagined, but since not all of them had girlfriends, you decided to stick to Yunho. The dinner was nice, the place was nice, other girls were nice, Yunho was nice. But Hongjoong that joined a little later was not nice at all. He didn’t even say hi to you! You started to wonder if you did something wrong, but Yunho did a good job distracting you. Besides, he was very curious about your friend that you introduced to him. Telling funny stories about her you didn’t notice that Seonghwa was growing annoyed at first. But the more Yunho laughed the more annoyed Seonghwa got. You had to tell him to cool down, cause he looked like he was going to explode.
That is how you found yourself outside of the restaurant arguing with Seonghwa about how your behaviour was super inapropriate.
You got so angry to the point where you started to shout at him. Because it was his fault! You didn’t want to catch feelings for any of them, but Seonghwa pushed you in Hongjoong’s arms. Unfortunately Ateez’ leader didn’t want to catch you, which meant that you were free falling.
So you left before the evening became a mess.
And now you are sitting in taxi trying to not cry. Because if you do, you won’t stop. And you can’t afford having a puffy face on tomorrow shooting. Your phone keeps ringing, but you don’t care until Hongjoong’s number is showed on display. You groan in frustration, dismiss the call and finally turn off your device.
What do they want? You don’t care. Maybe you’ll talk to them tomorrow… or next week during next meeting, but totally not now.
I wrote this one on a whim. I don't even remember what gave me an idea. So yeaahhh you can get a glimpse of a 20-something years old Byul and how I viewed the boys during Answer era :)
I should start writing down my fluff ideas the moment they come to my head🫠 I had a super cute idea for Jongho and FORGOT 😡😡😡😡 ughhhhhhh I am going insane because I can’t remember what was it😭😭😭😭😭
So I had this super cute dream last night that got me kicking my feet in the middle of night so can you write a fic for it
So I was in my high school and there was mingi my classmate (obviously 😛) and we both kinda liked each other but we both were shy and my friends kept saying me to sit next to him, say hi and stuff like that but I didn't ( sooo not me ) and yunho and woo kept pushing him to say something to me ( not like literally pushing but like encouraging) but both of us didn't . and then next day i decided to sit not beside him but beside the dual desk he usually sits so I come school early but then idk why my teacher made us rearrange all the seats and my seat was changed and then i was sitting alone and I kept looking at the entrance hoping for him to come but he didn't(he was late)and then someone put a bag beside me and then HE sat beside me(he came through the backdoor) and asked "you don't mind me sitting here ryt" and i couldn't say a word just shook my head (completely flustered) and then i put my head down and he seemed little nervous too and then my friends who were sitting infront me turned and gave me knowing looks and yunho and woo gave him knowing looks
And then...
I woke up 🙂🥲🥲🫠🫠
I want to know what happened
(actually I fell asleep again and my dream continued tho I don't remember well but we were partners for some science project or something like that)
We didn't even confess😭😭😭
So can you write a fic for it , i really love your fluff fic (you can make it a little sensual but no smut).
Hi Pookie!! I am so sorry it took me so long to write. But Mingi in my head didn't want to go to school :((. You can find it here
It still was very fun to write, so I hope you enjoy it as much as I did <3
Summary: Mingi is your cute classmate that might or might not have a big fat crush on you
Fandom: ATEEZ
Pairing: Mingi x (f)Reader ft Wooyoung and Yunho as matchmakers
Genre: Fluff, Romance, Friends to lovers, High School AU
Warnings: none
Word Count: ~750
A/N Based on this anon ask
You keep looking at the door, but Mingi just wouldn’t come. The class is about to start, so you sigh and open your book, when someone’s bag drops on the free chair.
“The seat is free, right?” Familiar low voice makes you lift your head.
“Y…eah?” you blush locking your eyes with Mingi.
“Thanks”, he says plopping on the chair, “I’m Mingi by the way”
“I know” you chuckle, “We are classmates”
You watch Mingi’s face get gradually redder every second.
“Uhh”, he clears his troat, “Right… we are, yeah”
“Cute” you mutter under your breath and turn away feeling your face getting hot as well.
Wooyoung and Yunho giggle somewhere so you give them a glare feeling like disappearing from class. Preferably forever. But Mingi. Your eyes flick to his trembling hands under the desk. Is he nervous too? It doesn’t make you feel better. In fact you get more flustered.
“Teacher is here!” you hear the class president’s voice and let out a disappointed sigh.
So does Mingi while standing up and greeting the teacher. Class starts and you follow the subject trying your absolute best not to pay this gorgeous but silly boy any attention. Is he cute? Absolutely endearingly so. Do you like him? Of course! Will you talk to him? Hell no. you are so busy spinning in your thoughts, you don’t notice Mingi trying to talk to you until he starts shaking your shoulder.
“Song Mingi! If you are bored in class, it doesn’t mean your partner is bored too” The teacher’s loud voice makes you come back to reality. You look at Mingi’s red face and smile guilty.
“Sorry” you whisper, but Mingi just shakes his head and gestures you to pay attention to the teacher.
You turn head back and see Yunho making a broken heart gesture at Mingi. It’s actually funny, but you still make a serious face at Jeong and point at the blackboard. Teacher’s monotonous voice calms you down a little bit, so the rest of the class goes almost fast enough for you to not lose your mind.
When the class is dismissed you hope to stay back with Mingi for a moment, but Yunho and Wooyoung appear behind him like ghosts.
“So how is it going? Are you dating yet?” Wooyoung pats Mingi on his shoulder and you drop your pen case to the floor.
“Sorry, doll” Yunho picks it up for you, “so no confession yet?”
“I swear if you don’t confess to each other, I will do it instead of you” Wooyoung cuts in.
You just roll your eyes trying to conceal your embarrassment, but Yunho’s strong hands push you down.
“Talk to each other, guys” he says and grabs your bag, “I will only give it back to you after the big talk”
The boys leave you and Mingi alone in the whole classroom and you hear the door close. The ringing silence falls on you both. You fiddle with the hem of your shirt, Mingi keeps his mouth shut. You listen to the clock ticking and other students chattering outside.
“So…?” you start avoiding looking at Mingi.
His eyes fall on you and you feel the tension between you two thickening.
“Hmm?” Mingi hums.
“You wanted to say something during the class?” you ask.
“Yes… I wanted to ask if you would like to go to CV together during the long recess?”
“Oh…” you blink finally looking at your classmate, “why?”
Mingi looks somewhere behind you and frowns. You want to check too, but he grabs your shoulders making you focus on himself.
“Because I wanted to ask you out… Like for a date. A real date” he says and you feel the grip on your shoulders going weaker until Mingi’s hands going limp on your body.
You face is hot, your body is hot, heart feels like it’s going to jump out of your throat. You can’t possibly form a word in your mouth, so Mingi’s face grows anxious.
“You don’t want to?” he asks letting your shoulders free, pout forming on his cute lips.
“No!” you catch his hands. “I want to! I’m just…. Shy” you whisper the last word so quiet almost inaudible. But he still catches it.
“Me too. I’m shy too” he smiles at you.
You smile back when the door opens with a lough thud letting JeongJung duo inside.
“Now kiss!” they shout.
But you and Mingi only look at each other too busy trying to get used to this new feeling you have between only you and him.
mostly real i, too, wonder how I've managed to make it this far, but my mom debates I more..... (#loredrop) (do NOT ask further about my mom)
💟 no pressure tags bcs i need to see my moots n their tropes : @woniefication @shyoko @yooniso @myuviis @koiiq @chrrific @blooddlusts @seobluuu @luvmahae etc
