shitty toughts

basurero de mis pensamientos que nadie quiere escuchar

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i would like to be able to take a pill that could show me how things actually are, or at least stops my overthinking and anxiety

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i really wanted you to fuck me wdym you're married?

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PUTA MADRE LO HICE LLEGEEE

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i wanna give off sad baddie

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you don't know how much i wanna get married to a rich man who makes me happy. and if it's at 25 it would be perfect

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i want to meet a person who i can actually trust

i want that person to understand me, not judge me

i just want someone that i know is going to be there no matter what

to communicate, to tell me if something is wrong, if im doing something wrong not because he judge me, but because he wants the best for me

i want it to be equal, i'll treat him the way he treats me, i'll support him, be there for him, trust him, communicate

i just want a person that keeps his words, i always keep mine, i would like that for once someone does the same for me

if he says he's going to do something, anything, make a promise, i want that he actually keeps it, that's all im asking

no lies, no fake promises, no doubts, i dont want any of that shit in my life again

i've had enough

i just want to be loved and to love, that the love between us to be equal, me being important the same way you are to me

i just never wanna feel like i give more than i receive, if i ever feel that way again and it's true i promise myself i'll get out of there

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quiero vivir mi vida, y voy a seguir intentando e intentando e intentando hasta lograrlo

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quiero avanzar con mi vida

quiero hacer cosas por mi, POR MI

quiero todo lo que deseo, quiero trabajar por ello, quiero lograr mis metas, quiero convertirme en quien tanto deseo ser

amo hacer cosas por mi, amo hacerme sentir bien a mi misma

tengo que empezar a ponerme por encima de todo, de todos

y de verdad hacerlo.

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i remember that time we were so high and you told me spending time with me made you never wanna go to anyone else in your life, that you wanted that moment to last forever

in mi memories, and i hope in yours, it does

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how to get creative again? HOW?

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quiero desaparecer de la vida de todos, hay algo bueno en ser recordado como un fever dream

como un lost media yk

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nunca volverá a ser como antes y debo aceptarlo y seguir adelante

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Hoy fácilmente puedo soltar a las personas, pero hubo un tiempo donde moría por no poder alejarme de quienes creía “importante”.

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oye te extraño mucho hay q vernos ok

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i'll keep calling you but you won't ever answer like you used to

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creo que una parte de mi sigue y seguirá esperandote

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creo que la mayoría de mi tristeza diaria y mis problemas diarios vienen de una inseguridad

inseguridad que no me gusta decir que provocaste, pero que en realidad lo hiciste

la inseguridad de saber que en cualquier momento podrías remplazarme por cualquier cosa que se te atraviese y te provoque una felicidad momentánea

y eso podria provocarme un gran dolor, el dolor del remplazo

el dolor de saber que para ti no significo lo suficiente como para ponerme por encima de esas cosas

tal vez tu ni siquiera sabes que esas cosas me lastiman, tal vez ni siquiera has notado mi ausencia

tal vez cuando notes mi ausencia el daño ya estará hecho y será muy tarde