if you were here, i'd sing to you

so open your eyes and see the way our horizons meet. and all of the lights will lead into the night with me. i know these scars will bleed but both of our hearts believe all of these stars will guide us home.

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shcwnm:

shawn loved his son to death. but at the moment he had wished to sleep just for the night and let his parents have some moment alone. but clearly he wouldn’t let them. “as if you won’t like it,” he said, smirking just a little and giving her a quick wink. the feeling of camila almost touching shawns bulge that was begging to be free made him bite the inside of his cheek. he nodded his head slightly as she asked to pick up alex. “yeah - of course,” he said and waited until camila would get up from his lap. just a few moments later he had alex in his arms wrapped in his soft small blanket. making sure he wouldn’t catch a cold or something. his face was hidden into shawns chest. “is that his bag?” he questioned and picked up the bag that he assumed was alex’s diaper bag. he pulled it over his shoulder and looked around to see if they didn’t forgot anything. “you ready mila?”

what a mood killer. camila huffed as she watched shawn leave the room, then turned on Mom Mode and tried to tidy up a little bit. she was clumsier than usual, fingers fumbling and thighs like jello as she crossed the room to gather alex's things. she turned on her heel just as they came back in, only for shawn to take the bag over his own shoulder. his chivalry while gingerly tending to her- their child, it made camila's heart swell. she beamed. "i'm ready if you are." there was a brief moment of hesitation before camila reached out to slip her hand into shawn's and intertwine their fingers. "so. we need to talk."

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shcwnm:

“good because so did i, ” he told her shortly before he pressed soft kisses against her lips while he kept caressing the side of her stomach with his large hand. feels camila’s small hand onto his torso made him his pants even tighter. a frustration that wanted to get free. shawn took a glance at the girl and licked his lips. “fuck —– you’re so hot, mila,” he breathed and pulled her closer against him, pulling her onto his lap carefully. his hands now sliding into her back pockets. squeezing it gently as well. when their lips got locked onto each others again, he let camila slide her tongue against his. what had he missed to be this close with her. yet, he still craved for more. as he pulled his hands out of her back pockets and moved it under her shirt, he backed away when he heard soft cries from the next room. could it be ….. no, not now. shawn let out a soft sigh. “well son - this is not a good timing,” he muttered. “maybe we should go to the nearest hotel? to - rest up,” he said, tucking some hair behind camila’s face. “somewhere more comfortable for alex,” and them? oh they could do it on the floor. against the wall. hell he probably didn’t care. he needed camila. right now. and so was his pants screaming as well.

for the first time ever, in her entire life, camila found herself a teeny bit ticked at her son. must be the hormones talking, for sure. from where she was sitting in shawn's lap, camila let out a long sigh and pulled away from their kiss, breathing heavily as she moved her hand up run her thumb over his lower lip. "ah, you'd like that, wouldn't you?" to be fair, camila would love that. the heat between her legs and the way she can't stop watching shawn's lips as he talks, along with the small shift in her hips that causes her to press against his hilt and feel a telltale bulge underneath her mound - it's a lot, and while camila wants nothing more than to agree, there's still the whole 'define the relationship' talk they have to do. ugh. "we- uh." she shifts again, trying so hard not to give in and pick up where they'd left off. "can you go get the baby? we can talk in the car."

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shawn ! 

shawn’s lips were now on one spot of her neck, gently sucking on it - making soft marks in her neck. his large hand was still moving over her sensitive era before he finally got to open her jeans, his lips still working in her neck. when he felt how camila’s hips pushed forward, he pulled away from her neck. a big smirk on his face as he met camila’s brown eyes. when the latina looked down at his hand, he removed his hand and moved his wise finger under her chin. pulling her head up so she was looking into his eyes. “ y’ really missed me ? ” he smirked, his eyes locked onto hers. before he could even say something, his lips were crashed onto camila’s. shawn then moved one of his large hands to the bottom of her shirt, sliding his hand underneath. caressing her sides gently as his lips were moving onto hers. 

"of course i did," camila managed in a sharp breath. overwhelming, shawn's touch and taste and voice and the look in his eyes, it was all overwhelming, and camila knew her cheeks were tinged pink as she arched her back to push her body up against his hands. her lips moulded perfectly against his as she dropped her hands to the hem of his shirt and let her fingers travel underneath. her nails grazed over the smooth lines of his torso, the curve of his waist, up over the strong, sturdy ridge of his spine. she ached to feel him flush againts her, longed to be chest to chest with nothing between them. she started rucking his shirt up, parted her lips to slip her tongue against shawn's, and then - and then a tiny cry sounded from the next room, one camila knew all too well.

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shcwnm:

just as he entered the room, he cleared his throat and he tried not to smirk but - his smirk couldn’t leave his face as he saw how camila was trying to act chill. shawn definitely wasn’t going to make this easy for her. he just wanted to spend some good quality time with her again. even better than before. his hand that was in her hair was now cupping her small cheek. his large hand almost cupping her whole face. “yeah ?” he questioned, his hand now trailing down to her arm. his fingertips touching her arm now gently. “we should definitely discuss that out,” he said. eyes locked onto hers. his hand keep sliding down, back to her upper thigh. but this time, a little more to the side of her sensitive era. “we should also discuss out the living situation …. what about, i buy a house close to yours?” he suggested. his face gently leaning in. “so i can spend more time with alex,” he told her. “and see you more often,” as he said that, he slid his hand to the inner of her thigh, now gently caressing the inner side of her thighs. “so we can - take care of each other yeah,” he whispered, leaning into her ear while his breath touched her neck.

it was almost infuriating, how easily shawn could get under camila’s skin. how one simple touch could render her speechless, only able to bite her lip as her hands found their way to his chest and her fingers curled against the fabric of his shirt. “i like the sound of that,” she breathed, her vision spinning as she trailed a hand up the column of his throat, fingers spanning over the nape of his neck as she tethered him near. “we can have more time alone. with more places to be alone. a bed. shower. balcony. m'not picky.” it’s been almost a year, okay? camila had needs, damnit. like clockwork, she uncrossed her legs as shawn’s fingers found their way between them. her heart fluttered against her ribcage. fuck. “remember the last time you and i were alone in a dressing room, shawn? you took real good care of me then. how’d that go, again?”

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his heart beated faster as he smelled the familiar scent of the cuban girl. the smell he missed so much. as he had whispered in her ear, he gently came leaned closer to her neck. breathing in her neck, his lips almost touching. as he heard camila’s soft talking, he smirked. now gently pressing a kiss in her neck. when she mentioned that they would have more alone time at every place in their house, he couldn’t help but feel his pants tighting. his manhood begging to get free. her just talking like that even made him go hard. and just a simple touch, or a glance in her beautiful brown eyes. “all of that sounds perfect. whatever you want, babe -“ he said as he pressed another kiss in her neck. then moving his face up, brushing his nose with hers as his hand gently pushed her leg off the other. now gaining more access to her sensetive era. his hand slowly going up there while looking into her eyes. “hmm - did you already forgot about that?” he smirked. “maybe i should make you not forget this time how i took such a care of you,” he said as his large hand was now moving up to the zipper of her jeans.

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camilas eyes fluttered shut as shawn pressed featherweight kisses to her skin. the fingers she had furled against his shirt tugged at the fabric, chest rising and falling fast as she took a breath to center herself. calm, cool, collected. lasted about five seconds before shawn had his hand between her legs and camila was watching him with bedroom eyes. she could feel a familiar heat underneath shawn's fingertips, could feel the rapid beat of her heart in every fiber of her being. reflexively, she pushed her hips forward towards shawn's hand, inviting and encouraging, lower lip caught between her teeth. camila glanced down, eyes falling on shawns fingers. sure, steady, long fingers. "missed you," slips past her lips. "needed you. still need you. do this with me." without waiting for an answer, camila used the hand on the back of his neck to pull him into a heady kiss, a satiated sigh muffled against his lips.

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shcwnm:

just as he entered the room, he cleared his throat and he tried not to smirk but - his smirk couldn’t leave his face as he saw how camila was trying to act chill. shawn definitely wasn’t going to make this easy for her. he just wanted to spend some good quality time with her again. even better than before. his hand that was in her hair was now cupping her small cheek. his large hand almost cupping her whole face. “yeah ?” he questioned, his hand now trailing down to her arm. his fingertips touching her arm now gently. “we should definitely discuss that out,” he said. eyes locked onto hers. his hand keep sliding down, back to her upper thigh. but this time, a little more to the side of her sensitive era. “we should also discuss out the living situation …. what about, i buy a house close to yours?” he suggested. his face gently leaning in. “so i can spend more time with alex,” he told her. “and see you more often,” as he said that, he slid his hand to the inner of her thigh, now gently caressing the inner side of her thighs. “so we can - take care of each other yeah,” he whispered, leaning into her ear while his breath touched her neck.

it was almost infuriating, how easily shawn could get under camila's skin. how one simple touch could render her speechless, only able to bite her lip as her hands found their way to his chest and her fingers curled against the fabric of his shirt. "i like the sound of that," she breathed, her vision spinning as she trailed a hand up the column of his throat, fingers spanning over the nape of his neck as she tethered him near. "we can have more time alone. with more places to be alone. a bed. shower. balcony. m'not picky." it's been almost a year, okay? camila had needs, damnit. like clockwork, she uncrossed her legs as shawn's fingers found their way between them. her heart fluttered against her ribcage. fuck. "remember the last time you and i were alone in a dressing room, shawn? you took real good care of me then. how'd that go, again?"

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shcwnm:

without hesigsting he gently took the mini out of her arms. “of course,” he nodded his head while he got up already. “i’ll be right back then. to - talk about the adult stuff,” he said, another smirk appearing on his face. he then took alex to the small room and made sure he was safe before he would walk back to camila. he made sure he was surrounded by all pillows. not wanting him to fall of the small couch and ending up hurting himself. he gently pressed a kiss on his forehead before he made his way to camila. he then quickly sat back down on his place, next to camila. his arm yet again moving over her shoulders, pulling her close this time. “ so - what’s about that adult stuff?” he questioned. now his free hand pushing some hair out of her face and tucking it behind her ear.

the second shawn was out of the room, camila was on her feet and bounding over to the diaper bag and her purse tucked inside. okay. protection. good. just for safe measure, she pulled a little satchet out and stuck it in her pocket, hoping it was deep enough to not be felt. she stood upright and looked herself over, fussing with her hair. okay. good. good! fuck. she whirled back around and reclaimed her spot on the couch, tossing her hair over her  shoulder and leaning back, one leg crossed over the other. perfectly chill. shawn came back in just in time, and camila let out a blithe laugh at how easily he slotted in beside her. "adult stuff. yes." she met his eyes, shifting her body to face him and puffing herself up just a bit. "we should talk about adult stuff. like taxes. the economy. plans for education. living situations." as she spoke, camila inched closer, her gaze darting down to shawn's lips and back up to his eyes. "taking care of each other."

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shawn ! 

had he missed to kiss those lips ? yes. he definitely did. even though he only kissed her like a few times only that night, he really had been craving to kiss those lips just one more time. his eyes went from the small latina back to their little baby in the arms of camila. he saw how camila’s cheeks turned into a pinkish color, making shawn smirk widely. he just totally knew what he was doing. “ i guess …. we have another small couch in the room there, ” he said as he pointed to the door inside his changing room. “ the couch we have in there can be pulled out as a small bunk bed. he could … take a small nap in there ? ” he suggested, his hand not removing from her upper thigh. his fingers gently moving up and down, as if he was caressing her thigh.  

shawn still had his hand on her body, which meant camila had jelly legs. no possible way she could walk her son over to a bed, let alone to the door just a short stride away. "you wanna' take him?" she asked, then passed alex over into shawn's arms without waiting for an answer. flustered, camila cleared her throat and mentally racked her brains to remember just what she'd put on in the morning. it's not like she was expecting anything, really. but after almost a whole year - listen. aside from the accidental pregnancy and all, the last time she and shawn had been alone in a dressing room together had been really, really good. "i'll be here. waiting. to talk about adult stuff."

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Camila apparently don’t understand the hints.

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shawn ! 

shawn nodded his head, completely agreeing with camila about education. when he saw camila’s small grin playing on her face, he smirked a little at her. his eyes that were glued on alex now looked at the small latina in her arms. he never really believed in love at first sight, but the day he had met camila in person - he fell in love immediately. did he ever got to tell her this? hell no. he had always thought she’d deserve someone better than him. when camila scooped even closer, his smirk grew even wider and he just stared at the latina. “ i’d do anything for him. he’s my little buddy, ” he smiled and gently moved his hand onto the little infants tummy, rubbing it. “ yeah ? - y’ think ?” he asked as his face was leaning in closer, his hand then accidentally falling onto her upper thigh. pretending as if his hand weren’t on her upper thigh, while he definitely knew what he was doing. “ what kind of adult stuff, though ? ”

it wasn't like camila wasn't used to being close to shawn. hello, small baby in her arms as proof. but- but the way he was looking at her, and the way he spoke to her and touched her body with no hesitation, no qualms - it sparked something wicked inside of her. something she hadn't tapped in far, far too long. her gaze flitted down to the curve of shawn's lips for just a second. pause. "can't remember." and just as she started to lean in, started to edge closer and close the space between them, little alex let out a sleepy grunt and pushed his bottle away. camila turned to him quickly, cheeks flushing pink as she set the bottle aside and cradled him to her chest. "is there somewhere i can let him rest for a little bit?" she asked, not meeting shawn's eyes as she fumbled coyly.

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shawn ! 

when shawn heard camila was pregnant, he got a little upset because he really saw a future in front of him together with her. he thought she was together with someone else. but somehow, he had never met the guy who did all of this to her. then - when she told him it was him who did all of this, he was first confused at first but definitely happy. all he wanted came true. not really how he hoped it would go, but definitely something he wanted. a family with the love of her life. their own little family. maybe too early, but not regretting one little bit. “ first but definitely not last. i can’t wait for him to grow up and join me too, ” he smiled down at the little baby. shawn gently tickled his sides which caused the room fill with giggles. when camila said she wanted to give him his bottle, shawn nodded his head. he gently picked the little one up and handed him over to camila carefully. he loved to watch camila interact with their son. being a mother looked so good on her. of course, he tried his hardest best to give a good show, but today just a little more - knowing the love of his live was watching him. “ no need to thank me at all, mila, ” he said and watched how gently she was giving him his bottle. “ really ? ” he questioned, a wide smile on his face. he then gently sat down next to camila. moving his arm around the latina. “ this means so much to me. i mean - him. you —– you two …. ” he said softly, not taking his eyes off from alex.

"oh, no no. not until he's older and has straight a's and perfect attendance in school," camila chastised, though a grin played on her lips as she shook her head. "then i guess i can let him skip a day or two to see his dad on tour." the only thing with this scenario she'd described, however, was that it alluded to shawn and herself being separate. doing separate things. having separate lives. opening the door for other people, new people, to come in and... and just be between them. it was a thought that didn't sit well with camila, but saying that aloud was almost as terrifying as telling shawn the truth had been. she sidled closer against shawn's side and rested her head against his bicep, her gaze drifting up from alex's droopy eyes to shawn's own, watching him watch her son. "you'll always be in his life. in any way you want to be, as much or as little." pause. "we should probably, uh. discuss that, no? like, where we are. where we're going. all that gross adult stuff."

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I don’t deserve to be absolutely dragged like this tbh

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Camila & Shawn covering Kiss Me by Ed Sheeran (December 2015)

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shawn ! 

a small smile came up onto the canadian boy’s face as the felt camila’s lips pressed against his wrist. god, had he missed those lips. “is that so? did you cry the whole show buddy? didn’t u even enjoy one little bit?” he playfully pouted and gently took alex out of camila’s arms. he put one hand under his head and the other on his small bum. his cute little face stuffed into the crook of his neck. shawn smiled widely to have his son so close to him. realizing one more time how much he wanted this. especially with camila. as camila told him she found it a good idea to rest a little up, he smiled at her. “you must be hungry too aren’t you?” he assumed since she had been tagging along the whole day. “i’m sure they put food in my dressing room,” he hoped and took both of them towards his room. when they arrived he opened the door for her while still holding the little one in his arms. he then followed camila and closed the door behind him. it was quiet here so it was safe to pull off the headphone that alex was still wearing. shawn first put the baby down on the soft couch and then pulled his headphones off. “this is so much better isn’t it?” shawn asked the little one with a big smile on his face.

as camila busied herself with setting the diaper bag here and comfy blankets there, she cast quick glances to where her son and her boyf- his dad were busy bonding. it made her heart swell, seeing baby alex grirn and wriggle his body in overwhelming joy over seeing his father. since camila had confessed the truth, she'd amde a pointed effort to leave alex and shawn alone as much as she could, letting them make up for lost time. alex was thrilled, of course. and while camila loved her son more than anything, she couldn't help but feel a little bit slighted that his cute laugh and pudgy fingers were taking up so much of shawn's time. they had things to Discuss, after all. "sweet boy. his first concert, and he got backstage passes. what a champ." she strode over towards them, holding her arms out for the little one. "let me give him his bottle," she said as she scooped him up carefully and held him to her chest. one quick trip back across the room to fish his bottle out of her bag, and she was back in the seat next to shawn's before alex could give his first little yawn. "it was a really great show, shawn. thanks again." as she cradled her boy and brought the bottle to his lips, she continued talking absently, voice dropping to a whisper for alex's sake. "he loves you so much, y'know. hasn't been like that with anyone else i've been... involved with since."

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shawn ! 

today, shawn had another concert. somethig he was used to. but this time, it was special. not only would the love of his life attend to his show, but his son too. he really wanted them to get up on stage with him too, but he assumed it wouldn’t be a good idea at all since the crowd was full with a lot of fans, screaming - which is probably why alex was crying every time he glanced over them to make sure they were okay. now that the show was over, he quickly made his way backstage. he smiled widely as he saw the two, waiting for him. “no problem at all. i loved to have you two here with me,” he smiled and came closer to press a kiss on her cheek. as he did so, he gently pulled away and caressed her cheek slowly as he then looked down at alex. he asked premission to hold him, holding out his arms to pick the little boy up. “hey buddy, you look amazing with those headphones,” he laughed a little and poked his small nose. “we should go and rest up a little in my changing room. there’s too much noise here,” he suggested.

it was almost funny how, despite the noise and activity around them and everyone running around to wrap everything up, the whole world seemed to stop the second camila felt shawn's fingers against her skin. her heart fluttered as she met his eyes and turned her head towards the palm of his hand, quickly leaving a peck against his wrist. things got back on track as she turned her attention to alex, however. "poor thing, first concert and he spent most of it overwhelmed and crying. big mood, huh?" camila grinned, easily handing her boy over to his father. nearly instantly, alex settled down and smushed himself against shawn's chest, wails turning into small sniffles. "sounds good to me," camila supplied, already turning on her heel to follow shawn to the room. "i think he's due for a nap, anyway. and you and i are due for a little alone time."

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he knows

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at the moment, there are two things camila can make sense of. the first of the two is her baby boy, crying in her arms as he shies away from the commotion coming from the audience. he's got on a pair of headphones to drown out the noise, but the poor thing is still spooked by the insanity that is backstage at the end of a concert. the second thing that camila can process is the sight of shawn coming off stage, towards them, looking exhilarated and full of adrenaline, and it makes her heart swell. they're not... well, technically, they're not together together. but they're together enough that camila was more than happy to stand offstage and watch his set for the night, baby alexander watching along and growing fussy as his dad stayed away from them. such was the life of dating a popstar with an adoring fanbase - what can you do? camila beamed, standing up a little straighter and rubbing a soothing hand down alex's back as she stepped forward to greet shawn. "that was incredible," she gushed, "i loved it. thank you for letting us come watch. baby mama perks, huh?"

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