(plain text: "every night i dread the process. i take my pills, and lay my head down, i know it won't take long, and yet, i still dread the process.
as i think up stories, fluff my pillow, turn my heated blanket on,
i know it won't take long,
even as a headache thrums inside my skull, thoughts muddled and blurred, words lost between my fingers like sand, i still lay there and think,
'i would give anything to stay awake right now'
because i will always dread the process." End plaintext.)
(ID: a set of 17 drawings featuring a lynx named moss. the first image is the text "every night i dread the process" on a blank background. the next shows a hand holding two pills in it, with the text "i take my pills".
the next three panels show moss laying in bed. the first doesnt have their face visible, focusing on their messy room, with the text "and lay my head down", with the next two panels focusing on their face. moss stares up at the ceiling with the text "i know it wont take long", followed by them covering their face with their hands as tears fall down their cheeks with the text "and yet" above them.
the next panel only shows their face and arms, still covering their face, with scribbles along the edges of the panel and the text "i still dread the process"
the next panel shows moss smiling at their phone, with several thought bubbles containing various characters, including gojo and geto from jujutsu kaisen, five pebbles and looks to the moon from rainworld, and shadow the hedgehog, with the text "as i think up stories,"
moss is shown holding a pillow and smiling again, the text "fluff my pillow," above their head. after this, a hand is shown holding up the remote control for a heated blanket, with the text "turn my heated blanket on,"
the next panel says "i know it won't take long," on a blank background
moss is shown looking shocked while a lightning bolt zaps their brain, with the text "even as a headache thrums inside my skull," around them. next is moss holding one hand to their eye, some of their lineart is blurred, along with the text "thoughts muddled and blurred," above them.
next panel shows a closeup of a phone being held, with a conversation shown on screen. moss sends the message "yeah sorry, i have a headache", with typos and half the message melting into scribbles. someone responds "no worries dude, get-" before their message melts into scribbles as well. above this drawing is the text "words slipping through my fingers like sand,"
we see moss laying in bed again, this time wearing a sleep mask, the text "i still lay there and think," above their head.
the next panel has a black background with red text, reading "'i would give anything to stay awake right now'"
the next panel shows the corner of a room, with a bed on the floor as well as a desk. theres text written on the walls, but most of it is blurred to the point of being unreadable. some text that can be read is "see you in 1000 years" and "ill be alone again" and "don't talk enough" in chat bubbles coming from a phone. on the other wall we can read "no blue light, always in bed at the same time, you shouldn't need music, 30 days-" and then it becomes unreadable. theres no poem lime accompanying this, and the panel is red on a black background again, with scribbles in the corners.
the final panel reads "because i will always dread the process" as red text on black background, with nothing else but the scribbles at the edges. End ID.)
a comic about sleep, trauma, and the dread that comes with having to do the same thing every night, hoping I'll wake up refreshed, for once., and knowing i will wake up just as decayed as yesterday.
