i like being in control of my body
date: 2feb18 || song: pretty girl - clairo || location: chicago/dc, fall ‘17
i eat very little. all my close friends know that. but this is not a good thing.
i like the feeling of being in control of how i look. i feel healthy when i eat a lot (relatively) and when i have fat in my belly, but i feel more pretty, confident, and more "swift" (for lack of a better word) when i don't eat a lot
to put things into perspective;
"a lot" is equivalent to two sandwiches per day + snacks
"not a lot" is equivalent to maybe one sandwich per day
i like knowing that i can change how i look and that i am in control. i like knowing that i can mold myself based on the amount of food i eat without having to work out
regardless, i am self-aware that this is so unhealthy, but i'm not complaining because i'm not doing anything about it. i wouldn't recommend this to anyone, but it's just how i do things