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[c4hawaii]

I don’t wanna be here anymore

[c4hawaii]

Hi I’m back

Time. Just time is all that was needed. Time to think, time to keep away, time to just move on in life. I realized a lot with the time I’ve been provided. Took this long with distracting myself with a lot of things, but I really was running away from it all. Faced it awhile back and recently I realized that I am healing. I am in a better headspace than before. There is no time to dwell and sulk in the past. Because time waits for no one and we can’t have it back. I have bee using my time to keep busy just not on the right tasks at hand. I feel like I have changed for the better. Whatever happens from today will be for the better for me. And for me to say that you are the only person in my life that I feel that I can’t have anything with anymore whether as a friend, acquaintance, etc., I hope you can imagine the pain I felt. I hope you know that this friendship could have been saved. But, as long as your happy. That’s really what matters and that’s what I want for you. Sadly, I won’t be in any part of it. I want to wish you a good life. It’s best like this. Bye Chels.

[c4hawaii]

It’s so hard faking to be happy

[c4hawaii]

Yeah still holding on...jeeez

[c4hawaii]

It’s still not getting easier. Seeing you everyday kills me.

[c4hawaii]

I’ll suffer in silence. It’s okay. I’ll be okay.

[c4hawaii]

Hi good morning

[c4hawaii]

If I tweet or put something on snapchat it’s still a subliminal message to you, and I know how that goes when I see it. so I guess I’ll just vent on here. There’s no other way for me to let it out. Just tweeting how I feel or just writing it down feels so much better. Wish you think of me too. I know you miss me too. There’s so much for me to say or let out. Just having you there or near all the time makes it more difficult to move on. I still can’t let go. No matter how much you hurt me, and still do. Why do I keep going back? Why do I suffer to get something from you? Why do I put myself down everyday when I see you. Because seeing you everyday reminds me of a failure that I am.

[c4hawaii]

It still doesn’t get easier

[c4hawaii]

You just decided to up and leave when you wanted. Not even letting me know. Your feelings gradually faded while mine stayed and you didn’t even have the audacity to mention anything until the end. I tried to tell myself that we could be friends still. My feelings were still there for you. This has been the hardest month of my life, but now realizing some things. I’m not sure if I could ever forgive you for this. I’m sorry

[c4hawaii]

Why can’t I just get over you?

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“sometimes it’s better to let the silence do the talking”

— 4.26am (via glassbonespaperskin)

[c4hawaii]

Why hello

Hello my old venting buddy.

[remanence-of-love]

[c4hawaii]

Worst friend ever? Yep

[c4hawaii]

I need help.

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