Hi all,
I hope everyone has been well. This post will answer to some asks about why there wasn't much activities on Solace anymore, why I stopped drawing regularly, and if things have been okay.
Some of you maybe know that I'm currently a pharmacy student with two more years to go in my program, but things are pretty challenging at the moment. I've been fighting with burn out, and the thoughts of playing my reverse uno card to quit it, or stick with my deck and go through it, since the finish line is so close.
However, along with other students, being verbally mistreated by some professors during our curriculum and at retail work by colleagues and customers didn't help us coping at all with already very demanding studies -and most of the time personal issues and mandatory part jobs to keep up with student living costs 🫠
During my 3rd year, it went as far as our entire class writing to the Dean about internal problems. What's what even more surprising is that our seniors also wrote a letter addressing the same issues. I saw fellows cry, great students suffering from injustice, and some of them having a hard time coping with this mess😞. One student even drop out without a warning, by missing a decisive oral examination. Could write a webtoon about it…
That's why I've felt so overwhelmed last year, tired of this rat race, and wondered if I should just quit, go far away from this place and those people, pursue art instead, or design, change my studies, go to a new school, whatever it takes…and build a career from that.
However, life isn’t that simple. The world current state is kind of a mess. Even if it's hard to believe in it at our lowest point, we need to keep our spirit. Challenges are most of the time temporary, and the rewards of overcoming them are long-lasting. That's the conclusion I've come to after days of reflexion.
Deep inside, I feel I maybe need to finish what I started and earn this PharmD degree, before pursuing art, design, or whatever life has in store for me. I don't want to let petty people win over my spirit. It has been so hard to get there, and somehow if I succeeded passing 5 years already (took competitive examination 2 times), I can survive those two years.
It may be very hard, but I am committed to pushing through and completing this crazy program, so I can at least have “Dr. Solace” as an useless compensation for all these years of craziness 🫠
Once I graduate, I know that my passion for art will still be there, waiting for me to pursue it.
Thank you for your support, and I hope that everyone will find strength to deal with whatever life will throw at them.
For those who are also dealing with petty people right now, know that your resilience will beat them in the end, and that caring people exist. Reach for help, and believe in your worth, even if I know it’s hard sometimes. We'll keep standing up even if we fall, and despite the pain, find a way to overcome the challenges.