Sad Boi

My name is Caelan.

[ohaarem]

i’m just very fucking sad today.

[caelanology]

The answer is yes. I do use my sense of humor and my social skills to hide my true feelings of sadness and loneliness 😅

[maulencinas-deactivated20251019]

A very special commission to my new pal @jaredwatsondh to promote his solo hip-hop album called #swordbeach , too cool to work with you man, thx for the patience.

https://www.instagram.com/xmau_

[maulencinas-deactivated20251019]

A very special commission to my new pal @jaredwatsondh to promote his solo hip-hop album called #swordbeach , too cool to work with you man, thx for the patience.

https://www.instagram.com/xmau_

[maulencinas-deactivated20251019]

Red girls

www.instagram.com/xmau_

[maulencinas-deactivated20251019]

Xmau 👹✌️, thx to all for support.

www.instagram.com\xmau_

[maulencinas-deactivated20251019]

wip 👹💀 #xmau_

[maulencinas-deactivated20251019]

👹 #xmau_

[megomego-deactivated20220822]

Yashiro sensei~~~~

[caelanology]

Fuck this fake ass nigga

[coziests-deactivated20160116]

+(unedited/transparent ver. here)

[ohaarem]

the greatest people you’ll ever meet (at Foster Village, Hawaii)

[weloveshortvideos]

[milky-katzchen]

Japan has no chill what’s so ever

[bootyscientist-deactivated20160]

damn they cut the fuck up

[simplistatic-deactivated2017020]

[a-pale-girl]

2015. Wednesday. July 29. Refreshing.

Caelan and I went to the beach together and it felt so perfect. No clouds, a parking spot opened up right when we got there, the water was warm, and we packed snacks. I had said some terrible things the other night and they still make me feel terrible. But then Caelan and I spent this whole day with each other and I felt so refreshed. We haven’t had much time to ourselves lately. He is my greatest friend.

[caelanology]

I miss you, behbeh

[gotitforcheap-deactivated201611]

[caelanology]

Me

[caelanology]

January 26, 2016

I'm here in Texas. I'm glad to be with my family, but a part of my heart is left on Oahu. My friends, Janiene, dance, and the island have a special place in my heart. I haven't slept much yet, but for the brief moments that I have, I dream about Hawai'i. I dream about being at the beach, eating out with friends, or cruising across the island. I've never felt like this before. Everything feels so surreal, as if none of this is really happening. I just want to crawl into bed with Janiene and tell her about my day. This brand new chapter in my life is definitely starting out a bit rough, but I will continue to dream about going back home until the day finally comes. Hawai'i Nei has my heart.

[caelanology]

December 15, 2015.

I’ve made a really big decision that will take toll on the rest of my life. As much as I love Hawaii and the people here, I’ll be moving to San Antonio, Texas in mid-January and enlisting in the United States Air Force. 

There are so many things that I’m going to miss about this place. But this decision is for a brighter and promising future for my family, Janiene, and I. 

Ever since I was a kid, the military life is all I’ve known and loved. I knew this time would come, but I didn’t think it would be this difficult. It’s still hard for me to wrap my mind around the fact that I’m leaving. 

The Aloha Spirit is real here. And I accomplished nearly everything I wanted to prior to moving here - which also included finding a beautiful brown-eyed girl from Hawaii to call my own. Almost every big decision I’ve made was for the happiness I wish to share with this woman. I’ve said goodbye to the people I loved way to many times throughout my life, and I even promised myself I’d never let it happen again. There’s no guarantee that everything will work out, but the genuine relationships I’ve built over the past few years with such amazing people have convinced me that this journey will be worth it.