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“Souls love. That’s what souls do. Egos don’t, but souls do. Become a soul, look around, and you’ll be amazed― all the beings around you are souls. Be one, see one. When many people have this heart connection, then we will know that we are all one, we human beings all over the planet. We will be one. One love. And don’t leave out the animals, and trees, and clouds, and galaxies― it’s all one. It’s one energy.”

— Ram Dass

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Name

I keep your name like a bruise on my tongue tender unhealed something I try not to touch but always do

We used to speak in futures Now everything is past tense Your laughter still echoes but it doesn’t know how to stay

Love didn’t leave loudly It packed itself into silence into pauses that grew too wide into “I’m fine” that meant anything but

I sleep on the edge of the bed afraid I’ll roll into the ghost of you Even my dreams hesitate as if they’re unsure whether you’re allowed to be there

They say time fixes things But time only teaches me how to carry the weight how to smile with a crack in my chest how to miss you without saying your name

I loved you in ways I don’t know how to unlearn And now my heart walks around with nowhere left to go still reaching for a hand that isn’t reaching back

homoquartz

i’ve warmed up significantly towards the concept of small talk ever since i learned that its sole purpose is to make friendly noises.

as long as you smile and nod, people are satisfied. it’s just to show that you are nice and there with good intentions. we’re small in a big world and have to rely on other people to be decent to us. so we do our little human dance to each other to say, “i’m not here to hurt you. here’s something we have in common, like the weather or sports or itchy sweaters, so we both know we’re on the same team. we both agree on a basic fact, like that it is rainy or that being itchy is uncomfortable, and this proves we can get along. i’m being light-hearted and non-threatening right now.”

small talk isn’t to get to know a person. it’s just a greeting to affirm you’re buddies in the universe.

i am motivated by wanting the other person to know i am friendly, so i have gotten pretty decent at small talk when i used to hate it.

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themisally

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Kelsey Shwetz (Canadian, d.o.b. unknown) - Orchard Bath (2023)

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Richard Savoie (Canadian b.1959), Peel Street, Montreal, Oil on canvas

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Richard Claremont (Australian), Lights After Rain, 2025, Acrylic

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Little Yellow Notepad Part 2

I sit in a room painted calm where the chairs are soft and the clock pretends not to watch me bleed

They ask gentle questions the kind wrapped in professional warmth as if pain might flee when spoken to politely

I open my mouth and ghosts fall out Names Memories with teeth Moments that learned how to breathe inside my chest

The therapist nods pen scratching like a small animal while I unravel years in fifty minute increments Time, rationed Suffering, itemized

I joke sometime dark humor as a flare gun because if I laugh first the truth won’t realize how exposed it is

They call it processing It feels more like excavation each session digs deeper until I’m not sure whether we’re uncovering wounds or teaching them how to speak

I leave lighter, they say but light can be blinding some days I walk out hollow other days raw wondering why healing hurts like remembering how to feel

Still I come back week after week because somewhere beneath the fear I believe this darkness is not a grave

But a tunnel learning where the exit is